Day: Tusday still, new post.
Time: 1256PM.


Ok, since everyone is in the raya mood, i shall post this. Haha. Sad to say, i declare that i'm in no mood to raya. Really, i'm not.

Nash, remember when we were talking about my health at msn. Haha. It happened again. And this time round i vomited + cough out blood. Two times in less then a hour? Haha. I wanted to take a picture of it. But it looks damn bloody gross. So yeah, decided not to. &This my fellow readers, brought down my raya mood. It sinked till it died. Haha.

&Guess what? I've yet to sleep from yesterday till now. Cool or what? Bf is so gonna kill me ah. I can't sleep! I think i drank too much coffee yesterday. Haha.

So, if, IF, let say anything happens to me right korang, i want to sampaikan this before its too late:

Memandangkan besok lebaran kami,

Saya, Nur Diyana Syahirah,
Ingin menyusun sepuluh jari mohon maaf daripada anda,
Jikalau ada kasar bahasa, pukul kat mana-mana,
Ini semua hanya gurau sahaja :D
&Halalkan makanan dan minuman ku di dunia dan di akhirat yeee.

With that, i would like to end by saying again,
Selamat Hari Raya,
Minalaidil Walfaidzin, (:

Loves/}

So yeah, don't try to perk me up for raya. I don't think it'll work. My health is really plunging down. Kinah, i know, cobaan (:

Taslim baby;
Jaga diri baik-baik.
Diyana sayang taslim sorang ok?
Ingat selalu dan jangan lupa.
I cinta; ai; love you babyboy.
Take care when i'm not around.
In your heart is where i'm always there.
Mwah!


4 more days to the 5th.

Day: Tuesday.


Semalam kan korang sume, saya pegi geylang :D Haha!
Ok. Pape la eh. Lol. Early in the morning, i clean the house again. Rumah bising macam 30 macam. Sumer kecoh nak raye. Haha. Chill uh geng. Alamak. Haha. Then my aunt came to collect her kuih and cake. Then yadayadayada. Off to geylang to get my selendang. Wooh. Hujan babe. Sejuk giler. Haha. Pakai long sleeve pun tak boleh tau. Tandenye kene pakai wind breaker :D

Jalan the whole of tanjong katong complex. Tak dapat. Then go joo chiat. Baru dapat. Cantik tau. Haha. Keh. Apape. Then go walk-walk at bazaar. Beli bunge. Beli carpet. Buke at joo chiat then off home. Balek rumah, on tv, on kipas, fuhhhh. Haha. Change carpet, letak duit dalam duit sampul, yadayada. Then here i am now :D

Today morning, pagi pegi pasar. Beli hati, paru, daging and ayam. Pastu dah. Chillek je. Haha.

BESOK RAYE!

Goodbye/}

Day: Sunday.


I have been coughing out blood since yesterday. Damn. Haha. How like that? Think i can make it for raya? Lol. Choi! Whatever keh diyy.

I had kurma + milk for sahur today. I had no mood to eat. Then went for madrasah for hafalan surah asy-syams and hafalan quran. Then amek kuih yang belen-belen kat masjid then back home. Slept after arranging the kuihs into the bottles. Woke up at 5 plus. Get ready nak keluar. Off to suntec to buka. Tu pun stakat minum air and eat 2 pathethic fries. Haha. Seriously, i had no mood to eat at all. In fact, i had no mood to live at all.



My brother went to watch the F1 thingy then me and my mom went to walk-walk around suntec. Bought myself a long sleeve tee. I badly need alot of long sleeves. Might hit the mall after raya. Haha. Anyways, home after buying caramel frappe at starbucks, [ ALLY! Jealous tak? Haha. ]

And now, i feel all shiverish, my chest very tight, i cannot breathe properly, my fever shot up again, my eye all red-red like dracula like that. Haha. And i tend to freeze up even when the wheather is freaky hot. How like that? Tskk.

I want to go geylang tomorrow. Who want to follow me?

Three simple words with my whole life in it; I LOVE YOU.

*Re-Edited/}
Day: Saturday.

Re-Edited/}

Almost hari-hari gaduh. Biler nak stop ni you? Penat seh i macam gini. Hari-hari nangis tak stop. Hais. Biler kite nak betul-betul bahagia ni? You tau i tak boleh stress-stress sangat. Hais. Lama-lama botak jugak seh i tarik-tarik rambot dengan segalanya. Dah lah pening seratus macam, stress lagi. Aiyoo.

Is it me or is it you or is it the both of us? I harap-harap sekali satu hari mata you akan terbuka dan you akan finally realise yang i tak pernah buat apa-apa belakang you. Semua i bilang. Tak pernah tak bilang. Seriously seh you, i macam, "Mane trust yang you cakap you berikan kepada i?" Macam gitu you tau tak? Hati sakit, sakit sekali.

