to P (:

eve of christmas was spent well with friends at the WJLA chalet. it was (Y)
friday and the weekends was spent with family. happy, atleast i thought it would be.
sunday sucked. it was the most suckiest day of my whole 2009 i supposed.
for now, i don't think i'll regard you as my father. maybe later on in the years when you finally decide to grow up and be a responsible husband. i'm sorry, you were my best dad, now, i don't know who the fuck you are anymore.

things are getting on the downturn for me in the last few days of 2009.
first, it was family. then it was health. and now, my heart.
i guess some issues can never be settled huh?
fuck it.

i think i'm giving up on some of the things that i wish it would be best for me. its time to let things go and to look forward for better things to come in life. it may not be now but it may come in the future. god knows. He's the one who created my book, i can be the one who edits it or just follow the way that its meant to be.

now, i'll just sit back and think about how my life has been turning out this year.
the people i've lost, the people i've gained and the people i think i'm going to lose.
i might not update on new years eve. depends. and so;
happy new year to everyone. may you have a blessful 2010 ahead.
take care readers.

yesterday i didn't attend work cause i had fucking back pain and i kept vomiting. i don't know what i ate on sunday night or didn't eat till i had this stupid thing. but yeah. i'm k right now. i guess. haha. so anyways, met up with zr in the mornz. lepaked at my place and then afternoon headed off to training. poor kiddo. relaxed and got changed to meet bestest at inter. we walked around tampines one then headed to laguna at east coast by cab.

dinner with the bunch of friends was (Y) they seriously know how to make your day a happy one eventhough in life things just suck at all times. but seriously. yeah. headed back home via cab and i was like one stupid girl to cry infront of the whole gang. luckily they didn't notice except for bestest, annisa and park. pfft. i damn malu k. but whatever. i can never hide things. shetupidsz.

work was (Y) today. i didn't had problematic patients. made my day. and so did the staffs there. bestest, annisa and park picked me up. before that we had lunch together. haha. thanks guys. after work headed to tampines one topman with the girls. park headed back home. now, at bestest's place together with annisa.

dear taslim, i hope you're well. i hope you're happy (:
you know where to find me always.

if i can get you by new years, its the best gift i can ask for. cause boy, you make me smile. even if you didn't do much.

because you're always there for me when i needed you, (Y)

saturday was fun. to annisa's place in the late afternoon. her moms cool yo. haha. so after that headed to bedok interchange. raining like anjing and kucing. met with syahiid. stupid arshavin jersey. pfft :D to pioneer. then back to bedok. bedok macs to eat. back home. headed to town to meet zr and homeboys. (Y)

night time at ally's. pops bought for me thosai. aww. thanks cik malik. camwhored. watched love actually. haha. i like that show so much. aww. that boy cute siols. haha. then talked and paint nails and took pictures more. slept in early. i don't know why i was so freaking tired. omg. slept like a baby after zr's text. haha.

thanks bestest for your bed. but my back still hurts. so it didn't really matter. lol. woke up earlier than the host. had a nice shower. then i mingled with her lappy and she woke up. haha. breakfast with sisters. home thereafter.

i feel content today. cause i get to know things. i still have issues. it'll go soon. for now, i just want to lead a blur sotong life. take care.

things are changing so fast now. really. one time, i'm good. another time, i'm not good. what is this? i'm supposed to be happy by now. but i'm not. this is not good. really not good.

attachment has ended for most of them but for me, i still have eight more days to complete. hah. stupid chicken pox. but oh wells. fifty six has been a fun ward. from A side to B2. thanks alot for everything yeah guys. i learned alot. especially on reading ecg and chest tubes.

now, i'm back to fourty two. wahh. nice welcome back ah. haha. really. anyways, i told the sister there to accept me there permanently. rofl. funny la ok. (:

homeboys lost to vietnam today. and i finally got to watch their match. a dream come true but hopes shattered. they were good, but not good enough. its ok. they can still win the bronze by beating laos. i'm sure they can still bring back home a medal. too bad some players aren't gonna play next year cause of over age. but whatever it is, best experience for all. happy for them still.
bronze ok homeboys?

and don't get me started on liverpool's match.
i'm not good now. take care.

- " Common denominator. "

Hai baby. I'm blogging for you again. :] Heh, heh. I'm bored and yez, I know I'm not texting you, but don't be sad. I'll see you on Wednesday ~ Haha. Are we even meeting on that day ?! ( Asal bols je Alysha! HAHA. ) Kk. iLuvu * hug, hug, kiss, kiss. Best friend.

at bestfriend's place now (: gonna watch guy bestfriend on tv later if he's playing. of course not only him alone. haha. the other boys too. go team singapore!

and uh, to that someone, i'm sorry ok i rejected you. i'm just not ready to be in a relationship now. i haven't gotten past the things yet. and i sincerly hope that you understand. its not that i don't want you anymore in my life. its just because things can't seem to be the way its supposed to be,

"i spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin about you. every single day yes i'm really missing missing you. and all those things we use to use to use to do. hey boy, what's up, it use to be just me and you"
you know who you are. i'm still. fuck yeah,

" my baby, my sister, my lover, my gf, my everything, my BESTfriend ♥ "

today, i had loads of fun hanging out with that bitch up there. haha. people are ditching me for overseas. omgomgomg. haha. so lets see, me and bestfriend met at eleven. then we went to vivo. bought tickets to new moon. haha. walked around abit and then sat for the movie.
i rate it, 6/10. not as bad as twilight. but not so bad as other critics say. its not that boring. please. but so much different from the book. ps; taslim, lets watch it together soon. another round for me. this time with you. kk? (: i cried during the movie. pathethic -.-"

after that, we ran to the toilet. haha. it was so damn funny i tell you. bestfriend couldn't hold her pee and she was in pain. so we ran to the toilet. everyone was like staring please. omgomgomg. haha. but we had fun. thats called life experiences. right bestfriend? haha. so, after that, bought food from LJS and had heart to heart talk on the roof. camwhored. chill. then went to newurbanmale, zara, topshop, forever 21, adidas, river island, quicksilver in search of ____________. haha. left around five plus. yeapp. while walking to the green line, OHMYGOD. there was this herd of inds. HAHA. SUPER LIKE OHMYGOD UH. me and bestfriend was like laughing so damn hard siak. haha. seriously. bertempek kau. haha. 2 herds of inds. tskktskk. haha. bestfriend was like so __(insert word here)__ when she sat beside KVSB. haha. never seen her so gay. but KVSB cannot beat CBNF ((: haha. went to cotton on. then headed back home around six plus.

i swear i thought i saw _______, but actually wrong person. omg. my heart was beating so fast. maybe cause i'm still afraid of you. afraid i might fall off the same cliff twice.
♥

GUY BESTFRIEND IS ALL AROUND THE WORLD. OHEMMGEE. from newspaper to tv to radio. bitchass. haha. ditched me for laos and now he's super famous. mygod. he's gonna get it from me when he returns. haha. he knows that. don't you? heh heh.

off now. take care loves.
ps; to whom it may concern, i still ♥ you. fuck it. and happy belated "19th month".

Diyana asked me t post, so here I am posting. Heh, heh. You owe me princess treatment tomorrow. Yez, I'll be going out with her tomorrow. New Moon, eyh, eyh, eyh ? Haha. And shop perhaps, eyh, eyh, eyh ? And you shall spam my camera as usual. Ok, honestly, Idk what t blog about. iLuvu. Bestfwen4eva. Haha. Ee. Disgusting sia. Luvu. xx