via (loveyourchaos.)

tsupp. yeahyeah i know. its been a long time huh? haha! well, to get things right first,
WHOEVER WHO IS HERE TO VIEW MY RAYA PICTURES,
I'M SORRY. I HAVEN'T GOT IT YET. SO IF THATS WHY YOU'RE HERE,
YOU MIGHT AS WELL LEAVE (:
oke. so, here's what happen from 1st day of raya till today.

• 1st day raya. went off to kubur first. then headed to atok's place. sat there for quite awhile then visited granny. this is all father's side. then after that, headed off to atok on my mother's side. yeah. last to reach. for once! haha. if not its always my family who reaches first. this year raya was so blah to me. like, no kick? haha. err, the only time, where we really got together and bonded was when we watched the manchester united against manchester city. thats when we like really bonded and stuff, kalau tak, you're there, i'm here, she's there, he's there kinda thing. get what i mean? we took photos. for the first time as one big family. but the photos aren't with me. its with my uncle and auntie. and my cousins haven't uploaded it yet. so, i'm totally sorry about the delay. i've seen most of you guys nye raya photos. all so pretty, (:
  
  
• 2nd day raya. we wanted to go to kubur again. but in the end my dad woked up late and so we didn't. did some cleaning and prepared the kuih's and stuff. then in the afternoon gitu we went to my nenek's on my dad side at taman jurong. damn hungry so me and my brother bedal the food like nobody's business. haha. stayed there till about 5 plus. then headed off to pasir ris to my arwah ustaz house. sat there. learned how to calculate this and that. and now, i know how to calculate malam lailatul qadar already. this year tak dapat. last year i did get. and it was awesome. so bright. so peaceful. hopefully, next year dapat lagi. and did you know, we puasa short of one day this year? (:
  so after eating her damn delicious kacang pool and spaggeti masak black pepper. we headed off to my aunts place around pasir ris area also. yeah. chit chatted for awhile then off we went home.
  
  
• other days, well, celebrated my 18th birthday.
  bf, ally, sakinah, kimberly, aishah, ram, jastina ayu, hakim, atyqa hanafie, riyana, daphne, amira amran, natria, fitri sss, rose farina, renuka, aziza, saiful, razmeer, syahrir, minyi, arinah, zulaikha, taufiq, syahir, stepherene, khairunnisa harun, jesslyn, kerrie, meichin, syazwan, shahfiq, taufiq, ismah, lenny, nurul jannah, faridah nisha, wafir, sheeqeen, michelle, fate aten, hazmi aris, feeda & haikal, johnson, dania, ramzan, amm, ez, azmi haris, aida, meichin, nuratikah suhaimi, shiva, emmeric, khyla, xiu hui, fiza, hid, alif, lupita, faezah, shida, syirain, mum, dad, brother, khat & jello.
  did i miss out anyone? if i did, let me know. dah tuer, so tak ingat sangat. this is to my best recollection. haha!
  but anyways, thanks for those who stayed up till midnight just to wish me. and thanks to those who remembered to wish me. i appreciate it alot. may god bless all of you. amin.
  
  
• and also, thanks to alysha insyirah bte abdul malik and bf for the day. i'm still waiting for photos from you uh ally! (:
  and also thanks to siti aishah bte rusli for accompanying me today to buy baju kurung. haha. and thanks four play for the bag & card & present. i love all of you. and i'm damn sorry about thursday. especially to ramram. i know you're mad. i'll text you later.
  
  

so i guess that is it? not bad uh. not that long also. haha. i've been meaning to check my another sim card, to see if anyone wished me happy birthday. but till today to no avail. didn't have the time. if there is, the next post i'll thank you personally again oke? haha. err, i guess thats it. yeah. arsenal against liverpool. ohh, confirm damn gerek. bf's out to his uncle's place with family. nobody has yet to come to my house. relief much. cause i've already lost my raya mood.
monday and wednesday i'll be out for jalan raya. so don't come to my house on this two days. cause i won't be home (:
hmm, let me see, what else? err, oh! here are belated wishes for the september babies. maybe i've wished you through facebook or message but what the heck. for fun and joy and laughter aye?