How i wish i could be very perfect for you. A gf who doesn't give problems since the beginning. A gf who is very caring, who is very sweet, who is ver unproblematic, a gf who is simple. Whatever you want in your type of a girl. I just wish, i just wish i could be the best gf you ever had. Really i do.

Tapi walau apepun, i tetap sayang you. I always have.

Arghh, i hate it when friends ask;
" Amaciam kau ngan taslim? "
" How are you and your bf? "
" Kau ngan matair kau how? "
And i have to fake a story or just smile.
When can i proudly say, " We're both doing just fine. " ?

day: friday still, haha. this girl here lazy wanna edit post.

early morning went to pasar geylang. halfway through walking there, hujan. SEJUK NAK MAMPOS OR WHAT SIA. haha. bought the stuff. blahblahblah. then i went to this kedai, i fell in love with this baju and i might get it on sunday when we going geylang again to get carpet. haha. *evil grins* cabbed back home. then took out the stuffs and blahblah. did cleaning. throw away things. alot of things. haha. polished the stuffs that needs to be polished. change pillow case and whatever. finished at 12pm.

boyfriend called me at 1207 telling me he's going for prayers. i was fcuking happy when i heard his voice. sigh. slept after that. woke up, got text messages from alysha and betty. cook. then waited for buka. buka-ed and here i am now. of course, i did my prayers la. haha.

off soon. going back home to tampines.

dear you,
i miss you like crazy. sigh. i couldn't even get a wink of sleep last night cause i couldn't get to talk to you. i hate this feeling. the feeling of not being able to miss call you or text you whenever i miss you. it sucks. hoping to talk to you tonight. i really miss you babyboy, ):
" You're the voice I
hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me. "

goodbye/}

day: friday.

thursday.

i didn't do anything at all. haha. practically stayed home the whole day. didn't go out cause mother wanted to save money. our house curtain looks nice enough and we don't need a new one. black always goes nice with everything. haha. whatever. texted with alysha insyirah. i saved this assholes life by telling her the format for letter writing. haha. if not she'll be as good as dead for paper one. tskk! see la. careless girl who misplaced her notes. am i your hero or what? HOHO :D

i was surprised to receive boyfriends call as early as 9am. yes, surprised. and he told me not to text him till he miss calls me or calls me. sigh. and the torture went on till about 9pm when he called me to tell me he's going maulid with safwan. and that also he don't know if he's getting his phone back ke tak. kanasai. so i texted wan to sampaikan stuff to him and he texted me using his phone and i went " awww " and shed a tear or two. see how much i miss this guy?

i watched freedom of writers. It was the most touching story i ever saw in my goddamn life. seriously. it was really sad. it was about this teacher who is trying to make a big change in her students life by making peace between each of them and not fighting or resolving anything to violence or getting into gangs and stuff. its really a touching story. you guys should watch it. damn, i cried. i did.

friday, today.

i'll be going to geylang in the morning with my mother. to get the groceries to masak for hari raya. its already the 26th. so its 4 more days. haha. people already started their countdown last week or when there was 10 days left and i started mine now. haha. gonna do the house today. yeah. get it all done by sunday. so monday and tuesday don't need to kelam kabut want to do this want to do that. haha. just relax, cook for morning raya, watch tv and counting down the days i recieve money. *grins*

yesterday was the 25th, so yeah, my pay should be in. hehe. *double grins*
boyfriends home now.

goodbye/}

&to certain people kan, last warning giler babi nye last warning eh. especially to someone who gelarkan diri dier as KING AL____. kau tak happy tengok aku bahgie, kau bilang aku je ok? tak payah sampai nak kasi aku ngan matair aku gaduh dengan segalanya. and kalau aku tak hancurkan hidup kau atau relationship kau, jangan hancurkan aku punye boleh tak? please la. aku mintak tolong kau sangat-sangat sekali. thank god kau da tak ngan aku lagi. HAHA. fcuker.


8 more days to the 5th.

day: wednesday.

thats all i have to say. haha. till tomorrow. i'm tired.
goodbye/}

day: tuesday.

ok, in the morning, i had a little misunderstanding with someone. i'm really glad that things are cleared up. yeah. i love you baby. received tons and tons of messages. haha. aww, i'm super glad that i'm still remembered. yeah. thanks.

went to school. had this mandarin speaking course thing. it was alright. but most of the time i was disturbing the teacher. haha. she speaks funny-ly. and yes, i know i shouldn't, but i couldn't resist. haha! then after that headed to bugis with ry. i needed my lens. yeah. haha. she knows why :D
anyways, walked around. saw some awesome clothes that i wanna get but no money in yet. waiting for raya and waiting for the 25th. haha. that is when i go, " WHO WANTS TO GO SHOPPING WITH ME?! " haha.

alrightttt, i wanna thank everyone who wished me happy birthday from this morning at 12am till now. haha. i know i'll recieve more later or maybe perhaps tomorrow. haha. anyways, really guys, from the bottom of my heart, a big thank you to you! much love.

i would like to take this opportunity to thank some people who has been a great part in my life.

taslim; the boyfriend: heyy baby (: thank you so much for everything alright. i enjoy every single moment of my time with you. hee. 5 months is coming soon. lets make it happen and will be looking forward to more. with gods will. i love you sayang. from the bottom of my heart. i really do. and remember what i always told you, no matter how shitty we are, i still love you the way that i do from the beginning. cause i've never found someone who loves me like you do, no one like you. i'm fortunate baby, very (: I LOVE YOU!

alsyha insyirah; the wonderwoman: heyy asshole! haha. thank you very much for everything yeah. you've been through with me. all my ups and downs for so long. gees. i can never replace someone like you man. haha. you layan-ed all my irritatingness. all my shittness. haha. my cries, my laughter, my anger, all i dump into you and you still can tahan. no wonder you're my wonderwoman. haha. and i hope that this friendship will last. cause i don't want it to end. and don't worry, some point in life, i'll tune down my bullying. haha! and i WILL appear infront of your house during raya, with 4 cats. hehe! i love youuuuuuuu :D

umi ummairah; my " sister ": heyy babe, (: eventhough we've only known each other this year. its like as though i've known you my whole life. really. you give me the best advices, you know how to console me, you just know how to make things right. you look out for me like as though i'm your younger sister. thanks love. i really appreciate it. lets make this friendship lastt. hee. love you babeee, (:

ira atiqah; my " mother ": mother! thank you for all your laughter and happiness when i was down. haha. you and that father of mine never fails to make me laugh and smile. thou you guys really know what i really want, you still don't care and try to make the best of it. haha. damn, i love you guys, my " parents ".

riyana; my everythingunderthesunpartner: heyy sunshineeee, (: thank you for today yeah. haha. the planning to do this do that and all. haha. super funny. hee. thanks for being there for me too and looking out for me. hoping you'll have a blissfull relationship yeah, (:

syirain; my sayang: I MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU! arghhh! haha. cepat la o level abis. sigh. bby, even if we're drifiting futher apart. i want you to know that you're always still at heart ok. we really need to catch up soon tau.



to this girl above here, syafiqah zainal.

bby, thank you for your post. i really missed the times we spent together too. yes indeed it has been a while since we last hung out despite our busy schedule and the new people we meet everyday. but i want you to always remember you're forever in my heart ok. cause last time, you were there when no one else weren't. you gave me hope when no one else didn't. you were my strength :D and now that i've grown stronger, now that you have entered poly and i'm in ite, we've grown apart. i guess, other people need my strength too. hehe. i wish one day we could be like how we were last time. gyeah. thats my birthday wish. cause really, i can't stand seeing us growing apart after being close for so many years.

i still love syafiqah zainal the way that i did 3 to 4 years ago. and it haven't changed a single bit thou we've grown apart. thanks bby again for the birthday wish. you're always remembered at heart (:

edited*
day: monday.


damn. could it have gone any worser? haha. whatever. i'm sorry umi i couldn't come. i'll come tomorrow ok, (:

*edited/}
just, ok, not just, haha. got home at around 9 plus. uh huh. i met boyfriend just now. at ruzaini's house. sat with him under the block. he played the psp i was resting. then after that went to burger king tampines to buka. laughed and all. then back home. lepak with him for awhile. then ya. haha.

my fever has gone down abit. cause i felt better after boyfriend hugged me. hehe :D school tomorrow. i can't miss it. 1 hour plus more, and HEHE. ok done.

goodbye/}

to you.
even after whats said and done. even after all of the madness yesterday.
i still love you like truckloads. yes, i do.
i still love you like how i loved you from the start.
i've been proving and proving to you, it did sink into your head.
but whenever something comes up, you always think that i don't love you anymore.
then a whole lot of new problems will come up.
i admit, i hate it baby. i do.
but whats relationships without problems right?
and i'm damn angry with you for asking such things that could affect your health.
i really am. sigh.
i love you muhammad taslim, nomore judging or whatsoever please.
it hurts.

day: sunday.

today was the day i really felt like banging my head on the wall, which i did twice, cause of my kanasai headache. sheesh. sahur, didn't eat much. talked to bf. got pissed off at something. texted him. fell asleep after subuh cause i really couldn't take it. and ter-wake up at 10. then fell back asleep all the way till 1838pm. long or what sia i sleep? haha. and when i woke up, guess what? i didn't feel any better. tskkk.

well, nothing much to say cause i practically slept the whole day till going to buka. tskk.
headache still like kanasai, fever still up, chest still pain, knee is swollen, semput not that bad but still there.
and i have school tomorrow. walauweiiii ):

byeeeee/}

day: still saturday. lazy to edit post so create a new one.

