To whom it may bloody concern,
Your " compliments " at your blog. I'm just gonna laugh t it. Haha. Seriously. Damn funny yknow. So yeah. I'm not gonna be all hot headed and stuff. Like fcuk it la.
New year already. So whatever. Haha.
See, so good right?
And oh, because of someone and because i'm a believer (ps, of course la i'm also a sinner. everyone is what) this bloodyfool right here would like t say sorry.
You wanna shoot me back at your blog. By all means thats your problem ah. I'm being good.
I'm not gonna get worked up by all your " compliments ". Haha.
So yeah. Done.
Nothing more i can say. Now lets see what you have t say.

______________________________________________________________________

As time goes by, i'm learning t control my anger. Haha. What for get angry over stupid things? Tskk. Whatever la eh.
So anyway, new years eve tday. Plan? Go out w family. Haha. Th tradition la katekan.
School's starting next week. So not looking forward t it please. Arghh.
I can't seem t sleep in early yet. Haha. Thats my problem right? Shut up. HAHA!

Bloody no mood already :D

Goodbye/}

SO SHE STUCK HER MIDDLE FINGER,
T th world t th world t th world.

These past few days has been like a roller coaster ride for me la. I mean like, good enough i'm not spewing vulgarities already. So please people. Don't get me started. Its seriously not worth it ah.
There are a couple of things i'm seriously pissed off w ah. Let me list a few.

• I hate it when people say i do things which i practically didn't.
• Don't have t make a big fuss of me adding you back in fs ah. Its like, niat dengan baik nak kawan ngan kau, kau bagi aku taik. Whatever la eh. Don't say i never did treasure th friendship ah. If i didn't i wouldn't go through th hassle t wanting t be your friend back. Knowing that you're still mad but i tried. So who's not treasuring th friendship now?
• Don't try t break me and taslim apart ah people. Please ah. You like th guy, just tell me. You like me, just tell him. Don't need t act like somebody you're not and say i hate you this kinda stuff la. Like bloody immature yknow.
• Don't get me started on honesty ah.

So ya. These are th main reasons why i'm so pissed off. Its not that i don't take it IMMATURELY, tak suke, tak payah nak bilang satu dunia yang aku ni budak jahat. So ya.
Oh, lets have a english lesson now shall we? Here are some definations of some word.

• FORGIVE; t stop being ANGRY towards somebody or something that he/she has done wrong.
• SINNER; an action or way of behaving that is not allowed by a religion.
• BELIEVER; someone who has religious beliefs.

So yeah. T this friend, oops.. i mean ex friend of mine. Which one are you?
Be it you're th person or someone related t th person ah. Whatever it is. I've tried my best. You don't seem t appreciate my trying. So why th falalala would i bother right?

I'll post whatever happen tday into th next post.

Goodbye/}

DON'T LIE T YOURSELF,
Some kind you are.

Saturday, 27th december 2008.

Well. I didn't do much. Home-ed all day. Uh huh. Haha. Bored myself w alot of things. Tv-ed. Texts w that moron. So yeah.
Oh-oh, ALYSHA INSYIRAH BTE ABDUL MALIK KEEPS HER PHONE IN TH ZIP LOCK BACK AND TAKES IT W HER T TH SHOWERS SO SHE STILL CAN CONTINUE TEXTING PEOPLE!
I told ya i will right. Haha. At least, be grateful its not th headlines :D
So anywhats.

• Wizards of waverly place.
• Hannah montana.
• Channel v countdown.
• Emperors new school.
  
• Peterpan.
• Something on star movies.
• Something on HBO.
• 40 most stylish weddings.
• Duece bigallow.
• Titanic.
• Hiphop countdown.
• American dragon drake long.

So thats pretty much what kept me company th whole half of th afternoon till night time while waiting for that moron t sleep.
&Oh, i texted kimberly too. She v good la. One time stm all, now ditch me t meet some lover. HAHA. Ok, joking la kim ((:

SAKINAH'S COMING BACK HOME TODAY.
YAYYYY! :D

&I checked my GPA results. Like ksjngiregnerqnf;kwqnf;eirgb3ruenfkerangqoer;gn3or la ok!
Wahh. Then as soon as i checked, my teachers like pyschic gitu, call me up and tell me one long thing. But i knew what they meant and all la. So yeah.
Doesn't really bother me at first. Till they say one particular sentence that made me seriously freaking pissed off. So whatever la.