1. happy 22nd birthday to munirah salin. (3 september)
2. happy 17th birthday to farah aqilah. (5 september)
3. happy 19th birthday rahayu. happy 23rd birthday yasmin syazana. (7 september)
4. happy 18th birthday amanda. happy ?? birthday nafis. happy 65th birthday nenek. happy 18th birthday wafir. (9 september)
5. happy 25th birthday kak aminah. happy 17th birthday hafiz year one and twin, alif. happy 17th birthday fatemah al-mahirah. (10 september)
6. happy 18th/19th i lupa lah birthday atyqa hanafie. (12 september)
7. happy 18th lupita witono. (13 september)
8. happy 45th birthday to dad & obek wawa. not identical twins. but twins. happy 18th birthday to dee. (14 september)
   
9. happy 18th birthday babylove. happy 18th birthday hanah ayob. (16 september)
   
10. happy 18th birthday to muhaimin. happy 18th birthday to jastina ayu. happy 18th birthday to fazlin. (18 september)
    
11. happy 31st birthday mr liew. happy 18th i guess birthday lenny liyana. (19 september)
12. happy 18th birthday kerrie tong. (20 september)
13. happy 17th birthday to dania. happy ?? birthday to buvi. (21 september)
14. happy 17th birthday syazwan. happy 20th birthday khat. (22 september)
15. happy 17th birthday ismah fatin. (23 september)
16. happy 15th birthday ayuni. happy 18th birthday serene. happy 18th birthday mahmod. (26 september)
    soon to come;
17. happy 13th birthday aida. happy 18th birthday nazreen. (27 september)
18. happy 16th birthday suhaidah. (28 september)

oke. i guess i'm done. haha! (:
fo real yo.

" i guess now all i ever needed was stability. "
- loveyourchaos.

via (photoelectrik.)

tsupp. alright. its already pagi raya. weee ~ and i'm not yet asleep. know why? cause i can't seem too. i shouldn't have taken a power nap in the afternoon just now. but oh wells. whats done is done. haha. merepek siak diyy.

so what did i do so far?

• did the dining table.
• iron the hari raya baju(s) of family members.
• helped mum with the cooking.
• watch mat motor edisi srikandi finale. damn sad i tell you.
• watched sinar lebaran.
• watched arsenal against wigan. they won 4-0.
• watched liverpool against west ham. they won 3-2.
• played typing maniac. walauwei. i can't seem to reach 300 plus. pfft.

thats what i did. haha. now, i wanna try and sleep.
i'm content that i managed to talk to bf today.
even if its just a short while, its good enough to last me thorugh the morning, literally.
anyways, before i go,

" katak kenyang lalu tertidur,
gajah pitam lantas terjatuh,
andai tak sampai tangan menghulur,
ku pohon keampunan dari jauh. "

saya, nur diyana syahirah bte rosli, ingin mengucapkan:
selamat hari raya aidilfitri minal aidil walfaizin
kepada semua kawan-kawan diyana yang dekat ataupun jauh.
semoga hari ini diberkati oleh allah swt.
birthday diyy dah nak dekat. *keningnaiknaik*
dah dapat duit raye ape lagi? jangan eksyen uh! haha :D
jokes!
diyy ingin meminta maaf kepada sesiapa yang terlah tersinggung dengan perkataan, perbuatan, apape pun. diyy ni manusia. everytime make mistakes. no one is perfect betul tak? haha. harap dimaafkan. terima kasih.
enjoy semua! (:

ok, so i guess thats it. fo real.
till tomorrow for all the pictures and updates.
goodbye babies.

" love me when i least deserve it,
because thats when i really need it. "
- via (somerset.)

- via (scarymansion.)


tsupp. alright. first and foremost. i'll like to dedicate something to someone.

happy 18th birthday, jastina ayu (:
my sayang officially turned 18 on friday. aww. i hope you had a blast dear.
diyy will be praying:
1) that you will be happy always.
2) you and kimmy will last long. Insyaallah.
3) you will be a successful woman in the future.
4) you pass your exams with wonderful grades.
5) you get through with attachment with the least possible mistakes and scoldings.
6) that god will give his blessing of love, long life, wealth and happiness to you.
7) that our friendship will never end.
thanks for always brightening up my morning/afternoon with your cheerful smile when we're in school. i'll really miss it alot.
attachment is coming, and i'll see you around in SGH. mane tau same shift, kite leh makan same-same ke apeke. haha. and we must take picture together. i don't care muke buruk or what. haha. as long as i have something to remember you by.
i love you, jastina ayu.
once again, happy birthday dear.