I'm so having mixed feelings now.
Arghhh.
I hate myself.
I hate myself for knowing him in the first place.
If i haven't have known him,
He wouldn't have this dream.
Then i wouldn't have to be so stressed about it.
Thou i know i can not be stressed about it.
But i still am cause its concerning me.
And it can affect the r/s.
At this point of time, i really wish i have never ever met a single guy.
Except for bf, ):

sucker. argh!

day: saturday.

well, a quick update. i'm feeling oh so very sleepyyy. the heat is getting to me and i feel like freezing myself. haha. ok. merepek. anyways, thursday got better in the night time. oh yeah. friday, i went to see the doctor about my health. and people are getting evil nowadays. they don't want to tell me whats wrong with me. sad you know, ):
keep me in suspense. think what? fun ah? haha. ok, sumpah tak kelakar. tskk. buka at angmokio. then off back home. menunggu cowoknya pulang ke rumah dari pencak. berbual di telefon dan terus tidur.

hari ini. didn't do much. i feel so bored. i feel so tired. i feel so hot. haha! ok, yang last tu tak perlu. arghh. seriously, i feel like i wanna batal my puase cause i cannot take it tapi macam wasted. tinggal lagi berapa jam je. so, tahan je la ye cik kak oi. haha.

cowokku bermimpi ku meninggal dunia. sedih kan? alamak. haha. tetapi, insyallah akan aku dipanjangkan umur. amin.

ok da korang. takle tahan ah. serious. byeeeeeeeee/}


muhammad taslim ali khan,
"nobody gonna love me better,
imma stick with you forever,
nobody gonna take me higher,
imma stick with you.
you know how to appreciate me,
imma stick with you my baby,
nobody ever made me feel this way,
imma stick with you. "
SAYA SAYANG KAMU OHOHOHHH~
mwah!

day: thursday.

okkkk, haha ;D

tuesday.

met birthday boy in the morning as usual. uh huh. early morning already he sempot. aiyoo. he made me freaking worried i tell you. heh. reached school, i didn't know we started training at 0830am. tau dapat tydo lagi skejap seh. arghh. haha. anyways, first was pre-op care then followed by i forgot. heh! can't remember. sorry eh. lagipun, tak penting pe kan kepade korang. hehe. ended school at 4. went to lepak with boyfriend at simei. then 6 plus we went to meet ruzaini and his cousin, nurul islam at tampines mall pizza hut. uh huh. buke there. i tell you, two people loves cheese oh so freaking much till they put em in their soup. haha. cute people, (:

after that they went to smoke. haha. i tried on boyfriend's uniform. ah kau. besar or what sia. haha. two times my size. cool right? lol! then we left them, we did more further lepaking at tampines. gyeah. left at 9 plus. pass boyfriend his birthday present. then back home. yeapp.

baby,
i hope you liked what me and my MUM gave to you. hehe.
be a good boy always ok baby.
take care of your health cause sometimes i can't take care of you and you know why.
you'll forever be my love and no one can replace that ok.
remember that always.
diyana sayang taslim sorang, tidak ada sesiapa lagi dalam hidup diyana.
i love you baby, (:
happy 17th birthday.
may all your wishes come true and i hope you enjoyed our lepaking session at tampines.
hehe. all the best for your results.
mwah!

wednesday.

met boyfriend in the morning as usual, and again, he sempot. argh. ok. then went to school. yadayadayada. ended at 2pm. went home with " daeightdiamonds" haha. talked some things with boyfriend. headed home at 5 plus. at first, i didn't want to, i wanted to meet iqah and sally at woodlands. tapi tak jadi. cause i really wasn't in the mood. so i headed to my kak sedares house. buke there then back home after jeritan sepi which i slept halfway. arghh. haha.

sudden spike fever, chest pain, very super bad headache and semput.
could my night had gone even much worst? it did.
arghh. i was really dissapointed with someone cause the person didn't see the picture clearly. the person couldn't get my point. i was crying and trying to catch my breath at the same time after the last phone call. sigh. i managed to sleep. thanks mummy for being there, (:
when i woke up, i read this message sent by that person. i replied back. infront of my food i was crying. i ate. i didn't even reach 5 spoonfull of rice, i'm already full. i sat there. hoping and praying you get the picture. drank warm milk. prayed and slept.

today, thursday.

i woke up at 7am. ok. not much sleep right? i can't sleep. i was in difficulty of breathing and my body damn bloody hot. so i decided to just rest and listen to music. i managed to close my eyes again at 9am to then wake up at 10. and gosh was my headache getting worst. i washed my face and looked at the mirror. my sore eyes was getting better but i looked pale then ever. i kept thinking about what you swore yesterday. it'll never go away. arghh. i hate myself.

you called me at 2pm plus telling me you're going out and you loved me. sigh. i'll stop here.

&heres a little something for you;

The Smell of your hair
The taste of your kiss
These are the things
That I will always miss

The sound of your voice
The feel of your hand
They affect me in ways
You could never understand

The love in your heart
The peace in your eyes
They make me feel
Like I want to cry

You are a gift
That God gave to me
And I can just feel
That we are meant to be

I'll love you forever
I hope you do to

NO ****ING MOOD.

day: tuesday.

happy 17th baby! (:

day: monday.

let me start of with yesterday.

sunday.

happy 44th birthday dear dad and obek wawa. haha. twins celebrating their birthdays on this special day. semoga panjang umor and murah rezeki ok. hehe. i love you both equally much. (:

alrightt. went to madrasah for exams. i was having spike fever but still decided to go. haha. i was like, can make it can make it. my last paper, which was lughah, i did it fast like hell and went to sleep. cannot tahan already. haha. when my ustazah say can go home, i chiong back home and slept. and boy was it niceeeeeeeeeeeee ;D

went out at around 5 plus gitu? went to plaza singapura to celebrate my dad's birthday at swensens. i went to scout around for baby's present. haha. yadayada, went to town. walked at robinsons and john little. then sat down at spinellis to have coffee and hot chocolate and off back home. yupp.

today,
happy 17th birthday nur suhana. hope you had a blast with your loved ones yaw, (:
went to simei to collect my phone, LIKE FINALLY! haha. then off to tampines mrt to meet my mother. headed down to ikea tamp to scout for curtains and vases and carpets. then off to giant tamp to buy the groceries for the cakes. then waited for my dad to come then picked up brother then off we went to bugis to buke puase there. yadayadayada headed back home.

watched friends, then didn't watch tv then watched jalan pulang or something like that. haha. i didn't know my aunty was acting in that show. zainon ismail. haha. she acts as a mother to this person called siti something. eh cool ah. i just know like just now. haha. slow sia. and my mum said it was the last episod already, thats what she thinks. how nice right? i just only wanted to see my aunt act. arghh! haha.

then after that watched house. season finale also. why got alot of season finale now a days uh? haha! ok whatever. tomorrow, sim training. haha. ok, finally i get to meet baby. arghhh. 6 days yknow! and i'm still alive, cool right? ahha!

i'm done. goodbye/

day: saturday.

today's plan of going to ikea and giant tamp was replaced by family gathering at serangoon home. haha. cool or what? they wanted to gather there was because of the big match tonight, liverpool against manchester united which btw liverpool is leading 2-1. WOOHOO! haha. ok da. cukop. sikit-sikit je. takle banyak-banyak. haha! anyways, helped mum to cook just now. we cooked briyani. for the first time in my life i cooked briyani and it turned out to be quite good. lol. tengok ah sape yang tolong dier la kans. haha.

went off at around 4 plus ke 5. yeah. most of my aunties and uncles and cousins reach already. waited for my dad to arrive then yeah. he came just in time to buke. uh huh. so we makan, prayed. then watched the match. haha. first goal was to man u, tevez scored. then to liverpool, brown own goal. then to liverpool again, babel scored. cool or what?! may they stay at this scoreline for another 20 minutes or so. ps; bf, sorry i tengok bola. hehe. mwah!

so yeah, tomorrow's my dads birthday. happy 44th dad! may you be blessed with everything that you do. i love you, (: eventhough you're rarely by my side.

ok then. gonna watch the match now. take care. more updates tomorrow. goodbye.

babyyyy,
i miss you like anything and whatever you know, ):
arghhh! especially your hugs.
i need it soon! hopefully i can go out with you on tuesday.
for awhile, (:
i love you baby. mwah!

day: friday.

and its already the 12th day we puase. tskk. how time flies so fast. 2 more days and its already two weeks. cool or whattttt?! haha. ok, whatever.

" i'm here without you baby,
but you still on my lonely mind,
i'm thinking bout you baby,
and i dream about you all the time.
i'm here without you baby,
but you still with me in my dreams,
and tonight its only you and me. "

more updates later. hee. i miss baby, ):
&here's something random, people go for firebreak, i break fire.
possible? haha!

alright. i'm back at tampines. haha. went to geylang with mummy and daddy just now, again. hoho. but this time round, i kept quiet most of the time. its not because i'm moody or anything. i always feel this way when it comes to friday cause why? baby will be going for pencak later. and i'll be freaking worried if he breaks a bone or fracutres things or gets lots of bruises and all. sorry mummy and daddy i wasn't that random today. heh. walked around. saw some familiar faces. ex secondary schoolmates, nisa, friends. yeah. haha. anyways, didn't stay long. off at around 8. went to serangoon home for awhile to pass my grandfather his food. then off back to tampines home.