Slept at 0500am. Cool or what.

Today, 28th december 2008.

Well. I don't think i'll be going out. I'm having high fever now. Gahh. I hate it when i have high fever. It'll really bring down my immune system ah. Seriously. Tskk.
Then i'll be having a hard time having fun and all. Rahh!
I have this feeling, its like a couple thing.
Haha. Bf's having high fever too. Aww.
Get well soon bi (:

Currently w allysha on friendster and blog. So yeah.
Will edit this post if theres anything t update later on. Haha.

Goodbye/}

YOU ONLY HAVE ONE CHANCE,
T have a moment like this.

Soooo, this is how my day went. Haha. Met up w kimberly at CGH at 1620pm. Then met michelle and her friend. They went t smoke. Me and kimberly sat at th fish pond area while waiting for them t finish smoking. Had this long conversation and all la. So yeah. Then michelle came. So we started talking. About alot of things. Haha. Then their friends came down. Fizah and khair. Uh huh. Ditched th place for some block near CGH uh. Talk, smoke, laugh. Th usuals. Then michelle left. Then fizah left. So its khair, berly and me. We started t talk about our mix blood and language and stuff like that.

Soon after, we decided t walk back t khair's place. He changed. We waited for him somewhere. Kimberly had firebreak. Haha. So, we waited and waited and when he finally came out, our prediction was true. He did fell asleep. Wahh. Haha. Met up w bf. Then we went our seperate ways. Saw nashrun and his gf. Sat at long john silvers at first. We both like don't know what t eat. Then we went t burger king where we bumped into ray and nana. Sat down. Talked. Haha. Ordered food. Talk again and all. Then ray and nana left. We went t one three one i think. While waiting for a call from kimberly that i never got -___-"
Right, love you too babe. Haha!

Ditched simei for tampines. Lepak at my block then went t this block near east view sec. Haha. Something funny happened. CID konon. Pegedah! Haha :D
Back t my block. Lepak for awhile. Then he went off t meet his friends. I went home. Cousin and me went t serangoon place t see granddad. So here i am now. Haha. Talked t bf for awhile just now. Then calling him later again. W gods will. If i never fall asleep la.

I texted alysha, she didn't reply. Hais. I texted durriah, she didn't reply. Double hais.
I hope th both of them are ok.
Thank god saki is coming back tomorrow.
Uh huh. I might be going away from monday t wednesday.
Family chalet.
Maybe only. Don't know if i'm going. There is one thousand and one reasons why i don't wanna go la.
So yeah. I missed monk marathon today. I only managed t watch two episods out of th sixteen. Haha. Ok, whatever diyy. As if people bother like that.

Goodbye/}

Dear you,
What we went through this morning. I hope i won't go through it again.
I mean, we won't go through it again.
Promise me you'll never say i'll make it on my own.
Love you baby. Always have.
Nine more days t th eighth ((:

CAUSE I'M LONELY AND I'M TIRED,
I'm missing you again.

( I adore this girl w all my heart and soul ♥ )
Happy 17th birthday my dear kimberly ann chander.
Finally, turning seventeen huh? Haha.
Babe, from th bottom of my small heart ( thou you know i have a big heart. HAHA ) i love you till death laaaah. I know you know right?
Haha. Th past few times of hanging out w you is like awesome uh.
Can't wait for th next session. Which is till saki comes back.
I LOVE YOUUUUU!
Yes, love you too! (??) Haha.


Well, i didn't went out till about five plus. Went t my cousin's place t settle some problems ah. Yeah. After that, around seven twenty plus, headed t th sports complex gate t meet bf. He finished prayers, met me there. So yeah. &He looked so holy. In white all. Haha. I felt like as though i was standing beside an angel. Awww. Went t interchange small mcdonals t get mc chicken student meal upsized. Haha. Then sat under four zero eight. Ate. Then lepak at my block.

