ok people. sorry eh lame tak update. haha. busy maha busy ah nowadays. blearghh. nothing much happened for the past don't know how many days. just that i have been on the down side lately. yeah. problems here and there. but thanks friends for helping me, i think i can make it through C:

anyways, the highlights for the the past few days is just practically nurses day celebration. it was awesome to the core ah. haha. shout here and there. cool ah. really gerek. then i remember after that i met boyfriend and ruzaini then we went to eat at tamp ljs. then after that ruzaini went home. ry went home. boyfriend and me went to meet with nabil all then went to lepak. talktalktalk about somethings then after that went to geylang to meet my mother. yeah. thats about it. err, other then that. nothing happened ah. haha.

ok da. i gotta go already. i'm like having behavioural science now while updating this. mwah!

ok. making this a quick one since i have to find poems. haha. err, nothing much happened today. this is what happen;
- walk to school with boyfriend.
- lifeskills period ended early.
- bought food then had clinical nursing theory by section head and class advisor.
- break.
- sim training. insertion of nasogastric tube.
- combined behavioural science lecture, great time laughing and kutok-ing people. huhu.
- no contact time due to some people having to take their phase test that they missed last saturday.
- home with elly and wafir. i didn't know wafir talk alot sia. which is good ah. cause like, i shared a couple of things with him and elly. i told them about my problem and of course, knowing them, they gave some advices which are unappropriate. especially wafir. haha. but, whatever.
- bought food then home.
- yadayadayada, went out with mum to tm.
- mum wanted to see granddad.
- drove to serangoon home.
- here i am now :)
haha. so yeah. this is what practically happened ah. went to tm cause i needed to buy for atiqah her birthday present. happy birthday dear " mak ". haha. may you be blessed with happiness and wealth and health always. loves!

okkkkk. i gotta find some poems now. friendster comments reply later on ok. tomorrow perhaps. yeah. gotta go now. bye dumbs.

" Apakah kesalahan ku padamu?
Dan juga tingkah lakuku itu.
Hingga kau menghilangkan dirimu.
Dan aku kehilanganmu. "

its already o148am in the morning. i just woke up 2o minutes ago. i haven't even done my behavioural science homework. i practically sleep after blogging. SHIT AHHHHHHHHH. haha. ok, so a quick what will happen today ( in order )
- morning routine. which means, go to school with boyfriend la.
- lifeskills lesson.
- clinical nursing theory lesson.
- break.
- clinical nursing practical ( sim training today. remember guys! )
- combined behavioural science lecture.
- contact time.
- home/training.
yeahhh. haha. soso, i don't think i'll be able to come online to update. cause i know i'll be veryveryvery tired. early apologies aite. gotta go now. bye dumbs.
&btw, happy birthday ernie.

yesterday, practically stayed home the whole night. managed to get some sleep before calling boyfriend. so yeah. talked to him. yadayadayada. couldn't sleep till like about 4. so yeah. thats about it. today, had madrasah in the morning. did some spring cleaning. ended early, changed, cabbed down to school. we had a match against some australian team. played C for three quarters then WA for the last quarter. we won them 63 to 1o. hahaha. so yeah. showered. waited for boyfriend to reach school. walked with him and nashrun and two guys to east point. two guys went home. nashrun, boyfriend and myself went to lepak after nashrun asked his brother to get for them ciggies. tskk. lepak under the block then yadayadayada. went home. yupp.

i gotta go finish my behavioural science homework now. shit. haha. lazy siolsxzxsxz. bye dumbs.

" aku maseh mampu tersenyum walau hati terluka. "
C:

alright. sosososo sorry for the lack of updates. i'm really busy with school nowadays. yeah. its hard for me to go online and blog every single day. haha. come back home je tired. so yeah. i'm really sorry ok. so here are the updates;

monday, 14th july 2oo8.
went to school with boyfriend as per normal. lifeskills period first. nothing much happened. did the finalization of the project and stuff. ended early so we went to buy food. lol. after that was clinical nursing theory. yadayadayada. then we had one hour break. followed by clinical nursing practical. practiced on the insertion of the nasogastric tube. then combine lecture behavioural science. contact time then home. i not sure weather i went home or i went to lepak with boyfriend. haha. can't remember :D

tuesday, 15th july 2oo8.
same morning routine. lifeskills period, we did nothing. haha! so was let off early. followed by behavioural science lesson. then clinical nursing theory then home. me and ry went to meet ruzaini at tampines mall. we ate. then after that we chillek around tamp area. then me and ry went back to school. had extra class for practical. only four of us turned up. so pathethic siak. haha. so yeah. practiced till about seven plus. then wanted to meet boyfriend but then something kinda happened, so i told him i won't be meeting him. yeah. went home. and thats that.

wednesday, 16th july 2oo8.
in the morning, i had chest pains. eventhough like difficult for me to breathe, i don't know why this stubborn head of mine still ask me to go to school. and i did. walked with boyfriend. then reached school je, i felt very sad. veryvery. and pissed off at the same time. so yeah. whatever. i didn't care about my health at that time. hahaha. ok. uhm, then had clinical nursing practical. don't know which idiotic moron go speak malay or chinese. in the end we had to clean up the lab. grrr. and i already felt super breathless but i act as though nothing happened. my chest was super painful. haha. so yeah. then uhm, while the teacher was giving us a lecture outside the class, i was already sitting down on the floor cause suddenly everything seems so bright. nyehaha. then i sit down stand up sit down stand up. lol. till i cannot tahan. then i went to sit at the bench. and slept. after eating of course. my ex form teacher called me and scolded me upside down. haha. wth sia. news travels fast. yadayadayada. had clinical nursing practical again. then p.e. i played soccer. hahaha. saketsaket main bola. cool kan :D then after that went to meet boyfriend, nashrun and ruzaini. me and ry of course. ate at LJS then walkwalk then went home.

thursday, 17 july 2oo8.
morning routine. combined clinical nursing lecture first. then after that we had break. then lifeskills lesson was conducted at the forum. we had to watch the racial harmony day celebration thing. kinda ok laaa. yeah. then had clinical nursing practical after that. p.e, played basketball and floorball. then after school had to clean up the lab cause some morons speak malay or chinese. then had extra class for the NGT. stayed in school till like 8 plus sia. kene marah from teacher all cause we stayed so late. heres how to convo went;
teacher A: why are you all still in school?
me: practicing for the NGT phase test ah cher.
teacher B: go home now!
a friend: later la cher. we want to practice la. we want to pass.
teacher A and B: since when class E so hardworking?
me: since 5pm ah cher.
haha. so yeah. the only ones that were left was umi, ali, wafir, sulyana, shirah, azizah and i can't remember who else and myself. heh. me and azizah sempat run around the track twice while waiting to be checked by our teacher. so yeah. went home with them. then waited for mom. then home.

friday, 18th july 2oo8.
morning routine. boyfriend leaving for camp today :((( sadsadsad. sigh. had last clinical nursing practical. then behavioural science lesson. then had fire drill. merepek siak. then went to simei banquet to eat. then went to tamp. take bus down to woodlands then took the train down to bukit batok. had gathering then home. called boyfriend. yeahh. thats about it.

saturday, 19th july 2oo8.
had phase test in the morning. insertion of the nasogastric tube plus feeding. i was like, praying i did well and i did. thank god i passed! haha. my lecturer said i did very well, amin. then waited for ali at the forum with azizah, umi and amirah. but in the end we got fed up so we left for simei first to eat cause we were damn hungry. talktalk yadayada then home for them. mom picked me up and i had to go for treatment. so yeah. i just reach home and now i wanna go rest. more updates later. take care yaw!


gwe rindu banget sama pancaran gwe!
you! come back from camp quickquick laaaaaaaaa :(((

ok. making this a quickie one. i'm really tired. yeah. so, boyfriend called in the afternoon. talked to him for awhile only. so sad :( really. like, walau wei. sigh. nevermind, i get to meet him everyday except for the weekends. but damn, still not enough lah. haish. cobaan C: hee. late afternoon, went to toa payoh. dad changed handphone, again. lol. htc pda. bloody cool i tell you. haha. ok, whatever. then had dinner at fork and spoon then went to singapore basketball center cause brother had prize presentation ceremony. his team got 4th. so he received a medal and a tin of milo since milo was the main sponsor of the tournament. yadayadayada and here i am now back home. haha. nothing much happened today luh. yeah. ally accompanied me. uh huh.

i had a meaningful conversation with my dad just now. this is how it goes;
dad : i have to go up to KL again tomorrow. got problems there.
me : oh, ok. * face like kinda down *
dad : i hope you understand. its not like i want to leave you guys. but i have projects there and all. i need to settle alot of things.
me : yeah. ok. sure.
dad : whats wrong? you unhappy about me going up to KL?
me : its not that i'm unhappy. its just that, we rarely get to see each other ah. its either i see you on saturday night and sunday or sunday morning. then you're back up again in KL. like, so short ah. we spend like a day together and stuff. i just miss having a dad by my side. its been 3 months already like this. sometimes when i can't talk to mama about some stuff, i wanted to turn to you, but you're not there ah. its not that i want you to feel guilty or anything. its just how i feel. i know you do this because you want us to live a nice life, but not knowing how you are in KL is like torturing ah. eventhough i can ask for external help to ask how you're doing but papa sendiri cakap sometimes we cannot trust what they say. then when i want to call and ask how you're doing and how's everything there, i don't know when you're free from meetings. so its like difficult ah. i hope you get where i'm going. i'm not trying to make you feel guilty. this is just how i feel, as your daughter.
dad : i was afraid that you'll say this, but yes i understand. and you have to understand too that i'm not going there to enjoy or anything. i need to finish my business. i got 8 projects to settle and if only i can close 2 or 3 deals, i'm very happy already. but things aren't going as well as planned. you have to understand ok?
me : yeah i do. i just wish someday things will be like it was before. i just wish someday i have my dad back at my side.
dad : i'm always here. i've never been gone from anywhere.
me : * smiled *

i really miss my dad :( &i miss my boyfriend like horribly alot. sigh. things are just different nowadays. and its really difficult for me. healths not good nowadays too. for me and mama. sighsighsigh. all i can say is, i redha with everything that is happening. patience is what i have left. prayers to god is what i always do. and tawakal is the key to everything. its a test from god. and i'm accepting it. dear god, i need you more then anything now.

i miss my boyfriend, i love my boyfriend, i need my boyfriend; badly :(

i was super late for madrasah but i still went. haha! yesterday night i couldn't sleep. so, texted bf at around o5oo++am. he was on his way home ( thank god! ) texted with him till about 7. then i went to sleep cause he already reach home. i was supposed to wake up at 8 but instead i woke up at o83o. ahha! so kelam kabut siap pegi madrasah. yadayadayada. accompanied by ally C: this woman, haha! whatever ehhhhh! lol. ended at 11 and went to meet mirah to pass her stuffs then went home. ate nagasari ( like finally! ) haha. then here i am now updating. yeah. i still have pains! but i think i'm gonna go out today cause i've still yet to find my cardigen hoody. not going jempotan thats what moms says. back home at tampines by 12 midnight or so. pack my bag and get ready for school tomorrow. rahhh. we end at 6 :( haha. i think next whole week i'll end later then usual cause i wanna practice for my phase test. yeah. its next saturday! rahhh! 6 more days to go and so little time. more updates later. ps; my lips are dry and skin is like peeling off from it. EEW! bye dumbs.


i love you, taslim C:

my saturday pretty much went like this. haha. in order;
- stayed home.
- watched tv.
- ordered pizza from pizza hut.
- cousins came over.
- texted ally and boyfriend.
- watched movie at home.
- gossip about people.
- talked about marriage with my parents ( not me la, my cousin. bf knows what happen. )
- cooked food eventhough theres pizza.
- bear with my stomach, head and tooth pain.
- more texting with ally and boyfriend.
- more gossiping.
- singed our hearts out.
- more bearing of pain.
- cousins went off.
- ate food.
- complained to ally.
- done.
haha! so yeah. it was kinda alright eventhough i had to stay home all day. cause i cannot bear to go out anyways. the pain is killing me. i'm sure boyfriend is having a fun time now in the movies. lol. but i think he'll be sleeping inside la. hahaha. he's very sleepy but still want to go out. cool kan boyfriend aku? hehe. sayang dier. and the best part is, he'll be out till tomorrow morning. boohoo. i just hope nothing happens lah kan. sigh.

ok, i can't sleep. haha. so i'm gonna occupy myself with something to do while waiting for him to finish his movie. yeah. then after that i'll go to sleep. madrasah tomorrow. seriously, i have no mood to go eventhough i really wanna go. but the pain is bothering me. and it killed my mood too. rahhh! haha. ok whatever. uh, jempotan to go tomorrow. but i don't think i'll be going. i think i'm gonna stay home tomorrow again. yeah. furthermore, i'm still tired! my eyebags are getting worst. haha. cool siolxsxzxz!

bye dumbs.

uh, ok. yesterdays and todays post.

friday, 11 june 2oo8.
as per normal went to school with boyfriend. was accompanied by ally through text. damn it was cold like shits cause it was so called drizzling. like toot betol ah. haha. walked to tampines interchange. waited for nashrun and safwan. but safwan came late so we went off first so that me and boyfriend won't be late for class. i had a bad stomach cramp then. was like motherballs toot in pain. first lesson was practical. quite fun i should say. haha. first time i had my real laugh. yeah. broken up into smaller groups. my team was nabilah, wafir, alif, wanie and jesslyn. haha. funny ah they all when they did the practice. texted with boyfriend to settle some things. then after practical we had behavioral science. blah. kinda ok laa. was in real pain by then. but just tahan je ah. umi wanted to go to LJS at simei after school. so yeah. we did. azizah, alif, ali, hazmi, umi, atikah, sahida, ryhana and myself went to LJS to eat. blahblahblah. azizah, ali and hazmi returned to school. umi and alif went home. so left with atiqah, sahida, ry and myself. talktalktalk. then atiqah and sahida went to eunos/aljunied to the anak-anak yatim home. then ry accompanied me. talktalktalk some more while waiting for boyfriend to arrive. yadayadayada. went to the toilet then ry needed to go tamp so sent her up to the mrt station then went down then waited outside LJS then a few minutes later boyfriend arrived.

sat at the kopitiam. safwan and nashrun ate. then chilled there. talktalktalk. laughlaughlaugh. damn funny la. thats all i can say. haha. then went to this one block. lepak. they played taitee and smoke as always. i kinda pretty much wasn't in the mood cause of my pain but i tried my best too cause finally i was like ok with boyfriend. so yeah. ally accompanied me. 6 plus we left. thats about it. uh huh. was supposed to meet mum and cousin at town, but i decided to go home cause by the time i reach there confirm they finish eating already so i felt like there was no point. haha! so yeah. went home. bathe. prayed. called up boyfriend. then err something happened ( again. sigh ) put down the phone. texted with him. then waited for him to finish his whatever. then called him again. talk to him. then put down the phone cause he was already asleep. see la. haiyeer. haha. then uh, i couldn't sleep till after 7am :( after i missed called him. then i can sleep. then, he miss called me and i called him back around 8 plus. he was on his way to school for BL meeting. then yeah. talk to him for awhile. then had to put down cause i needed to bathe my granddad. then slept.

today, 12 june 2oo8.
woke up at 1oam or 11am. whichever doesn't matter. did household chores. cooked. fed my granddad. texted bf. watched tv and here i am now updating. heh! i'm tired. i'm in pain. rahhh. shetupid menses why must come now. pfffft! i think i'll stay home today. tired still. haven't been getting enough sleep lately. yeah. so, i'm done for now. more updates later. bye dumbs.

nadiah bby; happy birthday to you! haha. hope you had a kick ass birthday today aite. take care darling. lovelove!

alright. school wasn't that bad. morning, had combined lecture clinical nursing. shetupid teacher ask us to sit according to register number. dah tu takpe, my class is allocated at the back. haiyeer! haha. but whatever lah. after that had life skills lesson. we told the teacher our final project and he let us off super early. like woah. hah. went to makan at cafe two. then went to forum to watch a skit. then when we're going up to the locker, amirah pengsan. at first we thought like, maybe she terjatoh ke hape ke. sekali, eh! dier pengsan. then everyone all rush to her. haha. irritatingirritating pun kiter tetap care for dier jugak tau. so, ali and atiqah went to sent her to CDC to wait for her dad to come and fetch her while we proceed to the locker. camwhored with ry. and again i cried. till end of practical lesson. sigh. practiced on insertion of NG tube. p.e next. did rounds around the field then played soccer for awhile then rested. then waited for ry to finish her so called detention. waited with azizah and umi. then we went our seperate ways. umi, azizah and alif waited for ali. me and ry proceeded to tampines mall to meet ruzaini. he blanja us LJS. thanks eh ruzaini! laughed here and there. but i really wasn't in the mood. ry could tell i was faking it. haha. i'm getting suckier at hiding my feelings already. sighh.