so here i am now. haha. baby's at pencak. hope he'll be ok. i badly wanna see what he has done to his hair. arghhh! its killing me. haha. next week, imma dye my hair. gyeah, (: tomorrow, i'll be out with mummy and brother to ikea and giant tamp. then probably buke there or where ever. uh huh. sunday, madrasah exam. nyeahhh. haha. anyways, i'll end here. i don't know what else to say actually. haha. at least my posts is longer then ira's ;DDDDDDD

goodbye humanheads. till tomorrow. i'm sure we'll have plenty to talk about. haha!



" touch taslim and you'll die. haha, (: "

edited*
day: thursday.

ok, i shall update on yesterday first. haha.
wednesday.
i planned to wake up at 8 to have my final revision for behavioural science lesson but guess what? haha. i snoozed all the way to 1130. cool or what bodoh?! haha. regretted like shit sia. then boyfriend message saying that his class leader ask them to be in school by 2. so like, i have to meet him at 1. haha. i took my own sweet time to bathe ( can you believe it? ) haha. then prayed then went down to 405 to meet baby. for the first time i saw him carrying his notes while walking to meet me. haha. mwah!

my left hand was in serious pain after i showered. was like, trying to maintain my cool by not cursing and swearing cause the pain was undescribable. haha. but i managed to tahan, and the pain weared of in like 2 hours later, yay me! haha. inside the bus, final memorizing of some important points. uh huh. reached school, headed to toilet first. haha. cause i needed to change my hand dressing. then went up to lecture hall to find my classmates. sat with them and chilled while so called revising. haha. yadayadayada, 0230 we went in to the exam hall and dammit was it cold like shit. haha!

i was telling people good luck but i myself wasn't having the confidence at all. i needed to maintain my A but i know i'll drop down to B. so yeah. whatever. haha. doesn't seem to matter now. as long as my GPA is above 3.2 at the end of the year, i'm quite satisfied. uh huh. did my paper. left the hall early. talked with sulyana. haha. prayed. went back to the lecture hall for the CP posting. thank god i had the same group and our lecturer was mr deleon. like cool shit uh. everyone was like screaming sia. haha! anyways, after the breifeing and stuff went to meet baby. then nabil, wafir, lokman, hafiz, hafiz's gf, helmi and hakim went to change. me and baby sat at the bench. talked, laughed, he made me jealous etc. haha. then it was already like coming to 7pm when we left school. everyone was thinking like confirm tak sempat nak buke. haha.

waited for bus number 2 to simpang bedok. laugh here and there. waited for nabil to come with his " gf " haha. then took the bus down. found a place to sit. which was surrounded by nurses as well. haha. i was surprised to see su with a certain someone. oh wells. ordered food. makan. talktalk. laughlaugh. then nabil planned to go geylang. haha. me and baby didn't want to cause we were in our nursing uniform and thank god we were in. haha. so, walked to the bus stop, camwhored. took bus 2 to tanah merah. me and baby alighted there then took 31 to tamp inter then took 38 to simei to lepak with nashrun, multazam and ruzaini. they played taiti and made jokes and smoke, the usual kinda thing. and they planned to buka out on saturday. haha.



around 11 plus going to 1130, headed home. took 38. reached home. decided to sit with baby skejap. talk to him about certain things. then, heh! haha. around 0100am we went home. uh huh. for the first time in my i don't know how long already, i went home at 0100am. haha. usually 10 or 11 da sampai rumah. cool or what? hee. then done, (:

today, i still don't know what i'm gonna do. so lets just see what is instored for me. haha! &oh, i have this feeling that someone whom is close to me is leaving me today. i wonder who. hais. and i'm back from simpang bedok. haha. i had an awesome time with my mummy and daddy. hee. thank you both for the laughter today. and sorry daddy for " slapping you " heh! walk-walk at tampines after that then off to serangoon home which is where i am now. baby is out to maulid with safwan and multazam. and he has a surprise for me. i wonder what is it. haha. he said, its a promise he made to himself. i said he wouldn't do it and he did. omg. i hope its something good (:

youuuuu,
thank you for yesterday ok. i had fun. and i hope you'll be ok and i'll be ok soon. and i'm sticking to whatever i texted you this morning. uh huh. i love you baby. &i don't wanna lose you. and please give me time to forget about what you did. but i swear, i'm recovering from it.
i love you, (:
" cause if i got you, i don't need money.
i don't need cars, boy you my all "
mwah!