Around eleven plus, headed off home. Uh huh. Then, things didn't turn out so well. Saki knows what happened. And i thank you dear, for keeping me strong. Oh, dearest durriah texted me. I was hell worried when she told me something. But i'm glad she's fine. She's currently.. unstable for now. I'm gonna text her pretty soon.

Wednesday, 24th december 2008.

Down w th fluuu. It sucks uh. Tskk. Berly texted me out of a sudden. Haha. I think she's really sweet (:
Anywhats, she told me something. Something that i already forgot, i think? Haha! Too much things on my mind. Yeah. And, she called me up t check on me. HOW SWEET OF HER?! She's like talking t me on th phone while crossing th road la. And not following th green man thingy. Tskk. She uh. Just turned seventeen then want t do this stunts and all. Give you one smackdown then you know ah berly!

So, just chilled at home with my annoying brother. Watched tv and all. Mom's home but she didn't talk much. Its ok. I understand her and all. So yeah. Didn't really bother me at first, but it kinda bothered me a little bit later. But, nevermind. The botherness will soon go away. Haha.
Texted w alysha insyirah bte abdul malik and kimberly ann chander. Lol.
Phone got me really irritated. Especially during th festive season. Starhub will be damn laggy ah. Tskk. I had t retry sending my messages don't know how many times till it got through. Serious pissing me off. Haha. Whatever, keh. ITS STILL LAGGY TILL NOW! I know its not my phone. Its starhub! Haha ;D

So, in th end. Me and brother just listened t some songs. Laugh about this and that. I helped him created a new blog. Haha. Yes, so kind of me thank you. Haha. Then bf texted me. Wahh, at that point of time. I was like already wanting t go out and meet him ah. But then, he said something that calmed me down a little bit and got me thinking. So yeah, stayed home and prayed for th best that nothing will happen.
Three plus or so, he called me up. Had a short little chat. Then i went t sleep. Yeah. Thats how i spend my first four hours of christmas? HAHA!

Thursday, 25th december 2008.

Merry christmas and a happy new year everyone!
(:

Yes, its th time for giving and sharing and celebrating th birth of jesus christ. Haha. So, t all my christian friends, merry christmas!

Know how i spent my christmas? At home. All day. Watching tv. Gerek or whatttt. Haha. Watched channel v all day. Then t who's line is it anyway then back t channel v then deck th halls then soon now, friends. Haha.

Alysha insyirah bte abdul malik was kind enough t teman me by text. I texted durriah, but sadly no reply from her. I hope she's alright thou. Yes, i am worried. Hais.
I wanted t text berly. Maybe later. I think she's like partying or what now. Cannot be she's home for christmas right? Haha.
People asked me out tday, but like what alysha declared me is true. I am a bum. Haha! Keh, whatever.
I'm thinking of cutting my bangs again. Its already v long. I don't know if i should do it. Should i cut it or keep it as long fringe? But if i do, i can't push my fringe t th side cause of my last time bangs. So yeah. I have t clip it up most of th time. So, how? Help me people! Haha :D

Oh yeah. Even if i don't know her, who cares right? Haha.
Happy birthday t alysha's friend. Wahh, christmas baby. Cool or what?
Haha. May you be blessed always.
Take care. Study hard.
Ok, i guess i'm done.
FRIENDSFRIENDSFRIENDS!

Bf's out t mul's place. I'm bored. I'm getting fatter. I need t jog.
Who's want t jog w me around sunpla park? TEXT ME!
*Hints t alysha*
Ok, done.

Goodbye/}

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS,
Is you (:

Well, ok. T start things off.

Sunday, 21 december 2008.