took the train with ry. back home now at serangoon north. soon later will be going back to tampines when my cousin comes here to take care of my grandfather. yeah. tomorrow, i have a match. but superduper lazy to go. SO, if i'm not lepaking with bf, i'll be meeting my mom at town with my cousin or i'll be meeting atherah cause she needs to see me urgently and we'll be starbuck-ing or i'll just sit home. yeah. morning, practical then followed by behavioral science then end of school. yay!

you,
i really miss the old us. where we used to be happy. i hate how i'm feeling now. and i'm sure you hate it too. i wonder when this is gonna end? its really killing me down deeply. seriously. i miss your hugs. i miss your kisses. i miss everything :( how i wish i could turn back time and not ask you that question and all of this will never happen. sigh. but... its just so hard for me to forget about it. arghh. i love you syg. i really do :(

no mood. done. bye dumbs.

3 straight days of crying is enough for me. i'm reallyreally tired. i'm reallyreally down. i really need to be strong. i don't want to let my mum down. i don't want to let my friends down. i don't want to let myself down. i hope now, things will turn out well. i really hated this feeling i had for the past 3 days. it really killed me deep down :(

alright then. back to a so called happy note. today school ended off early cause we didn't have p.e lessons due to the rain. haha. morning, had clinical nursing theory. did on electrolytes and nutritions. then we had 3 hours of break which for me was 2 and a half hours of crying infront of ry. haha. she's the best la. she knows what i'm going through. hee. &all the best to you and mat ok. may you join us soon C: haha! anyways, met up with is. its been a long time since i met her. then talktalk to her just now. she can like know behind my laughter i was in pain, sadness. haha. good ah she. and that means i acting is getting suckier and suckier by the day. oh great! must go for acting class already. hah. whatever sia diyy. and so, after our break we had clinical nursing practical. did on the insertion of the nasogastric tube. haha. ok, i'm proud to say that i'm confident i'll do well in this phase test cause i did this twice before. and i got good remarks about it. so hehe. i just hope i don't screw up. cause like staff nurse and teachers are a huge difference i tell you. teachers stares are much more rahh then staff nurse so we tend to cock up more infront of teachers then staff nurses. haha. no idea why but its just seems to be that way ah. so yeah. practical ended at 3 then we headed to the stadium. luckily our p.e teacher still remains the same, mr saadon. hahaha. he's our bestfriend gitu kan :D

o33o, he came. then it was drizzling abit so he let us go home. cool kan? thats why he's our bestfriend you see. haha. met up with bf at cafe one then went home. soon, i'll be going back to tampines home. seriously, i'm freaking tired. granddad has not been himself nowadays. and everyone is like already preparing for the worst. sigh. i guess i should too. he has been asking for alot of things already. sighh. well, if they have to go then we have to redha right? * touch wood * its just the feelings we have to endure with once we really know that they have left us. heyy, he's the only grandfather that i have left. who wants to lose him sia? sighh. okok, done. uhm, so yeah. tomorrow, if its drizzling or raining again and if the hall isn't occupied with other classes for p.e, then we might go home early again. yay! haha. i love it when we get to go home early. dapat tidur. seriously speaking, attachment period aint that tiring as compared when going to school really. no idea why. haha. aku macam wierd gitu kan :D tomorrow morning, combined clinical nursing theory lecture. at least ok la. can curikcurik tidur. heh. then after that i have life skills lesson. then break. then clinical nursing practical then p.e. yeahyeah. i'm jealous that bf ends super early tomorrow. rahhh. takpe. we have our days. haha! ok da. cukop.

boyfriend! please call me faster. i think i'm falling asleep already. and you, iloveyou C: ok. done. bye dumbs.

this is what happens when school ends early for me. haha. i conquer the 6th level toilet :D lol. okok. todays day wasn't that good nor that bad nor that worst. haha. went to school with bf. despite some complications, i'm glad he still went to school with me. i really am. it made me smile a little bit ( of course when i look down then i smile la ) heh. iloveyou. first period was lifeskills. we decided to do this project on going to pertapis home and yadayadayada. thanks yana, afiqah, shiirah, mama el & zizah for cheering me up when i was down. korang best! hehe. after life skills is behavioral science. miss chng, my former co-cp teacher was our teacher. haha. so yeah. kinda ok la the lesson. abit confusing but i think can manage. heh. then after that was clinical nursing theory. yadayadayada. mood was really off by then. sigh. then uhm, school ended at 1 for us. then went to the toilet near the chemistry lab area cause mama el wanted to change clothes and do her make up and stuff. so yeah. temaned her while i taketake picture. haha. here's how the conversation went;
mama el: * inside the toilet cubicle while changing clothes * diyy! kau ngah uat pe?
me: amekamek gambar je.
mama el: kau buang tebiat pe amek gambar kat toilet?
me: at least ok per daripade nanti aku pikir pasal masalah aku.
mama el: ye tak ye eh. okok. continue amek gambar.
me: hahahaha.
merepek right? i know. LOL!

so, went to teman her to the back gate nye bus stop. waited for her bf/scandal/friend, whichever it is, to pick her up. texted with bf. then when her bf/scandal/friend came, they went off, i took bus 2 down to tanah merah then took 31 back home. so yeah. here i am now. just finish editing the toilet pictures and i'm reallyreallyreally tired now. haha. so, i shall go to sleep after doing my prayers. &i got homework. BOOO! 2nd day already got homework. what is this man/woman?! haha. so yeah, i'm gonna go knock myself dead to sleep now. &fuck, i end school at o53opm tomorrow :(((
dedicationdedication! haha.
" moving on, i start to realise
i can reach my tomorrow
i can hold my head up high
and its all because you by my side.

when you look me in the eyes
and tell me that you love me
everythings alright
when you right here by my side
when you look me in the eyes
i catch a glimpse of heaven
i find my paradise
when you look me in the eyes. "
i love you muhammad taslim.

and i'm done. bye dumbs.

alright. first day of school wasn't that bad after all la. even though my new teachers are like fucktard nak mampos, i think we can still survive the nine weeks in school. haha. nothing much happen actually. lessons started today. haha. it was the most suckiest 1o hours of school but i made it through. lol :D went to meet bf, safwan and nashrun then off to somewhere near afgan cause they wanna buy ciggies then went to macs to eat then back home.

i cried while doing my prayers just now. really, thats the first. cause when i tried to concentrate, everytime its you i think.

besok skolaaaaaaaa! haha. alamak. baru fikir nak movie marathon. tak jadi. besok skola. sobssobs. anyways, just got back from my cousins wedding and seriously i didn't regret going at all. haha. okok, when i first reach there, suddenly like " ehhhhhhh! kak diyy! " and i was like " huh? who calling me?" cause the voice was like from behind. then when i turn around, hang kau! my cousins all come running and with my tak high sangat heel and baju kurung i run to my nenek. lol :D datang kat dier je kene marah. haha. cute kan? ni la sume, nenek kesayangan aku. nampak aku je marah. alamak. haha. marah bukan pasal ape. pasal dah lame tak messagemessage ngan dier. lol. i have wierd family members :| but i love them so. hehe. anyways, congratulations abang jepon for getting married and not running away to some place far. haha. may you last long with your dearly beloved and live happily ever after. cheychey aku! haha. anyways, salam my aunties and uncles all. makan. text boyfriend. then when the groom and bride were about to reach there, my uncles ask me and my brother to get ready for the silat pegantin. at first i didn't want to do cause i was lazy. heh. then furthermore i'm not sure if boyfriend kasi ke tak. so i asked his permission first. then he kasi and even sent his friend. awww :D

so yeah. when they came, we did the silat and all. then changed back. continue texting with boyfriend. stayed there till about 6 plus. then made our way to toa payoh cause brother had performance there. then makan then went home. boyfriend is currently out getting his school stuffs. tsktsk! haha. this boy ah, alamakkk. lol. did i tell you tomorrow i got school? haha! going back to tampines home at around 11 plus or 12 plus. depends on what time my abang sedare finish his shift. he has to work overtime cause he came to work late today. tengok la! alamak. haha. tomorrow, maybe meeting mama at bugis to get my hoodie. maybe je. tak confirm. haha. anyways, thats all i guess. haha. i got tagged. but i don't think imma do it. sorry dee! tired uh. tomorrow must wake up early somemore. tsktsk. shetupid. haha. whatever gitu.