alright. aside from that, i haven't found my shoes. damn sad. i'll be going out i think later to find my shoes. by hook or by crook i have to get it by today. if not, i'll go barefooted on raya. haha. hmm. lets see, hari raya message i'll give on morning of raya itself. so yeah. i guess thats about it. granny will be coming back home from mekkah today. alhamdulilah she's well. and will be praying that she'll have a safe flight back here. i miss her (:
alright. thats it. fo sure.

goodbye babies.

via (malfoyy)

tsupp. yesterday night was (Y). haha. i had fun. really. here's what happened:

• was supposed to meet at 8pm BUT bf was late. haha. and i kena the blame. walauwei. so fair -.-" 's ok la. birthday boy mah. haha.
• so met may and aishah. lovely girl. too bad they didn't join us. pity. what a waste.
• then met beel and wan. took the train down to bugis. headed to haji lane to sheesha.
• met up with ful, ray, amanda, faris, sheeqeen and mat. then headed to merdandy.
• saw sheeqa with her bf and friends.
• ordered food, 3 jugs of fruit punch, 3 towers of sheesha and altogther it costs us 105 bucks i think. haha.
• they played a game. haha. bf got to answer the truth that each and every one asked. haha. so funny i tell you. then he has to say good things and bad things about each and everyone.
  
• halfway through me and sheeqeen went to 7-11 cause i wanted to buy chips. then i told her some things. bonded sehhh :D
• left the place around 11 plus. trained back to tampines. camwhored using amanda's camera. haha. damn funny.
• almost reaching tampines mrt station, this is what happened:
  wan: kite kan nanti drop same-same, asal kau salam kitorang?
  beel: korang jalan slow uh. *step nak jump untuk pump diri sendiri, like soccer style gitu.* thennn ... *POM!* he hits his head at the ceiling near the door. HAHA!
  everyone started laughing like mad or whutt. even the passengers. haha. damn funny i tell you. so our day ended with a " BANG! " haha!
• beel went seperate ways. mat & sheeqeen got home via bike from haji lane itself. the rest went to mac's to eat. then after that, home sweet home (:

so that was how we spent bf's birthday day, with a " BANG! " haha!
i hope you had fun baby. as much as we did. rofl. until now, cannot stop laughing. hahahahaha!

today, i didn't do much. ok. i did alot. i'm officially broke. only bf knows why. i'm damn pissed off. i'm sorry amirah a and jastina ayu i cannot go out with you guys. some other time ok.
headed to geylang to get barang-barang to cook for pagi raya. the place is so clean. haha. well, for now je la. nanti-nanti kotor macam that time. hahaha. ermm, after that, back home. slept for 3 good hours. mum asked if i wanted to follow her go hougang mall. i passed. slept again for awhile. then watched a little bit of tv on young royals.
prince william, prince harry or prince andrea lagi handsome? haha!
ok. whatever uh.

anyways, i think thats about it. baby called me just now.
*heart flutters*
heh heh. i think i admire luna lovegood from harry potter. she's so carefree and happy go lucky. people tumbuk dier pun dier tak marah. so cute or whuttt. i wanna be like her. haha.
ok, dah. cukup. i think i'm gonna watch back karan arjun. i watched it halfway yesterday. bf asked me to see. so i guess its pretty good. uh huh. haha. ok. then uhm, thats it! (:
oh, yesterday, ray said something to me and bf that made me feel, happy.

*after taking our picture*
ray: eh, korang loving couple eh.

aww. that made me feel happy. in a way. first time aku dengar orang kate kite loving couple. haha. ok, dah. enough. this time, fo'real.

goodbye babies.

" R: what is the thing you like about her and what is your criteria for your future wife?
T: the thing i want in my future wife, she has most of it. "
- talkings on a wednesday night. i ♥ you, baby.