Bf's clinical posting group had this pit at pasir ris. He asked me t come down, so i did la. Haha. Things weren't fine between th both of us in th first place. I managed t cool him down and all. And it turned out t be alright. Had dinner with family first. Then met him at cheers then walked t th pit. Then halfway through, mum messaged me saying that my dad wants t meet bf. Haha. So we both went t th bowling ally. My dad challenged him t bowl w my brother. Knowing him, he went ahead. Haha. And my dad " threatened " him some more. Ahaha. Funny i tell you.
So i watched him bowl.
SUPER CUTE I TELL YOU :D
I won't tell you whats th score between him and my brother. Haha. Secret la ok. If he says it out in his blog, then let him be. But i won't say it here. So wanna know, tune in t his blog.
* I'm not even sure if he'll post about this. Haha. *
Anywhats, after a game, had dinner at th foodcourt. Then family went back home. We went back t th pit. Left w sheila, yan, nabil, helmi and lenny(sp?) Yeah.
Soon after, some of us decided t go t nabil's aunts condo house. So yeah. Ditched th place. Then went t th house. Nice, but small. I had this eerie feeling. Told bf about it. So, we headed down t th pool t chill. Talk and talk. Haha. I practically did th listening. Then we shifted t another place. Then had this eerie feeling. Haha. All like macam takot gitu. Lol.
Headed t th carpark. Sat there. More talking. Haha. How they teach helmi t attract girls is so funny la i tell you. Haha.

Went up at around 3 plus. Then lied down and all. Talked again. Then nabil went t sleep. We just lay-ed down. Soon after, most of us were asleep. Haha! Then blahblah. Home. Chill for awhile. Showered. Done.

Today, 22 december 2008.

Headed t tamp w bf. Then met w kinah, fizah & amalina.
Headed t century square t buy kim's present.
Then fizah and amalina headed off t watch twilight. Me and kinah went t this playground t chit chat. Bf called. Then laughter goes on. Waited for awhile since kim pushed th timing t six instead of five. So, talked-talked. Wasted time. Then after that bought th cake. Took 31 down t CGH. Walked t east point. Sat at starbucks. Talked about alot of things. Haha. Laugh here and there. Six o'clock came and kim still haven't texted. So we decided t wait somewhere else cause we had a surprise in mind. So yeah. Waited for her t arrive. Lit up th cake and we asked her t meet us behind LJS. Surprised her and gyeah, (:

Haha. Me and kinah was like kanchiong-ing uh. Tskk. Lol. But thanks t her brilliant plan, it all ended up perfectly. Haha! Thou th cake was abit deformed, th candles went out quite fast. Haha. It was still nice and sweet. Yeah. So headed back t starbucks t chill. They had caramel, i had toffee nut. Nice yknow th drink. Haha.
1930, off back home. Mom picked me up at th bus stop behind there.
We had a serious talk in th car. Bf knows about it. I don't know what t do. Sigh.

All my laughter for today gone into th drain for one bad news.
I need t de-stress. Hoping t meet bf tomorrow. Really.
Being w him, brings th pain away. Without him, th pain is stabbing my heart.
I'm done.

Goodbye/}

All i ask is for my dad t be w me by my side. Once a day out of th whole week, fair enough. But now, once in don't know how many months? How can i live w that?

BUT EVERYTHING MEANS NOTHING,
If i ain't got you.

Here are some of th photos of th lepaking session. There's still more t go. But then, i've not yet finishing editing them. Dear lord, we took so many photos. Haha!

See th group photo there? Th fourth one. From th pink girl all th way t th girl sitting down, they are: fizah, kimberly, sakinah & ashikin.
My only form of laughter that day. Thanks guys.
Love you too. Haha :D
( Ps, my eyebrows look v fierce in all th photos. HAHA! )

Anywhats, things between me and boyf are settling down a little bit. I'm hoping we can be ok by today. I so wanna meet him tomorrow and spend th night w him. Hais.
I'll just hope and pray, * fingers crossed *

Monday, probably out w them again in th night time? Celebrating kimberly's birthday.
Haha. More bitching, gossiping and a whole lot of laughter coming i guess.

Special thanks t kimberly & kinah. For everything. You babes rock XD
&T kimberly, CUT DOWN! STAY STRONG! LOVE YOU TOO!
Haha.

I guess i wanna go and sleep now. I haven't gotten a wink of sleep from yesterday till as of now. Been wirid-ing w dad all day. Physically and mentally tired.
Furthermore i'm having a bad headache, if i reply t anyone's text late, early apologies alright.

Goodbye/}

Dear you,
I wish i could think that i was strong, till th day it all went wrong.
I think i need a miracle t make it through.
&If you must know, or you already know.
You are, and still, my only hope of a miracle.
I love you dear, i still do.
BACK OFF BITCHES, HE'S STILL MINE.

By you spewing out vulgarities, saying untrue stuff about me, not wanting t meet me, showing me attitude, giving me this cold treatment, if thats who you are, if thats how you show you love me.
Seriously, its good t know.
Arghh.
):

You were everything i wanted, you were everything i'll thought you be.

Thanks kinah, kimberly, faizah & ashikin.
For that hours of laughter.
Now, i'm back t oldself.
Emoing shit fcuking girl.

IF YOU LEAVE ME TONIGHT,
I'll wake up alone, don't tell me i will make it on my own.

I'm gonna do it like durriah. Not saying names or anything. But t call that person you. So, pandai-pandai read and figure out ok.

To you.
You were th first person i contacted when i was facing this problem. Cause why? Seriously, at that point of time, you're th first person who came in mind. I don't know why, i didn't look for th others, but i looked for you first. &I thank you, v much. For being there for me. Seriously, i am.
" No. Cause i know he wouldn't. He really loves you. I can see and sense it. Or should i say, i know it. Action speaks louder than words babe. He loves you still. "
Know who you are already? I guess so.
You tried t pull those negative thoughts away from me, but it somehow didn't work. You tried t put happy thoughts in my head, somehow it didn't work too. I don't know what it'll take for me t be th hyper diyy back again.
I'm sorry, for all th trouble i've caused. For you t perah your otak. Thinking of ways t make me feel better. Thinking of ways t assure me that things are going t be alright.
Thank you, you.
For everything. You tried t colour back my world.
Its helping, abit. Tiny.
At least, its making progress.
♥

To another you.
You were there for me. From start till finish. Ensuring i was alright. Ensuring that i didn't do anything stupid. You cried w me. You felt how i felt. You were like my soul, and i was th body. You were like my sister. You were like my mother, most importantly. You were my bestf. Don't say things like, i'm a useless bestf. Cause you're not. And never will be. I told you ample times before. So i guess, you should know who you are already.
" Gosh. Pls dun. Pls dun ever give up. I'm here to make you strong. "
It made me smile. It really did. You were th first t make me smile.
Thank you.
♥

To another, another you.
" okay. if i be you, i prepare to be left by him. & PLEASE, DON'T EVER LAFAZKAN THAT YOU WANT A BREAK-UP WITH HIM. if he still love you, just follow the flow " words from someone i trust th most.
She's th person i've known for almost a year now. She's th person i trust most in class. &In life. Cause she knows me best. And she never fails t be there for me. Even when she's somewhere outside from singapore. I know she'll try her best t be there for me.
Words can never describe how thankful i am w her. All i know is, she's gonna get something in return when school re-opens.
♥