" kau basuh diriku dengan rasa sayang. "

day: tuesday.

happy birthday muhammad wafir abqari! finally seventeen yo. haha. hope that you'll be blessed with wealth, health and happiness always yeah. and keep on striving for what you want for, insyaallah she will be yours one day. take care kawan. &for the first time in my life i've never been so sleepy in my whole entire life man. shitsxzsxzxzxzsxzxs betol. haha. i woke up for sahur like half-eyed person, slept back, then woke up late. teros ape lagi, speeding light uh. haha! and yet again, i was still early, (:

met boyfriend at 405. i tried to concentrate on my revision, but yknow la kan when it comes to him, i can never concentrate. haha. so in the end, i decided to test him. and i think he did pretty well. hope he did pretty well enough in the exams uh. anyways, took the bus, was laughing here and there. for the first time i felt really happy. uh huh. sat with fyan at forum. they both uh, last minute study kinda person. haha. don't know how luh but they can do. so yeah. whateverr. haha. 0745, headed up to lecture hall. sat at my desk and waited for the paper to arrive. huhu. thank god when i received the paper, whatever that i had studied came out. i'm really hoping for that A. to push my grades up. if not i'll die, literally.

i finished my paper quite early so i left the exam hall early. waited at forum with sulyana. haha. that girl. never fails to make me laugh. huhu. waited for boyfriend then after that we walked to simei. took bus 38 to tampines interchange cause halfway through boyfriend decided to sleep at serangoon home. so yeah. took 72 then da. i watched him sleep. like so awww, haha. freaking cute i tell you. i watched teevee. thou i was like real sleepy, nevermind uh, let him sleep. haha. 3 plus like that i woke him up. then we lepak outside my house till about 6. he headed off home and i went back home. yeahhh.

now, i think imma go ahead with my behavioural science revision. haha. actually, i plan to study tomorrow since my paper is in the afternoon. so like today rest then tomorrow morning start to cramp things in my head cause like that i sure can remember one. i think. lol. thats how i did for my todays paper and alhamdulilah, most of it sticked inside my head. oh wells. we'll see how la. haha. boyfriends going out to lepak again, haiyeer. haha. nevermind, let him spend time with his friends. i'm not really that controlling like SOMEONE. haha. see yourself in the mirror before judging me, ok pumpkin? (: first and the last warning imma give. don't let my hand stick to your face.

sayang, terima kasih dengan segalanya untuk hari ini. i really enjoyed my time with you today. i finally felt what i was willingly wanting to feel this past 4 months. hee. akhirnya besok kita berbuka puasa sama-sama (: can't wait babyyy.
" kaulah satu-satunya, di antara berjuta, insan teristimewa. "
diyana sayang taslim sorang ok. tidak ada sesiapa lagi yang diyana sayang selain taslim.
hati ini hanya untukmu sahaja, (:
" you will always be my baby. "
mwah!



" cahaya istimewaku. "

edited*
day: monday.

HOLY SHIT ITS MONDAY TODAY! haha. tomorrow's exams. grr. all the best you guys, JN0801E readers, fellow coursemate readers. hope you guys will do well yeahhhh, (:

&to certain people who promise me they'll get certain grades. better achieve it. or you guys will know the consequences. haha. HINTHINT!

and i'm off to meet my cikgu for awhile then head down to east point to send my phone for repair. it broke down after my uncle touched it. sedih or what sia. haha. no music, no camwhoring for the next 1 to 2 weeks? rahhh! haha. whatever. still can live. PSP all mine now ah babe. ape lagi. haha. ok crap.

hoping to meet baby laterrrr. which thank god we did meet up. i was so H-A-P-P-YYYYYY. haha. macam dah bertahun gitu tak jumpe. padehal uh, 3 hari je. haha. went to maziana's block to study. i feel so geram whenever he's around cause he'll never fail to disturb me when i'm studying. haha. and sadly i can't do anything to him cause puase, ): kalau takkk. haha. abis ah dier. lol. anyways, studied. then nashrun joined us. then i left around 6. went to meet brother and mother at town for buke. then sat at heeren's spinelli to do more revision while i helped brother with his chemestry prelims tomorrow also. mother went to do shopping. haha.

left around 9 plus and now i'm back home. haha. ok da. nak tydo. tapi tak. nak tunggu bf call. kalau dier boleh. kalau tak, revise lagi. heee.

MAKKKKKKKK! KEPALA KU MACAM NAK PECAH! ;D
ok bye!


" mengejar matahari. "

day: sunday.

i should be studying but guess what? i spent most of my time sleeping and now i'm regretting it. huhu. i don't know why i feel so damn bloody tired today. arghh. alot of people ajak me buke out today, sorry guys i can't make it. maybe next time yeah? studies first yo. hope you guys understand.

and yknow what? i had this wierd dream of me and boyfriend last night. and then another wierd dream of the both of us. haha. two wierd dreams in one night. how possibly cool is that? tskk. and funny, to come and think of it. both of it relates. one way or another. haha. oh wells. keeping my mouth shut, (:

thank you to those people who were there for me when i really broke down on that friday. thank you guys oh so much. i can never possibly thank you enough but thanks. you guys mean the world to me. without you, i couldn't have possibly lived to type todays post. and i really meant it. uh huh. thanks once again yeah guys. especially to bestfriends. koranglah segala-galanya. eventhough i'm not close to you guys like how we were last time, you guys still rock and still care. i love you people!

and now, i think i need to go and bathe, change and get out from the house to find a place to buka. haha. terawih and ceramah later on. oh wells. beats having to sit at home and study all day. and OH YA, i had madrasah exams in the morning just now. and shit la. i forgot most of my sirah sia. rahhh. haha. diyy, its time for you to buck up on your ugama once exams are over. guru will be testing you next week. if not, no powers. arghhh!

ok bye, (:



" move along. "

edited*
day: saturday.

i couldn't sleep yesterday night. thousand and one thoughts ran into my mind. arghh. why must i read that bloody comment? tskk. now its stuck in my head and it won't go away. i wanna break my old promise to him. i don't knoww. i feel so helpless in this kind of situation. arghhhh! funny, i can just imagine a million and one girls smiling widely and inside their heart they say " oh yes! finally they're having a arguement again. now its my chance to grab him while i still can. *smiles widely* " hahahahahahahah! diyy, you're such a sucker for love. really you are.

i'm sorry. i won't be ok. haha. even if we're back to normal, even how many times you apologise, my heart won't be the same anymore. cause the thing will still be stuck in my head. i never thought you'll go to the extend of sending that type of comment to a girl whom you say was your ex classmate. it still hurts. i bet she's way prettier then me. hahahaha. i can't even face myself to see her pictures ah. pffft!

&now, i could think back of all the things you said to me and have doubts on it. i'm sorry. you broke my trust. sigh. i'm at my grandfathers place now. with my mum, bro, cousins, uncle and aunties. i wanna be a happy kid again, please. is that too much for me to ask?


" and when you thought it'll last. "

day: friday.

i never thought he'll do this to me. i never thought it'll go this far.

" i'm damn dissapointed in you. really i am. "

day: monday.

JN0801E, (:

selamat menyambut ibadah puasa kepada seluruh umat islam di seluruh dunia dan selamat hari guru kepada guru-guru saya. moga panjang umor, murah rezeki. amin.

ok. i start from saturday first ok. didn't do much. boyfriend nak meet tapi last minute tak jadi. so i went to my kak sedare's place lepak there then balek. yesterday, i met wafir at angmokio mrt station. took the train down to harbourfront. met aziza. waited for shiira and sulyana. off to sentosa. met siti, her cousin and her friend. they swam we did our own stuff. uh huh. gerek eh su. haha! afternoon gitu, pi vivo makan. then after that went to bugis. haha. me and yana went to do our prayers first kat masjid sultan. when we exited from the mrt station, got this one apek kentot peh kuat. alamakkkk, sot sia. naseb baik seh tak maki. kalau tak batal seh wuduk. chickenbellybackside betol. haha. me and yana ketawe cam orang giler seh. seriously. tskkk. apek tu eh. naseb baik kentot kuat. kalau silent, pengsan jugak aku kat situ. haha!

qadakkan zohor with asar. then went to raffles hospital to buy drink. then met up with the rest. oh, wafir left us before we headed bugis. due to something. so yeah. then uhm, mum called me. asking me to go geylang. haha. so, we went to geylang. siti and friend and cousin didn't follow us. we took the bus down to kallang then another bus down to tanjong katong complex. met up with fiqah and aidil. yana, fiqah and myself wanted to do maghrib prayers first. so we went to this surau near joo chiat complex. uh huh. after that went to hajjah maimunah to eat. then went to joo chiat cause yana wanted to buy this book. so we went there. haha. funny ah she. serious. then mum texted me saying that she'll meet me at serangoon instead. see la this mother of mine.

took the bus down. then home. yupp. OHHHHHH! me and yana started to like open our eyes bigbig. then they commented that yana looks like a funny devil while i look like a scary devil. haha. kate the yana's kan, (: and i managed to make yana scream three times. huhu! anyways, thanks guys for making me laugh yesterday. appreciate it. go out together often ok? hehe. and btw, pictures will be uploaded once i get from yana too. so yeah.

today, i'm thinking if i wanna buke at home or at grandfathers place. hmmm. whatever it is, plans for today, revision all the way. if bukeing at grandfathers place then so be it. after that terawih at masjid istiqamah. gyeah. alright then. till the next update.

&btw, i don't entertain people who terase for no reason.


" senyumu juga sedihmu adalah hidupku "
dear, i love you, (: