" And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight. "

- Iris by goo goo dolls.

Especially for you, S.

Nobody said it was easy, its such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy, Nobody said it would be this hard.
Take me back to the start. - The scientist.

i don't know what to blog. cause actually i don't feel like blogging. but i'm bored. haha. k, wtf.
oh right, sentosa outing on monday was (Y)
work has been alright. i shan't complain much.

seriously people. i don't know what to say.
alot has been going on in my life and things are not the way i want it to be. but who gives a fuck right? sometimes things aren't meant to go the way you wanted it to be.
things change, people change, situations change.
the earth revolves around us slowly. (WTF)

god, i feel like breaking down. but it'll be so stupid of me to cry infront of my colleagues. haha.
so, i'm gonna put on that happy poker face, lift my chin up high.
walk out from that door and rush to the toilet to cry.
cause seriously, i feel like i'm missing something.

i want to be the old me back.
i want to be happy, :(
i was, but eventually situations change.
i wish the weekend is here.

ciggies.ciggies.ciggies.
my new bestfriend. k, not.
asthma.asthma.asthma.
my new bestfriend. k, yesz :)

i love to stay and crap more. but i gotta go.
toilet, here i come. HAHA. fuck you.

&to S: things are going so well. but .....

k, the last i stopped was at the time pasal my sassy girl right? k. in continuation, the day after that, danny and nana picked me up from work. went to hougang cheers just to get roti -.-" haha. then off back home. (Y)

thursday was lunch with alysha at LJS. joined by annisa and syahiid soon after. terserempak with syafiq. talked about alot of things. annisa and syahiid left to watch the blind side. syafiq left soon after too. talked to alysha. danny came over. sent alysha till infront of mrt station. then me and danny headed to bugis to get starbucks. talked for abit then had to go to work. awesome (Y)

friday morning danny picked me up from work. had breakfast at marina square macdonalds. then send danny to work then went home. had a good rest. woke up, did chores. work thereafter.
best habis (Y)

saturday, danny came over to my place. then we headed out to vivo. walked. talked. eat. window shopped. haha. i keep dragging her into bookstores. aww. poor soul :) headed to harbourfront center. then to marina square. then to esplanade. then to bugis to meet zaz and gang. hug hug. talk talk. laugh laugh. me, danny, zaz, aminah and dayana left them. headed to merdandy. drank. played game. laughter is a must. then dayana's date came. aww. triple date :) haha. k, sudah. headed home at nearly eleven fourty five pm. zaz and aminah took the bus. the rest took train. dropped at payar lebar. took twenty four to angmokio then took one six five back home. danny stayed over at my place. we talked. laughed. sing to songs on mtv. watched soccer. practically stayed up the whole night having fun (Y)

sunday, six plus sent danny to bus stop. slept. woke up quite late. then headed to masjid sultan in the late afternoon. working now. (Y)

sentosa later on with danny and yusri (Y)

update more later babies. goodnight.
xoxo.

work was alright :)
bugis, iluma, suntec, water fountain, marina square, dinner at mac donalds was (Y)
thank you very much for the night out.

tomorrow i shall start at one. and end at nine thirty five.
night with two girls tomorrow :)
can't wait. heh heh.

nothing much to blog about. just that i cried again while watching my sassy girl.
bitch ass. i should stop crying while watching movies already.
its two fourty four and i'm not asleep.
fuck my life. HAHA.

goodnight babies.
xoxo.

(Y)(L)(Y)

weekends was ok? haha. nothing special. k wait. there was. HAHA.
saturday late afternoon headed to masjid sultan as usual where else. tskk.
prayers. makan. that much of a fun.
parents talking about marriage. ustaz talking about wanting to introduce people to me.
uncle and aunt supporting the ustaz. wahh, BEST HABIS.
met up with danny and nana for awhile. (Y)

today, nothing much. stayed home.
my head's in pain. and i think i'm gonna get a temperature soon.
my eyes are red. and no, its not cause of lack of sleep. thankq.

back to watching glee. wee~

yo dude, stop making my mummy cry man.
piss off bitchsxzx.

" Leigh Anne Touhy: [from trailer] Find some time to figure out another bedroom for you.
Michael Oher: This is mine?
Leigh Anne Touhy: Yes sir.
Michael Oher: I never had one before.
Leigh Anne Touhy: What, a room to yourself?
Michael Oher: ...A bed."

this movie is the fucking shit. i tell you. i teared almost half the time of the movie. its fucking inspirtational and its fucking nice and i'm damn fucking slow to watch it but what the fuck. it deserves a fucking oscar award. i'll never forget this movie, not for a very long time.

met up with a friend at dhoby ghaut mrt. headed to plaza singapura to catch the side line. once again, this movie, is the fucking shit of all fucks. haha. omg. i'm becoming more vulgar. sorry. pms i think. so yeah. :)

walked to town. the whole round of town. then walked to raffles place.
haha. its fun to walk. can get to know alot about the other person and stuff. so yeah.
bought prosperity meal and mac's. gahh. cravings done. hehe.
sat at somewhere near esplanade and talked the whole night away.
thank you for the day today, (Y)

i'll be off to kubor in the morning. then since i had no plans, DanBiskot and crew is coming to my void deck to meet up.
AFTER SO LONG. like, 2 fucking years already. haha.
i finally get to meet them later on. weee~
i miss them like crazy ahhh.
homeboysssss, i miss you guys too.

faritz and kyser, happy birthday yo (:

i think i'm done. goodbye babies.

" time to reach out, time to be who i am.
finally i believe dreams will unfold,
its like being touched by an angel,
a brand new beginning,
its amazing,
this is a moment i will remember.
finally i can feel heaven on earth,
its like being touched by an angel.
my world is changing,
i'm living out loud,
feels like i've been touched by an angel above. "

yesterday i was home from morning till day. then headed off to town.
then to masjid sultan for maghrib, tahlil, isyak.
hajjah esah for dinner. then home.

today, i'll be meeting DB for a date :)
update soon. take care babies.

running a very high temperature now. nothing that a good old shower in the cold can fix. pshht.
i'm still under alot of medications. that sucks. this sucks. everything sucks.
i should really change my means and ways of life.
maybe if i start trying to live it to the fullest, every pain might actually go away. L.O.L

i hate how my family is turning into. but its nothing in my will power to save.
god bless all of y'all. i might actually shift houses if i want too.
cause i'm already "legal" for my age to move out. just not "legal" to buy a house.

i miss my bestfriend. no, she's not far away. just a half and hour bus ride.
but i feel like we don't connect anymore like we used too. i don't know if she feels that way too.
but i miss her. i miss talking crap and bullshit with her.
i miss having stupid lomo conversations with her.
i miss everything that we used to do together.
like how i'll come by your place and we'll wrestle with each other.
slap each other etcetc.
i miss my bestfriend.
i'll wait for her to come back. or is it just me?

i love my baby, (:
my baby makes me happy.
hoping to meet you soon and get that hug and kiss that i want (L)

honey, i hope you're doing fine.
you're never forgotten ok. i love you, always.

take care readers.
xoxo.

hello readers. haha. yesterday's trip to JP was (Y)
thank you syukri, healme and hazwan for everything. haha.
from telling me whats the difference between hotplate and claypot, to making me check three times, to stupid jokes and uncontrollable laughter. haha.
west people aren't that bad after all huh?

was supposed to meet syuk and wan for lunch today at RP but i decided to give it a miss cause i'm still tired. due to the lacking of my much needed rest. omg. my systems screwed. i wonder how like that later if i continue back working. grr.

meeting nazz later at tampines interchange then we'll be heading to school to catch NP against ITE. haha. i don't know which team to support cause both of them has friends that i know off. maybe NP cause my brother's in it. chey, besarkan blood nampak. haha.

people make me happy, i happy.
thats how the way life is honey, (:

till then.
xoxo.

glee, (Y)

ok, as stated in the previous post. a proper post today. so, where shall i begin?
NYE and NY was spent well with WOLS and WJLA. break bonds, create bonds. you know, the works.
i'm on my break now. but have been called a few times back to help out. theres always a disaster when i'm there. haha. be it a patient punch or get harassed in some way. what can i say? sick patients get sick minds too. its like a package for them.

last saturday, had dinner with WOLS and WJLA again. kampong glam cafe. made a fool out of ourselves infront of masjid sultan. you know, trying to live our childish moments whenever we can. and heyy, i guess someone is right, there is a childish kid in me. thanks.
headed back home at around like what, 11 plus? thanks to WJLA people for playing with my name. now everytime when someone said D, i'll look at them. tskk.

sunday was family day. well, sort of like a family day. its always been us three. met the both of them at suntec after babysitting. walked around. i should start shopping soon. then off to bugis. and guess where we ate? kampong glam cafe, -.- ironic. haha.
then, be hold, a group of ustaz together with my pakcik came. W.O.W.
i guess my mom never gave me the brochure of them joining, i wasn't fully dressed " appropriately " thanks guys. haha.

went back home. jam. goodness gracious. i literally dropped down at this school and walked to jalan kayu bus stop. was supposed to meet a couple of friends for supper. but because of the jam and i was horribly late. i decided to give it a miss. wasted my taxi fare. but i got a free ride home. thanks bestfriend. :D

ok, its three oh three pm. i'll be heading to JP later to make cake and meet some of WJLA. bodyguards. lol. i'm hungry. and as of now, its the 2nd stick. woohoo! progressing well. tomorrow i'll be heading back to school to watch NP against ITE. a promise is a promise.

till tomorrow. take care readers.

&honey, i still love you.
no one can take that away from me.
but sometimes, it hurts so much to love you,
that i wish you have already fade away.

what more can you ask when you have this people around to make your life a better one? (:

honey, i didn't forget you. its just hurts to think about you.
i love you, boy.

i'll be back tomorrow with a proper post homies (: