I AM SO STRESSED UP RIGHT NOW!
Dear allah, give me t strength t pull through your test.
Give me your blessings. Give me your courage.
Give me your love. Give me your energy.
Give me your faith. Thats all i'm asking.
Amin.

If i could wish for something right, just one thing, i wish for a kid who has a genius brain t switch brains w me on thursday. Just for a day.
Or.
Another wish is, i wish that bf is by my side right now and he can help me through reproductive system :(
I need my bf/bestf/tutor badly right now. (Ps; all three same people. Haha)

Bio, you're as of now, my worst enemy. Even i don't hate _____, _____, _____ & _____ as much as i hate you. Pfffft!

Dear you,
Why aren't you calling? Alamakkkk!
Miss you felly felly felly much :(

IF I WERE A BOY,
Even just for a day.

*EDITED/}
Ahh yes! Haha. Finally taufik batisah song is up, (:
Been not having the time to put up this song. Been ages since i wanted to put it up but i just didn't have the time to do it and now is up. Woohoo!
Lol. Ok. Diyy is getting hyped about the song putting up thing. Okkk. Lol.
So yesterday, i went to see my grandfather in the morning. Then did my project and all. Haha. Seeing back the finalized video is damn funny i tell you. And nice also la in a way.
Oops. Am i revealing too much information? Heh!

I think i appeared in the news. Lol. Joking je la. How i wish gitu eh. Anywhats, me and my classmates are planning to do a song during nurses day. What song? Cannot tell ah. Secret. Hehe. But the song was once my blog song. So, figure it out yourself ok. Don't know, can't remeber then too bad :D
Alysha insyirah bte abdul malik, i'm sorry i couldn't make it yesterday. I had to do my project and finialized it by next week. I got test to study. Arghh. I'll meet you on tuesday instead for just a short while ok. Really sorry tau.
Love you to bits and peices. Hope you understand. Tuesday confirm i make time for you. No matter how busy i am. Lovelove (:
*Cross fingers hoping that she understands*

Went out t see grandfather. Then went t ECP t play bowling. Haha. &Makan also. V nice i tell you th breeze and th cold-cold air conditioned room. Tskk. Felt like pee-ing every ten minutes. Double tskk. Haha. Anywhats, bowling score was a doom. I seriously need more practice. Usually before i can hit above hundred. Now i'm scoring a pathethic seventy plus. Barely making it. Haha. How t practise anyway? Most of my time is eaten up by school. Shitheads.
Team is meeting up again on tuesday t reshoot a scene. Then off t study. Omg. I haven't even started on my biology project. Shucks. And i've not yet even started on my project management. Double shucks. My notes on reproductive system is half complete and test is on thursday. Triple shucks. Good luck sia diyy. Pffft(!)

Thanks people for wishing me happy chinese new year through message. Heh. Appreciate it alot. Especially t sakinah. No shame ask me t blanja her and all. Tskk :D

Can i don't go gong xi fa cai on monday? I v lazy. I wanna stay home and study please? :(

Goodnight/}

Dear you,
Are you here or are you there?
I'm confused.

SETIAP NAFASKU,
Berpesan padamu.

First and foremost, on th twenty second of january two thousand and nine;
HAPPY FIFTHTEEN-TH BIRTHDAY MORONIC BESTF :D
Haha. I know i wished you like ten plus at night, cause i v busy and all. I know you understand. You always do. Thats why i'm by your side, thats why i love you. Haha. Ok, whatever about that now. Soooo, yes, i officially owe you presents. Lol. And you be thankful you'll be insyaallah receiving it tomorrow. Uh huh. Haha. So, here is what i would like t say t th her:

1. Be my moronic bestf always. Never change. Not one single bit.
2. Insyaallah, you will study hard! Haha.
3. Fifthteen already, get ic all. So, don't action-action ok. Haha.
4. Semoga panjang umor, murah rezeki.
5. Jadi anak yang solehah, insyaallah.
6. Mudah-mudahan, doa-doa kamu dimakbul oleh allah.
7. Take care of yourself especially your knee.
8. I LOVE YOU T BITS AND PEICES.

So yeah. Thats about it ah. Haha.
♥ you when th sun shine we'll shine together.
LOL.

Ni pulak matair saya. Nampak tu yang tengah tidur? Cute kan dia? Hehe.
( Picture source is taken from sakinah's blog )
Uh huh. Haha.
♥

So anyways, my week has been alright. I BROKE MY PREVIOUS TWO POINT FOUR TIMING. How marvelous can i be? Haha! I was sick on monday but still managed t pull through th whole day. At night i went t th doctors. Got mc on tuesday but i stubbornitis, still go t school. Attended bio lesson then headed off home. Slept. Yada-yada. Other days was fine. Today, school sucks. Haha. Cause th topic covered sucks. Lol. Anywhats, after school, headed back home w boyf, tikus, gigi besi, payung, gates and wall. We did our project. Damn hilarious i tell you. Boyf slept in my room. Uh huh. They headed home at ten plus? Boyf headed home at seven plus. Mom bought chicken rice for them. Ummm, sedap tau :D

Catched up w my friend about some stuff. Haha. Long time since we last chatted. Moronic bestf, saki and boyf also.
I miss chander ann kimberly :D
I miss the triplets also. Hehehehe.
Sya, ya. I miss you also fool.

Goodnight & goodbye/}

Ps; bio test is just days away.
WOOOOOOOOOH!

Double ps; monday gong xi fa cai visiting. Sian leh. Tskk.

Triple ps; nomore already. Hahahahha.

IF YOU LEAVE ME TONIGHT,
I'll wake up alone.

Hello. Well, my week went absoulutely fine. Well, not really what i had in mind. But, thats th way life is. Its never about how you want it t be, its about how you plan t control it when it happens.
So yeah. Studies aint getting any better. I almost broke down cause i couldn't understand a single thing about my bioscience. Its really frustrating cause it just aint me. I know i can do it. But that day, i can't seem to. I don't know why. Maybe my mind wasn't focused enough. Alot of things are stuck in my head for god knows what reasons they are there for. Hais.

Things took a toll when my nursing officer called me up t talk t me about my studies. About my attachment, mostly about anything that has nothing got t do w giving me th courage, confidence and motivation t strive better. Instead, she pulled me down. Down t th gut. Down t th floor. Down t th dirt. She demotivated me so much. I almost scolded her. But i didn't. I maintain my cool. So yeah. I just can't understand this kinda people. Demotivating others, sure, it gives them a good knock on their head t buck up and stuff. But hey, IT AINT LIKE AS THOUGH I'M DOING SO HORRIBLY BAD RIGHT!

Enough about that. Lets talk about friends. Yes, friends. Friends can sometimes be there for you for almost everything. BUT, sometimes, friends can't too cause they have a life of their own. BUT, once your friends starts t become a irritating specimen, that's when you realise th true meaning of friends. For eg, when i'm in a bad mood, a true friend knows when t back off and what kind of questions they need t ask in order t not irritate me. That friend should know that i'm in a bad mood and not continue t irritate me w your face, w your voice, w your body language. Please la for gods sake what do i have t do t show you that i'm in no bloody mood already? Scream till you get hurt? Is that what you want? Read my body language la please! Omg! I can't stand you!

So people, i repeat this and this is th freaking last time i'm gonna repeat it cause its seriously pissing me off.

1. Never irritate me ah. Even if i'm in a good mood, you irritate me, i swear i will bite your head off ah.
2. When i'm in a bad mood already, READ MY BODY LANGUAGE BEFORE CRACKING UP A STUPID JOKE OR GIVE ME THAT STUPID FACE OR LET ME HEAR YOUR STUPID VOICE.
3. Never ask more then one question about my boyf ah. Please. Nak kaypo sangat kan, nak tau sangat pasal dier kan, matair ngan dier ah. Seriously sia, stop it sia. What problem has it got t do w you kalau aku masih ngan dier ke tak? Kalau aku ngan dier ok ke tak? Kalau aku ngan dier gadoh ke tak? Kau sape? Mak dier? Kakak dier? Adik dier? Crush dier? Admirer dier? Ex dier? Matair dier? TAK KAN! Jadi takya tau la!
4. Never touch my boyf ah. Please. Seriously ah. Yang pompuan tu kan ( ally, boyf, kinah, durriah & nisha should know ) nasib la eh tangan aku tak melayang kat muka kau tu. Sardine je eh kau pegang dier. HAHA. Naseb ah kau junior aku. Aku tau kau class ape pun. One more time bende ni terjadi. Habis ah geng.
5. Don't want me t become ugly beast, DON'T IRRITATE ME AH!

Ps; whatever i said in this post is just a peice of my mind. Haha. Siapa makan chilli terasa pedasnye, tu kau peh pasal la ok.

Anyways, i'm gonna go do my bioscience now. Freaking need t.

Goodbye/}

SHE'S FALLEN FROM GRACE,
She's all over th place.

Hello people. Yes, finally i'm back t update. Lol. Lets see how my week went ok? I'll tell you my verdict at th end of this post (:

Monday, 5th january 2009.

Met up w bf. Th usual morning routine. Go t school together. Uh huh. First day of school already we have t bring our tabbner. Like, hais. Haha. Anyways, went t MLT. Hugged sakinah and durriah. Said hi t faridah nisha and suhana. Then headed t my class and hugged almost every girl. LOL. Nothing better t do. Waiting for time t pass by. Ok. So, everyone started t come in. Then th real thing started. It started off w disciplinary action. Haha. Mdm phyllis tan, super cool. Super garang. I like :D Blahblahblah. Then had patient care A (PCA) combine lecture. Wow. So fast right combine lecture? Haha. Thats why ah. Tskk. Started on diabetes. Then yeah. Had break for one hour then p.e. Took height and weight. Then went off. Haha. Err, lepak at level six. Then continuation of studies till about five pm. Yeah. Tskk.
Homed w bf as usual. Done (:

Tuesday, 6th january 2009.

Second day of school, never gotten any better. Haha. Workload tripled. Timetable sucks. Haha. Everyday end late. Like taik gitu. Seriously. Studies is horrible.
I love my teachers, seriously i do. Just that th module sucks. HAHA :D
PCA, ok la. Can tahan. Its my core module. I have t love it.
Bio two, another core module. Die-die have t love it. Thou its really stressful, but i really have t love it. And thank god, bf is my private tutor. Lol. Really, no kidding. This guy v clever (:
Geron, why they even have this module. God only knows why. I know why but i don't seem t like th idea of having it. Haha. Its really broing. Really. Study of old people. Like, ok? Lol. And uh, i didn't know they have PHD of gerontology. Yeah. They do. Haha. But anywhats, my seniors who already graduated say that i will like th module pretty soon. I hope i will, if not, hahaha.
Physical education and lifeskills, NEVER A COMPLAIN :D
Ended school early today. Cause we didn't have lifeskills. Uh huh. Haha.
Didn't wait for bf. Cause he asked me t go home first. Heh. And uh, he got caught. For hair. See la. Haha.

Wednesday, 7th january 2009.

Th most sway day of my life. Like seriously. Haha. My hair like kena caught don't know how many times ah. But i can't be bothered really. Its like, cmon ah. My hair is only visible under th bright light and under th sun what. Tskk. Yes, i do know its rather " reddish ", i'm not blind. I can see. Really. Haha. Soooo, since madam supayah never say anything, i'm not gonna do anything about it. UNLESS, bf ask me t do something about it. Haha. Ok, whatever about my hair.
You know, my break now, always one hour. Then right, its always th same as th other courses. Then right, we always have t wait v long t sit down and buy our food. Like what right? Tskk. Last year, break like v long and all. Haha. Ok, complain je. Anyways, it doesn't really matter la. Cause i don't eat that much. Haha. I can live on bread and sweets. Thou i know i'll turn hypo after four hours, i don't care. As long as i live. LOL :D
Ended at six. Home w bf. Actually, i don't have t say i go home w him everytime right? Cause all of you will know, must know, that i go home w him and go t school w him everyday. So yeah (:

Thursday, 8th january 2009.

Two point four kilometer run in th morning. I managed t get in th time limit. But i continued running. Haha. T cheer on my other friends (:
Sakinah pushed me! Haha. I was running hypo. She pushed me, i almost fell. Luckily i didn't. So paiseh please. Infront of bf class. Haha. After two point four, went t cafe two t get drinks and fruits. Changed, headed t MLT for bio two combine lecture. Did on thyroid and parathyroid gland. I was v sleepy! Haha. But i managed t stay up cause mdm phyllis tan was walking around and stuff. And i really need t pass my bio two. Cause i know i suck at this subject and i need t pay triple attention during class and combine lecture. Yeah. My book is full of scribbles. LOL. Ok done. Uh after that, had contact time. Mdm supayah came in and talked. Then had lunch w berly, saki, durriah and nisha. Alot of fun and laughter. Really wakes me up. Haha (:
PCA all th way. Ended at six. Home.

Friday, 9th january 2009.

PCA theory for three hours. Project management for two hours. Break for a hour. Bio two for a hour. Home after that. Bf teached me abit on bio. He's a v good teacher. I really understand and i know how t tackle on memorizing th eight glands. Uh huh. Then he ate dinner at my place w my mum and dad. Then he got home at nine. Thats it.

Today, 10th january 2009.

Bf camed in th morning. Lepak and all. Then he left at about five? Uh huh. Thats about it today. Wanted t eat w him but then my mum bought chicken rice for me already. So, yeah. Had a bit of a misunderstanding w bf. I really hope things are getting better. I missed yesterday alot (:
Thats about it. I gotta study. Really.
Toodles people!

Ps; not everyday updates. V busy. Hectic schedule.
Monday; five pm.
Tuesday; five pm.
Wednesday; six pm.
Thursday; six pm.
Friday; three pm.
V tiring please. So, please understand. Love y'all v much ok.

Alysha insyirah bte abdul malik, i love you like alot. I miss you like v terrible. I hope you understand i can't text you much nowadays. I'm really busy. But i will try t text you soon ok. Lysm (:

And oh, th verdict of my week.. Ok and great. Ok w school. Great w bf. Thats all.

Goodbye/}

LOVE ME FOR A REASON,
Let th reason be love.

Yesterday. I practically stayed home. Was supposed t go out t wisma atria t get some stuff. But noooooo, i had this stupid cramps! Arghh. And i wasn't even having my menses. Can you believe it? I only have today t get my thing done if not i'm toast on monday la. Thanks alot. Tskk. I wish and i wish that my cramps will be ok by then. Hais. I think its gastric, i think its cramps. I don't know la. It just hurts so bad :(

Boyfriend better come home today. If not i'm gonna skin him alive for leaving me here all alone in singapore ( literally ) for almost five days. Tskk. I miss him v much. He should know that. If he doesn't, he's good as v good. Haha.
Bet he's enjoying sheesha-ing there now ah without my supervision. Hais. Oh wells. I just hope he's safe. And come back today! I mean it.
Don't leave me alone already la. Haiyaa.
&Bf, happy eighth monthsary. I love you till death. Srsly, i mean it. Even if you left me for five days, i still love you like alot. Haha.
Hugs & Kisses.
xx

Just got off th phone w kimberly ann chander. Haha. She's meeting her fellow friends. Oh wells. Rofl! I'm still having th cramps. Stupid cramps. I hate you!

I'm supposed t be asleep. But i can't sleep. Cause of th cramps. I fickled w my phone light. Then got on t just update. Tskk. School starts tomorrow. Terrific!

• Umi ummairah.
• Riyana.
• Atiqah.
• Sahida.
• Aziza.
• Wani.
• Sakinah.
• Kimberly.
• Durriah.
• Nisa.
• Mirah.
• &Th rest of my classmates.

I'm meeting you guys tomorrow, seven fourty five at MLT. Terrific or what?! Haha. Miss you all terribly. Especially those until mirah's name. Hahahahaha :D
I can't seem t get th pain away! Tskk.
&Oh, i have my junior in my school. Cool or whatttt. Ok done.

Trying t go back t sleep now.

Goodbye/}

ALL I NEED RIGHT NOW IS,
Your sweet touch.

Every blog i went, they will blog about how their 2008 went by. So, i'm gonna do th same thing too. But mine will be abit different. I'll go by month. ROFL.

January.

Th first time i stepped into ite simei. Lol. Actually it was december la. But whatever la. So yeah. Headed t th i forgot whats th name. Sat at my allocated class. Yada-yada.
Luckily i had min yi in my class. So i won't feel so left alone. Haha. I suck at making new friends i tell you. So yeah. As days goes by, i befriend w people like umi, amirah, jocelyn, riyana, daphne, hazmi, alif, ali etc. Soon, th whole class. Haha.
So yeah. It was fun ah. Being around wonderful classmates. And we had th best CA ever, mdm chia. Uh huh. I so love her t death ah. Hais. Anywhats, lessons became more and more interesting and at th same time boring. So yeahhhh.

February.

I met some new friends from different course. Uh huh. Met them through and old friend of mine. Yeah. Got closer w more of my classmates. Yupp. Then this month was th month i started t lepak w th kallang people. Yeah. Go gigs and stuff. Becoming more hardcore then usual. Oh wells. Friends tried t pull me out, but i was already too engrossed. Netball trainings become more intensed w th competition coming up.

March.

This is th month whereby i proudly would like t announce that ite simei netball team are, champs! oh yeah bby. Haha. We were like so proud, thank you. And this month is also th month where i got spotted by coaches from different teams. But i turned them down for studies. Yeah. And also i already made a commitment t one team. Uh huh. And uh, this month is also th month that i think bf got his hair cut in th MLT. Haha. &This month is also th month that i first got t know him.

April.

Exams. Stress. Zits! Haha. Soon after i got t know that i was in SGH team three which was inclusive of nisa, munirah, shakilla, yi xian, yee rou, jaimie, nisha, atikah, mei poh, kavita, banu, ya shi, azmi, jeremy and nabil w our clinical posting teacher miss lim hai sim. Uh huh. Haha. Break term. Got t know more about bf. Met him a couple of times. Cousin's daughter, naima batrisyia, got her hair cukor-ed. Got t know new friends, which i meant by bf's friends. So yeah. Practically just enjoyed break.

May.

Attachment begins. First ward was ward 47. Th bond between our group became v close. Th bond between me and bf also got v close. W help from his friend, we got together on th fourth. Heh.

June.

Second posting was at ward 64. I had a really fun time there. Th staff and patients rock. Haha! Nothing much t say at this month. Cause its more on working. Yeah.

July.

Last week of attachment and it was break for us. I got bonded at this month. Like so cool gitu. Haha. Whatever sia. I made more new friends from other classes and other hospitals. I got t know a few people who were against my relationship w bf. Alot of people bad mouthing and stuff. But why th falalala would i bother right? Haha. So, cheers t you people. And if i remembered correctly, school started in this month too and if i'm not mistaken, we celebrated nurses day too. Which was th most awesomest thing in my life ah. Haha. And oh, this month, i became closer w riyana. Th sudden click was there. And also elly. Rofl. And atiqah and sally, (: And i had a new CA name, Mr John Nah. Heh.

August.

Studies got more stressed. Uh huh. Stuffs happen here and there. Riyana and brothers birthday was at this month. Yupp. I can't remember when was NGT phase test. Either this month or last month. Whatever it is, i passed ah. Who cares. LOL!

September.

September babies turned a year older. Lol. Puasa starts. Exam starts and clinical posting thing came. Same group just that our clinical posting teacher was mr deleon. Cool or what? Everybody was like jumping around ahh. Haha. And uh, this was th only month that i went out w th 8 diamonds. Yeah. New friends are made again. Lol.

October.

Hari raya came. Clinical posting starts. Arghh. More conflicts occur. And end t a close friendship. Sad-sad month for me. Really. Oh, we got posted t ward 57. V relax ward. I like. Really. Oh th one thing that i will never forget is, patient ran home, conflict w daughter, commit suicide at home. Yeah.

November.

Ward 46 was up next. V strict ward. Made some new friends. Met up w ex primary schoolmate sister who's working there. Haha. This month is whereby i got t be close w sakinah, durriah. Yeah. Two awesome babes (:

December.

Th month of kimberly. Haha. I got t know her. Yeah. Then we made a clique together w sakinah called SBY. Interesting thing t do. Lol. End of attachment. Got together w them. Chill. Hang out. Went t bf's clinical posting pit. Chill out w bf and some people at nabil's aunts place. Th first time i spent th night w him. Haha. I got closer w kimberly, sakinah and durriah. Then i met a friend, made friends w that friend, now we're like, no longer friends? I don't know. Whatever la. Like what alot of people say, true friends stay. Lol. So yeah. Thats about it.

____________________________________________________________________

So thats how my year went by. Obviously there were alot of arguements, fights and all la. But i forgot what month and all. Haha. Simply can't be bothered anyways. So yeah. I got closer w alysha also. That one like forever la. Hahaha.

Actually... I don't know what else t say already. LOL.

Goodbye/}

SHE SAID,
Come closer.

HAPPY NEW YEAR T ALL YOU HUMANS, (:
Hope that your 2008 was a interesting year for you.
&More interesting things t come in this brand new year.
Toolahs!

Anywhats, how did i spend my new year? Well, it went like this. Haha.

• Headed off t town t meet my mama.
• Then went t masjid at orchard there t meet my papa.
• Then went t taka macs t eat where i saw shawallah and claudia.
• Went t bugis then where i saw azreen, fatimah & qeelah.
• Then headed t BHG t look for stuffs.
• Then went t macs t wait for brother t arrive.
• Walked around bugis.
• Then headed t suntec.
• Walked around suntec.
• Then headed t esplanade.
• Catch th fireworks.
• Off t arab street t eat.

So yupp, thats how my new years eve went by. Texted w kimberly and alysha. And bf too. But he left me for malaysia. So sad. Haha.
Anywhats, in a short term, goodbye 2008.
Hello 2009. Hello driving lisence :D
Home at about 0145. Watched th pirates of th carribean trilogy.
Slept around 4? 5? 6? 7? HAHA! Can't remember.

Woke up at like 12 plus? Ahaha. Serious shit sia. Ate. Watched tv. Then around four plus, had a call from MALAYSIA. Haha. Bf called. Arghh. I was so happy t hear his voice uh. Hee. Talked for awhile while i got ready t go out. Ended th convo. Went out t sim lim square. Papa wanted t get a new lap. Walked around yadayada. Headed t th kopitiam t have a drink. Then off t mustafa center t get some stuff. Had dinner there. Then we were talking about alot of things. Then off back home. Watched duce bigalow european gigalo. Then read my book. Then here i am now. Haha. Oh, text w my all time moron too.

Thats pretty much it? Haha. So yeah. Anywhats, stomach's haven't been good these days. I don't know whats wrong w it. I must stop eating junk food man. Haha.
Like srsly ah.

Soooo... new years resolutions?
HAHA!

• Take lesser cab rides back home.
• Stop like totally spewing out vulgarities.
• Control my anger.
• Try and i mean try really hard till cannot try already, t stop bullying moron.
• Maintain my current GPA. Well, 0.3 higher won't do me any harm la. So yeah. Haha.
• Graduateeeeeeeeeeeeee, w no bad marks, hopefully :D

So yeah. Haha. Good enough for me i guess. LOL.

Goodbye/}

Ps/. EMMA! Please like have a tagboard at your blog. So can like easily tag gitu. Tskk :D

I MISS YOU,
Sha-la-la-la-la, i miss you.