Lastly, you.
I don't hate you.
I love you.
Never did hated you. Never will.
You knew th reason why i was angry. You knew it was never my fault t begin w. Yet you still wanna push th blame on me. What is wrong w you? Hais. I was so angry that you did that. And furthermore, you did something i hated most. And you showed attitude. What is this? If i were in th wrong in th first place, yes, you should be mad at me and all and say all those hurtful words t me. But this, i'm not even in th wrong! So why? Why this? Why am i receiving shit from you? You jolly well read what i said in th previous post. And yes, i did sticked t it. You give me shit. I return you shit. And yes, by saying i hate you, means i'm giving you shit. But you jolly well know i didn't mean it and you jolly well know i was angry. And me and you are like th same. We tend t not mean what we say when we're angry. Hais. I'm just dissapointed in you, yknow. I expected great things from you. Even after when you ask things from habib noh. I thought at least, you'll change your old habits. It did. For awhile. But like what you told me before. Old habits die fast don't they?
But all this doesn't seem t matter now. All i ask is, please be ok. Stop doing things you're not supposed t.
" Then save your relationship.
I don't know whats happening to mine. I was in love with this girl. She takes care of me very well. She always knws what i want and always listen to me. She never once fight back, never talks to me rudely, never do what i dislike. I trusted her with my whole heart. But now, she's different. She's doing the opp. Easily said, she stole my heart so she could tear it apart. "
You want that girl back? YOU CAN. Just don't do what you're not suppose t do. She will be back. I told you before. Don't do things you're not supposed t do, don't do things that will get me angry, don't do things that will tend t make this relationship float on thin ice. DON'T DO IT. I want t be that girl back. &I know you want her back t. I'm trying my best.
" Small little mistakes, can turn into big fights. "
See how this is turning into? Hais.
I love you dear. You know that.
You just never wanted t believe it.
You know i've always been there, watching you go up. Watching you change.
&You fall. W one simple mistake.
Now its hard t go back up. But i'm willing.
Willing t stay, t watch you go up again. T pick you up when you fall.
Thats what i do as GF. And thats what you do as a BF.
You pick me up when i fall, i pick you up when you fall.
It takes two hands t clap. It takes two people t tango.
Same goes as this.
It takes t people t make this relationship a perfect one.
I want it t be, do you?
I know i've said it t you already. But i'm gonna say it again.
If i were t start up an arguement, break up w you, do whatever stupid stuffs that you don't like, its never gonna be my biggest regret or biggest mistake.
My biggest regret or biggest mistake was t ever say i hate you t you.
I'm really sorry. T hope and t die for, i'm truly am sorry.
♥

Thats all.
Try t read. Try t comprehend.
Ps; happy diyy won't be back till th year 2009 or when she's perfectly alright with boyf.

Goodbye/}

ITS CRAZY,
But i'm falling apart.

I know i said i'll be m.i.a-ing. I guess i just cannot stay away from this blog. It's like my soul get-a-way. CHEY AKU :D
Haha. Just some things i need t get off my chest. It feels heavy like a tight rubber band is twisted around it. Tskk. I can't seem t breathe properly.
*Dramatic much!*

Ok, start things off.
Here are a couple of things, I DON'T LIKE, friends, gfs and boyf. Please read this carefully.

1. I certainly despise two face bitches. Ok?
2. Don't tell me how t live my life. I like what i like, i hate what i hate. Don't ask me t like what i hate and hate what i like. ( Excluding boyf, th rest, comprehend? )
3. Never ever, in a million or gazillion years t come, ask me t break up w my boyf. Ok? He treats me like shit, so what? I still love him. Thats what matters. Try me asking you t break up w your loved one, tak suke kan? Aku pun la!
4. Never ever say things that i don't like. Haha. Pandai-pandai la eh.
5. Aku ni, macam main baseball, three strikes and you're out. Doesn't matter if you're my gf and friend, once i had it means i had it.
6. Never say untrue things about me. One thing i hate most are liars and story tellers. Want t make up story about me, make up a nice one. Don't talk bullcrap and all please.
7. If i don't like that certain someone, means i don't like that certain someone. Don't make me like that someone. Ok? Da tak suke tu da la. Nak pakse buat pe.
8. When i'm in this mood, DO NOT ATTEMPT TO DO OR SAY ANYTHING STUPID THAT WILL GET YOU ONE NICE BLAST FROM ME, seriosuly mate.
9. Never ever talk bad about th ones i love infront of me.
10. You treat me nice, i treat you nice. You treat me like crap, i'll give you crap. You treat me like shit, i'll give you shit. You hurt me, i'll kill you. You kill me, i'll haunt you t your death bed. You mess w me, you're messing w one strong bitch.

Ok people? Comprehend? Don't want t be my friend, please let me know. I know i'm difficult. Haha. Born that way, live w it.

So yes, this are a couple of things i want t get off my chest. Wow, it feels so much lighter now. Really. Haha.

Goodnight/}

Dear you,
Sometimes, when i wanna go out w you and friends, you don't want.
You just give an excuse that you don't want t.
Now then i know your real reason why. Its not that i understand.
I do, i perfectly do.
But you must understand me too.
You know how those boys out there can be.
I just wanna feel safe.
I just wanna have my bf by my side.
Thats all i'm asking.
Hais.
Texting is not enough. You can't do anything about it.
I hope you get what i mean.
I'm not rushing you, its just how i feel.
I love you.

ITS LIKE I CHECK IN T REHAB,
Baby you're my disease.

i'll update tomorrow ok. theres still people at my house. haha. mentang-mentang sumer tak keje besok and i have t work all wanna go home late la. tskkk!
morning sehhhhhhhhhhhh, ):

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI YO!

goodbye/}

MASIH DISINI MENANTIMU
berharap kau akan memirkirkanku.

My lord, i'm going crazy yknow thinking about all those girls.
Liking you is one thing, be it they confessed or not.
How i know if that like can turn t love? Arghh.
I'm sick of challenges this past 7 months. I really am.
I'm really gonna go bonkers, m.i.a or breakdown like crazy if i hear ONE MORE GIRL likes you.
Shit all of them la. Make my life miserable.
This was me, 18 hours ago.

A few minutes ago, an angel named alysha insyirah bte abdul malik said this t me at msn:
" ally green, says:
But he don't like them.
He loves you. Yes.
You should be laughing & happy
cause out of all th girls,
he chose you please. & is still
w you. Uh huh. Don't think too much
laaaaa. "
And i have t thank for it. Really.
And then i remembered someone who used t be my friend said this t me before:
" Kau buat bodoh je ngan dorang. Pape kau ingat lagu akon.
Nobody wanna see us together but it don't matter no, cause i got you babe.
Ingat je tu. "
Thanks. Yeah, i still remember all th advices you give me.
And then, another angel came, siti nurdurriah, said this t me:
" Siti Nurdurriah says:
you must be glad that you're that one lucky girl who he have given his heart to okies
Siti Nurdurriah says:
don't bother about all those other gerls.
Siti Nurdurriah says:
they're just bitches who love to ruin others "
Thanks. Alot. I love you, don't give up ok.

I don't really care if you like him or not. Th thing is that he belongs t me. He aint single, he's attached. So yeah. Haha. Too bad ladies, i'm selfish. I don't like t share my boyf w other people other then his family and his friends that i trust, (:
Want him? You have t go through me. I'm one bitch you'll never wanna mess with when it comes t taslim or my gfs or my family.
Why? Cause THEY BELONG T ME.
Get that?
This is me now, 10 minutes ago.

&Thanks yan, for telling me th truth. And shila too.


Don't you dare take them away from me, they're mine.
( I need those top fours badly right nowwww. &Emma! IMYVDM )

Haha. Anywhats, off now.

Goodbye/}

DO I CATCH YOUR BREATH
When i look at you?

Ok, first and foremost,
HAPPY 7TH MONTH MUHD TASLIM
Thank you for all your guidance and protectiveness and caring, steadfast love and endless patience.
You're really someone special in my heart and i can never forget you even if we've broken up. Cause you're someone i can never bear t lose. Only i can lose t god and no one else. Days with you are just magical, t th heart and soul. Be it if we're in an arguement or just fooling around.
Arghhh. I know we just met and we meet every single day, but i miss you already. Hais.
Seeing you from my balcony just now makes my heart say " don't go, come back " with every step that you take and when you look back t see if i was around and did that chiak-boo thing with th block is so cute. Hais.
I love you muhammad taslim ali khan.
For better or for worst.
Till break up do us part, (:
Happy anniversary babyboy.

Secondly,
SAKINAH AND DURRIAH
Message me anytime you girls want ok. I'm always here t be your listening ear whenever i can. I love you both very much. Don't lose hope on yourself, on god and me. ♥

Thirdly,
ALYSHA INSYIRAH
I miss you, both our phones suck t th core. Haha.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Well, today was a pretty fun day. Karaoke with th elderlys. Haha. Tomorrow we'll be having a christmas party. Confirm alot of fun and excitment. Gyeah.
Nisa made me laugh damn hard just now with what she did. I shall not mention here la. Haha. Anywhats, off now.
Till tomorrow.

Goodbye/}

I don't wanna close my eyes.
I don't wanna miss a thing.

Tuesday, (:
I was late in waking up again. Haha. Cabbed down. Arghhh. Waste money tau. Haha. Anywhats, the day went as per normal. The only different thing was that, in the afternoon, they had church prayers. Yeah. So me and nisa sat down and read books. Haha. I read this interesting book called " Whispers Of God "
Let me share a few phrases with you that i find kinda interesting:

• Why would we want t live with god? My answer? Its easier t live a life with him then one without him.
• Who am i? I'm a believer. a thinker, a writer and a optimist.
• Ask and it will be given t you, seek and you will find, knock and it will open for you.
• Never lose hope, t lose hope is t lose everything. No one can live without hope. In god i trust, in god i place my hope.

I like the last one the most. It's very meaningful t me. Yeah. Anywhats, home. Did project. Then change, went t pick up boyf. Met him at 7-11 with yan. Haha. Then trained back home. Yada-yada, lepak and thats it (:

Wednesday, (:
Dad sent me t work today. Did the usual stuffs again. Haha. Home at four. Met boyf at hougang interchange. Bus-ed home with him. Lepak around. OH I LOVE HIM SO MUCHHHHHHH! Haha. Seriously, i do.
Tomorrow, another day at rehab. Then meeting boyf again but this time round not as long as today cause he going for maulid at night. As he wants t go t pencak on friday. Tskkk!
Just hope that he changes his mind about going t pencak. Heh!

To two people. I don't know why, when i hear stuffs from someone or from you your ownself, i have this feeling of anger. I treat you girls like my bestf, but somehow, i can't seem t control that anger. Hais. I don't want t be a fool t have this kind of feeling towards th both of you. Like cmon ah, korang are my babes but i'm having this feeling towards th both of you.
I managed t make it go away, but why did i feel that way in th first place?

To boyf,
Tomorrow marks a special day for us. I hope and really hope that there will be lesser arguements in th future. Both of us are trying our very best t change. I'm really very happy for th both of us. Yeah. I love you dear. No one can ever take you away from me and no one can ever take me away from you; only god has that power. No one else.

Dear god,
I need you to bless me with strength, patience and solitude.
I need you t hear my cries.
i need you t hear my complains.
I need you t comfort me at my worst times.
I need you t be there for me, in my heart, always.

Goodbye/}

3 hours and 21 minutes more.
7 months babyyyyy.

Well, today was our first day at st lukes rehab. It was quite enjoyable. Haha. Our plan was t meet at hougang inter at 7am. All of them, munirah, nisa and jeremy turned up except for me. Cause i woke up late so i had to travel there by cab and met them straight at the place instead. Lol. At first, they made us read this booklet on the volunteer thingy. We did our project straight away. Taking down the necessary points for our presentation. After that, we helped all th elderly from th bus down t th center. All like very cute can? Haha. After that, we served them tea w bread. Then sing song. Me and nisa was incharge of physio today so we brought the grandma and grandpa t th physio room. Helped them exercise and all. Haha. Damn cute i tell you.

At 12, they ended and we served them w lunch. After clearing all the dishes and wiping it clean, we went for our makan break at this indian coffeeshop. Haha. Laugh here and there then back t th center. We discuss some things then wakeywakey for the elderlys, me and nisa cleaned the physio room. Then headed back t th main hall. Played some games then some of th elderly went back home. Th rest who were still with us, played jigsaw puzzle and all. Haha. Damn cute la. Eeeee. Geram betol. Ended at four then we took 113 to hougang interchange. Nisa, munirah and myself went t long john t eat. Haha. Joke almost about everything. Then nisa w her non stop kutokness. Haha. Damn funny i tell you. Home after surveying handphones. Took 72 w munirah and yeah. Home. Duhhhh kan?

I'm not picking up boyf tday cause im tired and no one is looking after my granddad. So yeah. Tomorrow instead.

I miss this people super badly;

• Alysha Insyirah Bte Abdul Malek
  
• Siti Nurdurriah
• Nur Sakinah
• Nur Syirain Hamzah
• Syafiqah Zainal.
• Umi Ummairah Bte Abdul Karim.
• Nur Atiqah Bte Ismail.
• Nurul Sahida
• Riyanaaaaaaaaa

Are you all missing me too? Tak tau malu gitu eh. Hahahahahaha.

Goodbye/}

Now that we've come this far
Just hold on.