you! don't be late eh tomorrow. haha. and i'm gone now. bye dumbs.

alright. i'll reply friendster comments tomorrow. i'm seriously am tired. sorry for the delay. ok. did household chores then went to toa payoh to meet nisa. luckily toa payoh still has numbers that starts with 9 C: i'm not used to using numbers starting with 8. so yeah. i hope with this new number. nomore problems arise. seriously, if the next fucker texts me wanting this and that i swear i'm not gonna use handphone anymore. hahaha. betol la. tak bedek. asal korang tak pecaye ni? pfffft! so anyways, after i bought my new number, went to eat at fork and spoon. haha. &i couldn't believe nisa dressed so lady-like today. lol. its so not her ah. heh. anyways, after that, she went home and i went to tampines. met up with boyfriend and multazam. they went to search for tee or singlets. then mul went to his aunts place. boyfriend accompanied me to 4o7 to collect mama's medications. then sent me back home to serangoon north. awww. so sweet C:

slacked with him till about o83o gitu. then went home. then thats about it. uh huh. tomorrow, i got family jempotan to go at pasir ris. rahhh. like so lazy pun ade ah. but cannot. must go. cause its family. pfffft. then maybe after that i go buy stationaries, if i can't find mine at home. lol. then maybe get my hoody then off back home. to come and think of it, when after i read ally's blog, aren't we, ite students, still youths? how come we still got school? hmphf! haha. whatever la. ok then. thats all. bye dumbs.

today is already saturday and tomorrow is sunday and the following day is already monday which means school holiday for secondary school kids but school for us! rahh! haha. i've been staring at my uniform since just now at 1opm till now and while i was on the phone with boyfriend. i was like, omg, schools starting soon already. and like practically kinda freaked out. haha! i know i'm crazy but like whatever gitu. hehe. today, i wanna go change number. reallyreally need to change number cause some punk called again and talk crap and ask for stupid fcuking idiotic things. why don't people just get it when i say i have a boyfriend? susah sangat ke korang nak comprehend tu bende? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND. B-O-Y-F-R-I-E-N-D. argh! geram! * breathes in breathes out * sempot jugak sia aku nanti. haha. ok whatever. so yeah, thanks to the pyschoticfreak, i'm gonna change number. don't care already. i have no choice anyway. yeah. and i need to get my hoody and my pencil box with pens and whatever things and my notebook and maybe a bag. but i think bag tak perlu sangat ah. haha. whateverrrrrr.

sorry to those gen-yians cause i couldn't come for the overnight barbeque. i hope you guys are having fun now, getting close with the new people. yeah. haha. OH! that reminds me, JN0801E students, please bring along your tabbner on monday. cause " they " say we're starting lessons on monday already. i know like wtf kan? haha. so yeah. just bring your tabbner ok and pray that they have our lockers by then. ok. calling boyfriend again now. bye dumbs.

yesterday.
went to meet alif at hougang mall first since he was around that area then we proceed to harbourfront to meet hazmi. walked to the bus interchange to wait for the rest to arrive. laughed here and there. since umi, alif, hazmi and myself were the earliest to reach, we decided to wait for the rest at the mrt station. so walked back there. then met wanie and ali. walked to harbourfront center's kfc. makaned. haha. we were like the supermost kecoh group there ah. with alif making his retarded faces and all. lol. wairi joined us at kfc. saw yulin and syu. waited for him to finish eating then we proceeded to vivo. window shopped. then amirah joined us. then alif's friend named alif joined us too. yeah.