" I just follow my heart.
Sometimes, maybe too often,
I follow my pain. I'm trying hard,
To stop doing that. "
- loveyourchaos.

tsupp. anyways, yesterday lepak session was (Y). haha. first to arrive was me and bf. after heading to macs, we were still the earliest to arrive. whats new? haha! then came may. then ali arrived. me and may went to get some stuffs. was hoping that saiful was already reaching tamp but nooo. he was at some bridge. haha! so anyways, bought the stuffs. dah tak surprise. pfft. nevermind. so we chilled. then along came faris. or is it ful first? haha! whichever. then wan, then nashrun, then mat and hilmi, then alip, someone and elmmy then finally that beel came. haha. while they were all admiring's hilmi's new helmet and mat's new motor design, they patiently waited for 12mindnight. haha. especially someone. wonder who eh? rofl! anyways, midnight came and:


this boy here, turns 18, (:
happy birthday muhammad taslim ali khan!
i love you baby.
you're matured now. you know what is right and what is wrong.
finally your long anticipated wait to get your lisence is over. haha.
i hope you enjoyed that your friends and i plus your brother stayed till midnight just to sing you happy birthday song and cut cake (:
more of your celebration again tonight ok.
wishing you all the best in your future and please, DON'T BE LAZY! haha.
new moon soon, can't wait!

so yeah. around 1230 everyone started heading home. i spent some time with bf first before heading back. extra present tau tu! haha. so yeah. i guess i'll end here now. i wanna go and have a haircut then after that change and blahblahblah. meet them at the mrt station at 8pm. so, yeap. i guess thats it. haha. till tomorrow then.
goodbye babies.

ps; one more week and its MY turn :D

tsupp. ok. so here i am, boring your lives once again. haha. pre-highlights of what i did today.

1. cleaned my room for almost 4 hours. made sure everything was spick and span.
2. went to catch dance flick on moviefather.com. the show is like scary movie. damn pathethic but a little bit funny.
3. did some more chores around the house. i'm being paid 10 bucks to do it, who wouldn't mind right?
4. texted with the usuals. talked otf with bf.
5. planned a few things with friends (:
6. trying my very best to find a medication that can make my pain go away. pfft. i think i need HRT.
7. i don't think i stink, i smell wonderful thou i do smell something. probably my brother.
8. i went on facebook to drop some comments to the people i've missed thus far.
9. i watched harry potter and the half blood prince. do you know, lord voldermort works out? look at his arms on order of the phoenix. when he's against dumbledore. whaddayknow, the dark lord carries dumbbells too.
10. and here i am now, while planning some things in mind.

so that pretty much sums up my morning/afternoon. uh huh. oh! i was browsing through the net and i found out that partick swayze died at 57 due to pancreatic cancer. tskktskk. nomore dirty dancing i guess. haha. andand. LOOK AT THIS! :

what in the world has become to the world? get it? rofl! 12 year old girl died while doing what? playing in the park? no wait, thats not it, died while having LABOUR. yes. i know ftw! LABOUR sia. and damn she's only 12! and she's married to a guy who's twice her age? omg! what makes me so pissed off is that its a muslim. pfft. i don't want to talk or even think about it anymore.

stop abusing your children. stop child pornongraphy.
stop selling away your child. and please, your child has their own free will.

my goodness. worlds coming to an end. i can't believe this. so much to do, so much to do.
-.-

alright. i think imma go off now. haha. and uh, party at night! *winks*
goodbye babies.

" i need a hug, a kiss, an exchange of words.
some one to tell me everything will be okay. "
- luckily, i'll be meeting you later. i can't survive another day.

tsupp. haha. today, i was irritated by alot of things. tskk.

1. irritated by the fact that my pain aint going away.
2. irritated by the fact that my room is getting hotter each day. HAH!
3. irritated by the fact there is no more pepsi in the house.
4. irritated by the fact that there is no good movies on tv.
5. irritated by the fact that the mat motor sri kandi version made me teared a little bit.
6. irritated by the fact that pinggiran ramadhan made me cry. it was so sad please.
7. irritated by the fact that i'm watching hercules on disney channel.
8. irritated by the fact that my pain aint going away.
9. the list keeps repeating..
   
10. again..
11. and again..
12. and again and again..
13. and again..

" The same love that makes me laugh, makes me cry. "
- To: ♥ of all time. I ♥ you, always.

i think i'm gonna find movies to watch. haha. bf's out and he's enjoying lepak moments with his friends while i'm stuck at home. walauwei. not fair lor. haha. anyways, i really hope this wednesday jadi. i've got a thumbs up already! *grins*
hercules is boring me. really. how can a mutant grow 3 heads after losing 1? pfft. doesn't make sense. they shouldn't spoil childrens mind this way. haha.
i'm off now. goodnight babies.

ps; come home to me soon.

" one day i'll find the right words, and they'll be simple. "

-Jack kerouac.

tsupp. alright. today, i didn't go out. helped mum around the house. bf called me to chat for awhile then he headed off to geylang to get his baju. our colour is a secret. nobody can know (: haha! so anyways, after that i headed to shop and save to get groceries with mum. and i think that pretty much sums up my day. haha. till tomorrow, if there is.

YOUR THE VOICE I HEAR INSIDE MY HEAD,
The reason that i'm singing.

" full time lover and part time lover. aww.
i ♥ them both. "

tsupp. alright. so here are the updates for yesterday. haha.

• i know everyone is gonna be late so i purposely left home 5 minutes before four. and since i'm so pandai, i live damn near the mrt station, i still reach early. wtfwtfwtfwtf. haha. luckily, bf came a few minutes later. semput and what not. then balminas came. and yes, we three are the damn early birds. haha. i don't like janji melayu. but what the heck. fuckers. understood. haha :D
  
  
• went to guardian pharmacy to get medication for bf. this guy, i tell you, very hero. haha. sick still wanna go out and still can kacau me with we know who. walauwei. haha. and thanks to me and my fast thinking, i know what to get for you to relieve your symptoms. i know you love me. hehhh.
  
  
• then ray came. haha. few minutes later, fehrin and a minutes later, ful and may. then we waited for wan to come. then headed to the tracks. fikir nak bounce balik. tapi tunggu lagi satu orang dah. haha. waited for amanda to arrive. then when she came, we finally took the train. haha. trained down to payar lebar where we met alip. walked to haig road to meet hilmi, mat and sheeqeen. i was damn pissed off with the stall owners. seriosuly. irritating specimen habis! nasib aku penyabar. haha. faris joined soon later. then multazam, maziana and i don't know her name :(
  
  
• after buka, we walked around the bazaar. i saw big eyes plus her whatever. haha! damn funny i tell you. then they saw their secondary school teacher. wanted to buy dengdeng but was damn full. nevermind. can always buy some other time. then can give bf too. haha. so, we lepaked outside singapore post for awhile then we took 28 back to sc. headed down to macs to grab a bite then headed back home. uh huh.

so that was for yesterday. all 97 photos thanks to ME will be at balminas facebook. so yeah. check it out from there. and you're welcome for being the photographer for the day. haha! i was bored. so, whatever.

today, i'll be heading to gramps to buka. ape lagi. more photos uh. haha. so yeah. thats all. oh, to my shockingly suprise, no unwanted comments yet. haha. they'll come. sooner or later (:
before i go, i would like to say,
I LOVE MY PEOPLE (:
weeee ~

I'M SURROUNDED BY YOUR EMBRACE,
baby i can see your halo, you know you my saving grace.

tsupp people. haha. i won't be updating now. i'll update later on if i have the time. now i have to do some stuff first. yeah. and oh, before i go. there's something i would like to say:
UNWANTED COMMENTS.
I'LL BE WAITING FOR YOU (:
so what are you waiting for suckas? haha!

Alright. So, i'm back. Uh huh. After much needed studying and all. I'm finally back. For good. Until october 12, when i start my final attachment. Heh :D

Wednesday and thursday was school day. Except that thursday was a little special. We had teachers day performance for the teachers. Aww (:

• A class did dikir barat. Wahh seh. Haha! Ayu center seh :D
• B class sang a song, " Hero ". Everybody's favourite song. Especially my class. Heh!
• C class, natasha, syakina and chabi did the sand art. So beautiful! I like. Very nice. Very touching. Aww. Talented girls indeed.
• D class, some of the girls + syukri + grace + kavita plus some others i can't remember did a dance item. Sheril sang the climb. Sheril + syuk did a poem. Uh huh (:
• E class, my class, did a short skit on the teachers who have taught us since 1.1 till 2.2. Aww. I miss mdm chia, mr nah, miss su, miss pearl, mdm heng, mr lew etc.
• F class, some of the girls did the percussion.
• G class, april & nabil + friends sang some michael jackson songs.
• WDA class, some of the girls and guys together with mdm shymala and mr edmund danced to a indian song. Very nice! I like! Haha. So entertaining. Aww. And it was mdm shymala's last time in ITE CE. She won't be around for our graduation day. Aww. :(

Ended at around 4 plus. Then i went to t block lift to wait for baby. When he came, we waited for the rest. And we amused ourselve by hitting each other. Haha. Then we waited quite long for them but they never came, so, we went up. And found them playing snap. WALAUWEI. Haha. So we sat and wasted time blahblahblah. Haha. Then all of us walked to simei. They left, me and baby went to some block. We wasted time by singing songs, playing games. Haha. So funny i tell you. I love times like this with him, (: So peaceful. Break fast at LJS. Heh. Then went back home. Weee~

Friday, i met up with baby in the morning. And oh;
HAPPY 16th MONTHSARY BABY.
We went back to serangoon home. To study. Haha. But you know la, we won't study. HAHA! In the end, we end up playing with the laptop and play games. Lol. Then he went to meet them boys at ubi. They went to see ful do his practical, which by the way he didn't do so well, but, don't give up! (: then i met them afterwards. Lepak for awhile then off back home.

Saturday, i spent most of my time at home studying. Then after that my mum, my brother and myself went to send my granny off to the airport. Around 7 she went to check in the me and my dad's side family members went to find a spot to buka. After that went to bedok to drink coffee. Then off back home.

Sunday, didn't do much. Just stayed home and studied. Uh huh.

Monday, i met baby in the morning. I was early. Theres a reason why i bold it. Haha. You'll see. Anyways, i had my last minute revision on my PCB. Then went into the exam hall. Lauhging with my friends before i actually cried. Haha. It wasn't that tough. It was manageable. Only on gastroentritis i didn't study but i t came out. So, yeah. I actually teared a little bit after my paper when i left. But nevermind. Waited for baby to come out then we had a little tiff. Then it was back to alright. Headed to serangoon home to study. But then again, we didn't. Haha! He played the laptop while i slept. Then i showered, headed back to tampines. Went back home, chilled abit. Waited for baby to call then met him at my bus stop. He came with ali. Then we headed to SC to lepak + study. Faris and hilmi was there. Then studied till 11 plus. Uh huh.

Tuesday, i met baby in the morning. I was late. Haha. I woke up late uh. Walauwei. Haha. Then hurried up. Last minute study again on BEH. Then, took the exam. Surprisingly, i did exceptionally well. I didn't tear. Haha. Good enough (: Lepak at level six. Then went off to serangoon home. Had a tiff. Ok-ed. Then i stayed back. He went off. Then blahblahblah. Nothing much.

Today, baby just called and he's sick, :(
I hope he'll be alright soon. I'm worried. He doesn't even know why he's like this. And he's still fasting. Aiyoo. This boy. Thats the reason why i love him. He step strong. Nyahaha (:
Aww baby, get well soon.
Love you.

&I think pretty much it. I'll be back soon. Wee~

THINK I KNOW WHERE YOU BELONG,
Think i know its with me.

Yesterday, was the most happiest day of my life. Let me list down to you the reasons why:

• Baby woke up early just to send me to interchange. How sweet? Haha.
• I went to school with rockstar sis + ram and friends. Had a blast laughing my ass off.
• School ended early for us. At 12pm. Sweeeet.
• Headed home back with rockstar sis. Had another blast laughing my ass off. Haha.
• I finally gotten my much needed rest. Yes, FINALLY.
• Headed out to buke with baby + fuckers. ( After tiff, then happy. Heh )
• Then lepak at SC and continue laughing my ass off.
• Home with baby and we had some moments together. Thanks (:

See, how could i not be happy? Haha. And yes, finally i also met my sayang, sheeqeen. Dah lame oi tak jumpe. Nasib semalam jumpe. Haha :D

Today, i did my revision. Texted with breastie. Phone with baby. Out to buka with family. Made my day, made my day (:
Granny is leaving for mekkah this saturday. Uh huh. Tomorrow theres school. I've done my homework, but i haven't done the decorations for the album. Gonna do as soon as i'm done with this post. Heh. Err, what else am i supposed to say eh? Actually nothing much. Haha. Till tomorrow or the next update. Goodbye/}

YOU ARE THE CHEESE,
To my macaroni :D