went to toys r us. haha. ok, damn funny i tell you. lol. then walked around and around till we got tired. then we proceeded to harbourfront center again cause umi wanted to go to F.O.S. then after that we went to the rooftop of vivo to chillek. i got wet thrice. thanks eh korang. but thanks to the hoodie, it got me dry abit. haha. camwhored. talked about our lifes in the hospital and stuff. then around 8plus went to starbucks. bought my caramel frappe then went to secret recepie to buy for mama cake. then off back home while the rest still chilled there. i had fun really. they're the best classmates i swear C:

today.
although early in the morning something unhappy happened, but it soon turn out to be ok. yeah. and i'm grateful for that. uh huh.
happy 2nd month syg C:
thank you for being there for me through my ups and downs.
thank you for the constant love, care and concern that you have given me.
thank you for always being here with me.
thank you for the laughter.
thank you for everything.
i'm happy that we have made this far.
i'm happy that we're still going strong despite the arguements.
i'm thankful to god cause he never took you away from me.
cause he knows how much you mean to me.
i love you dear; &you're the only guy i would want to spent the rest of my life with.
mwah!
ok, i'm abit sad that i couldn't meet him today ah. but nevermind, schools re-opening soon. so yeah. can meet him cam everyday gitu :D

speaking of that, i've still yet to get my grey hoody cardigen, my bag and my new pencil case. LOL! my brother took away mine. grrr. so that means, shopping tomorrow with mummy. hahaha. whatever sia diyana. pffffft!

&did i tell you that training is last minute cancelled today? haha! thank god ah. i'm still having backache. lol. 2nd july OH 2nd july. you! its still fresh in mind. hehe.

bye dumbs.

diyana feat umi.

diyana feat umi and ali.

wanie, alif(s),umi,diyana,wairi,ali and hazmi.

diyana feat umi again.

umi, my favourite girl.

dope kepe oi. haha.

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ini aku suka.

feat umi.

feat umi.

&i'm beat. update more later.

to this certain human being;
why you sososososososososo terase that its you i'm referring to? haha. please la. it can be his ex admirer or whatever what right? what makes you think its you? pfffft. and please eh. no time tau to read your blog. haha. jangan terase ah.

people think they're always right. hahaha. nonsense type of people. still exist in this world. nyeah. off to meet the gang soon. more updates later. bye bitch.

OK, haha. i'm having leg cramps now. lol. don't ask why. anyway, woke up at o53oam and i hit the snooze button twice. at o546am called up ally to wake her up so that she won't be late for school. that girl ah. haiyeer. haha. she has one cool rocking voice i tell you :D well anyways, after waking her up and texting with her for awhile, when to do my prayers and lie down on my bed and stare at the ceiling while waiting for o615am cause i needed to wake my brother up. mama left for work at o63oam after the both of us scream and scream to ask brother to wake up. haha. cool kan family aku? XD

when everyone left home, i did the laundry. bathed. waited for boyfriend to come to my place. he reached like around o83oam plus. slacked with him. then in the afternoon went to hougang point mac's to buy food and eat under my block. haha. shared a couple of stories. then he sent me back up. one thing i love about him is that he step macam paham berani nak jumpe mama padehal he malu. hehe. so macho yet so malu. awwww :D

anyways, thank you syg for today. i reallyreally till infinity and never ending will always enjoy your company with me. heh. i love you from the bottom of my heart ( ehemehem. heh! ) and those three words i have my life in them . friday is coming soon, and i really hope i can meet you even if its just a while. mwah!

alright then. tomorrow, outing with umi ummairah bte abdul karim! haha. like finally gitu kan. rahh! out to vivo. uh huh. i have no idea who else is going and i don't care that much cause i'm meeting umi! yeahyeah. bye dumbs.

ok, nisa came to my place early in the morning. pffft. haha. she went to use the laptop, i got datok ready cause aunt was coming to pick him up. temaned boyfriend otf cause he went to get his second hep b jab. tskk. its like 4 months due already. see la that boy. haha. talktalk to him till about 1pm then ate lunch, changed for training then went off.

training was alright. did rounds around the field, passing then done for the day. changed and i was freaking early. so i called up boyfriend to see where he was. and he was at tmart with ray. and would only reach simei like o44o or so. so he ask me to stay in school till like o42o then walk to simei mrt. haha. and i did. and thanks keekee for accompanying me. mwah.

he camed and i bought food from LJS cause first, kepingin nak makan. second, lapar. hoho. so yeah. bought food then we sat under this block kat daerah simei. i ate he watched. mwahaha. after i ate, proceeded to tamp to collect my medications. then off back to uncles place at seletar. pass him money then off back home.

syg, thank you for picking me up today and for following me to my uncles house then send me back home. thanks for the shoulder and thanks for making me laugh. you're one amazing boyfriend. can't wait for tomorrow. hehe. iloveyou!