" Embrace what you have before its all gone. "

Supp homssssss :))) I know its been quite awhile since i've last updated. So what the hell, here it goes.

Thursday & friday.

In my morning shift. Its been quite hectic in the ward nowadays. Yeah. Been many cases of patients unresponding or some sort in that area. Been completing my skills. I have 10 done. 6 more left to get my 75%. Haha. Teacher asking me to slow down cause like almost my skills are already initials. Then when go to the next posting i have no skills to do. Lol. So yeah. Thursday we had debfrief. Miss rahimah told us about IMH. Which ward and which shift are we in and stuff. Yeah. I'm in the same shift as jaime, munirah and jeremy. Ahh. Jeremy again! Haha. We have this thing when we're always in the same team, we'll say " secondary school your face, ite your face, in class your face, in hospital your face, in cubicle your face, everywhere i go your face " that kinda thing. Haha. So yeah. I can't wait to go to IMH. Alot of experience can get from there. Friday, an hour before my shift ends. We had this makan-makan to celebrate sister's elena's departure from the ward. She's going to 64. Ahh. See her again later. Haha. So yeah. We ate. I didn't eat much. Didn't have the appetite. But the food look scrumptiously delicious. Its my lost if i didn't taste it all. Oh wells. In other words, i know, both days i met babylove. Yeah. We always slack at my block. Haha. Normal things are done which on friday, I WAS VERY HAPPY I MANAGED TO DO SOMETHING TO HIM TO MAKE HIM GO WEAK! Haha. I love that day so so so so so much! :DDD

Saturday.

I stayed home. Then around 5 plus i went off to granddaddy's house to celebrate his birthday. Yeah. Alhamdulilah he turns 96 years old. Long aint it? Haha. I wanna be this old too in the mere future. I hope Allah allows me too. I wanna see my great great grandchildren before i leave. Not only stop at great gran but great great gran. Yeah. Haha. So we had a mini doa selamat cum makan-makan. Update each other on our lives and stuff. 10 plus headed off back home. Yupp. Talked to babylove on the phone.

Sunday.

I wasn't well so i took my medications. Then.... family knows & babylove knows. So here i am now updating. Tomorrow will be the start of IMH. I hope its gonna be interesting and i hope nothing happens to me! Geez, enough of this. Seriously. Haha.
More updates tomorrow i guess.

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
Heyy babylove :) I know things have been hard lately on the both of us. But we always make it through. Aint that right baby? Haha. I've always got your back and you've always got mine. Sometimes, we tend to say/do stupid things when we're angry, but deep down inside we know we never meant it. Its gonna be a year soon baby, a year. We never knew we could have made it this far huh? Haha. I love you babylove. I always have and always will.
" I'm gonna be the love thats gonna last.
And be the one that got cha back. "
Tomorrow i start at IMH. After that a week again in 42. Then 64. I'm trying hard baby to change ward. I really am. I don't want in that whole month, i'm gonna argue with you. Both of us are tired.
" I'm so glad i found you.
I love being around you.
You make it easy, as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4.
Theres only 1 thing,
2 do,
3 words,
4 youuuuuu,
I LOVE YOU :) "
If you asked me, will i still love you tomorrow.
I'll reply, forever and ever babe.
We'll make it through. We always do ayebaybay?
Mwahmwah!

Till then.
Goodbye/}

I'LL LOOK AT TH SUN & I'LL LOOK AT TH MIRROR,
I'm on the right track yeah i'm on to a winner.

Supp homs (((((: Gonna make this a quick one so today no photo-photo. Lazy to go and find and upload. Haha. Well, nothing much for last weekend.
Monday, afternoon shift. Met up with babylove at 403. Then we walked to this block near prime. He went to smoke. I just sit and stare at blank space. Haha. Like always gitu. Then proceed to the mrt station. He sent me off. Then blahblahblah. I think god this mad guy keep following me and my friend. So scary. Having a personal stalker all. And he followed us all the way to the ward! Even more scary. Wah piang. Haha. Never before in my life i got personal stalker seh. Haha. So anyways, work was kinda alright. One of my patient BP crashed. Then everyone all kanchiong. Haha. So funny i tell you. I was more to laughing then being serious. Omg. Can give myself one good kick please. Lol. Ok, whatever it is. Ended off at nine. Then i went to meet babylove at hougang. Took bus back to tampines. Chillek for awhile then off back home.

Tuesday. Afternoon shift again. Nothing much also. PERSONAL STALKER WAS THERE AGAIN! Haha. Omg. Its really so frustrating. Anyways, whatever it is, work went fine. Haha. Yeah. Ok. This is what happened at night, an hour before ending my shift.

Me: Kirekan you tak amek i ah nari?
Babylove: Tak tau ah. You agak-agak habis kol brape?
Me: I tak tau. Maybe on time maybe tak. * tried calling him, but he rejected *
Me: Angkat je you.
Babylove: Takle.
Me: Asal?
Babylove: I tengah bobual ngan amijan.
Me: Oh. Ok. Kalau takle takpe. Jumpe pat tamp mrt je la. You amek i dari situ. Nanti amijan marah susah nanti * padehal dalam hati, dah nangis-nangis. HAHA! *
Bablylove: Ok la. Jumpe you kat tamp mrt.
THIS WAS THE MESSAGE CONVERSATION. Then right, haha. I went to sign out happily know. When i reach tea room, took my stuff all. Left the tea room with the group.
Wani: Wahh. Ade orang amek seh.
Me: Huh?
Wani: Matair kau la.
Me: Dier amek aku kat tamp la.
Wani: Dier kat luar!
Me: EH?!
Wani: * Laughs *
TRUE ENOUGH, HE WAS THERE! Haha.
Me: YOU! KATE JUMPE PAT TAMP! * in a kind off loud tone *
Babylove: * Laughed *
Haha. He said he wanted to surprise me. Awwwwwwwwwwwwww ((((((:

But really, i was damn shocked to see him. Haha. My baby who is very MAL, can come and pick me up at SGH. Awww. My heart melt macam tak pernah melt gitu. Heh heh heh. I was really damn bloody touched. Trained down to tampines. Bought macs. Ate under 408. Talked. Then went home. Heh heh heh. I'll always remember this day.

Today. Morning shift. Haha. I watched the last 10 minutes of the liverpool and arsenal game. Thank god He created benayoum. Haha. His last minute goal was a saviour. * Halo pops out on top of his head. LOL * So yeah. Its a 4-4 DRAW. Yes, beely, a draw. Trained down to work. STALKER BROUGHT A FRIEND. STALKER BROUGHT A FRIEND! Haha! Whatever lah. So yeah. Nothing much. Did most of my skills. Met babylove after work. Then bus-ed down to tampines. Bought food from LJS cause i was hungry. Eat at 408. Talked. Slacked. Home. Bathed. Prayed. American idol. Slept for half and hour -____-" Msn-ed with babylove using his account. Haha. And here i am now. Ok. Gonna watch house. I missed one episod on monday. Grrr.

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
Thank you so much for the surprise on tuesday. Haha. You really melted my heart. Ahjey! Heheheh :D I really didn't expect that surprise. Thou you planned it for a long time already and just very MAL to carry the plan out. You did it perfectly well yesterday. All it was missing was a slice of cake/one rose/my macaroni and cheese that you promised! Haha. But anyways, it was really sweet of you. I LOVE YOU BABYLOVE! Haha. Despite everything that we've been through, i still love you like before and forever it shall stay that way. Hee. Hoping that more of this will come in the later-later future ((:
Your turn will come soon! BE PREPARED OR BE SCARED * Chey. Cam paham * Haha.
See you tomorrow sayang! Mwahmwah!

Till then.
Goodbye/}

CAUSE WE BELONG TOGETHER,
My life would suck without you.

Supppp homies :) Well, a week of work has passed by and its been going pretty well. Thou there are some internal conflicts between some mates, i hope we can resume things as per normal quickly. Wheres the team work mann? Tskk.
Things have been going well for us both too. Thou there were moments, but i'm glad we managed to pull through. We always do, right baby? Haha.
Alrightt, so heres a brief story on each day.
(Just to make my post look long -____-")

1. Tuesday

Morning shift. Worked went pretty much well as usual. But we never manage to do most of the stuffs as there were new staffs in the ward so theres alot of helping hand and we're left there to do nothing. My god. I was practically waiting for some miracle to happen. Haha. But soon, it got pretty busy and most of us were on our feets. So yeah. Ended at three plus. Home-d with munirah. Had a nice nap. Woke up and bathed. Fetched babylove from work. While waiting, i bumped into daphne. Haha. She was going to the lobby to meet her bf. So yeah. I waited at the playground. Did stargazing. So cool. So niceeee :))) Babylove came then we took the bus to point. Wanted to eat there but then babylove changed his mind. So we boarded the bus back home to tampines went to small mac to get some food. Then ate at my block. Talked-talked. Home. Yupp.
Managed to talk on the phone for alwhile thou. Good enough for me.

2. Wednesday

Afternoon shift. Met babylove at 403. Then he sent me to the mrt station. Took the train down to work. Then blahblahblah. Work in the afternoon was abit slacked. Nothing much to do. Just waiting for callbells to come and stuff. JCI on that day. So we had a nice long break. Haha. Ended at nine. Home-d with yi xian. Sat at small macs to wait for babylove to come. Blahblahblah. Had some thing going on. It wasn't a pleasant one. Its better only the both of us knew and no one else. Yeah. But i was glad, things got resolved. Syukur alhamdulilah. Homed. Talked to him for awhile. Yeap.

3. Thursday & friday

Afternoon shift again & again. Err, nothing much really. Haha. Me and munirah had a great time laughing at the year one's. So semangat balik rumah pakai name tag. Pegi keje pun pakai name tag. Haha. So cute yet so funny lah ok. Lol. Bumped into shiirah and her team mates. Then blahblahblah. Two days straight i never get to meet babylove. Its ok. It builds up the kerinduan. Haha. Homed. Then yeahhh. -___-" Lamemofo.

4. Saturday

Stay home! Haha. I'M SO GOOD KAN! I stay home during my saturday. Ape lagi. Bangun da pukul berape. Then i was having segugut. Perut sakit like anything. Babylove texted me now and then. Haha. His text and calls is all i need to make my day a happy one :)
Anyways, watched tv. Prayed. Makan appetite aint that good but i forced myself to eat to make babylove not worried more. Haha. I asked him to ask his mum some questions and i didn't know cold water can make your darah beku. So from now on i cannot drink cold water. How like that? Ahyeerr. Haha. So anyways, yupp. Texted with babylove in the night. Watched arsenal against chelsea. FA cup semi finals. WHICH BTW BEEL, THEY LOST! Haha. Waited for babylove to miss call me but he did at 4plus. I already zzzzz. Took painkiller and all. See la this boy. Play psp until 4plus then only want to miss call me. Haiyaa. Haha.

5. Today

Most probably i'll be going out with family. The usual la. Makan-makan then jalan-jalan all. Yeah. Sunday kan family day :)
Tomorrow i'm in afternoon shift. Meeting babylove first then he'll send me to the mrt station. *Screams of joy* Haha. Finally meeting him! Yay! I'm so estatic. Ok diam. Haha. So yeah. I don't know what to type already. I'll see if this post needs to be edited later on aite?

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.

" Like the stars in the sky,
I am calling to you.
From the heavens above,
I am looking for you.
In the depths of my soul,
I will live and breathe for you.
Sadness dwells inside you;
You have nothing to fear,
for I am next to you.
I can feel your sadness;
Let me be sad for you,
so you will feel love once again.
Worry not about life,
let me worry for you.
You should always love life,
for it is a part of you.
I'll be there when you fall,
to catch you and say I Love You. "
After all that we've been through, after all this time, i'm still coming back home to you. I'm deeply grateful to allah for still keeping us strong. For still making us be together. For still making us love each other like we did before. Looks like all our hopes and our dreams will come true ayebaybay? Haha.
I'm sorry if for the past few days i've dissapointed you and stuff. You know i never meant to. You know i've always loved you. You know by now how much you mean to me. And how much i had to do to prove it to you.
I'll always want to be there for you. Through your darkest nights and your brightest days.
I just hope, you'll be there for me too :)
I love you babylove! More than ever now.
I hope we'll make it to forever. Lets hope and pray ok. You know, i know, we want this to last.
Mwahmwah!

Till then.
Goodbye/}

BABY I CAN SEE YOUR HALO,
You know you're my saving grace.

Suppppp homs :)) Today i woke up late. Wah sottt. Haha. I woke up at 0545. Can you imagine that? I had to take a cab from tampines. Luckily i reached the ward at 0635. Yeah. My eyes were swollen. Sheesh. So, ward was pretty busy in the morning. The usuals. Break time, i wanted to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep! But i can't. Sott wahhhh. Haha. After 1, its relax time. Haha. I kena " lecture " by miss rahimah. Heh heh heh. My best friend :)))))))))))))

Nothing much. After work. Headed home to collect stuffs. Then off to IMH to meet babylove. Took bus down to point. Bought me some fooooooooood. Haha. I was damn hungry, i didn't eat during my shift. Chill at this block. Talked about some stuff. Then headed home.
Slept in the bus. Haha. Yessssss. But it wasn't a fulfilling one. My neck was aching damn bad. Tskk. So anyways, reached tampines interchange. Felt giddy. Tskk. And i felt weakkk. Haiyaa. Haha. Reached my block, talked about some more things. Then home. Wanted to take off my shoes mother ask me to go bedok with her. So go la. With my nursing uniform still on. Tskk.
So glamour -___-"

Talked with babylove on the phone. We had some issues to settle . Glad we did. Headed home and bathed. Ate. Talked with babylove again and here i am now. Waiting for his call. Yupp.
I despise liars. May you burn and rot in hell.
With the demons and other satans.
Asshole. No life.
Do you know if you lie alot, your breath will stink? Hahaha.
Tskk. Motherballs. Go die lah!
Stupid people nothing to do. Threaten people here and there with stupid messages and stupid calls. Fyou, balls!

Later on, morning shift againnnnnn.
Till then.

Goodbye/}

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
You know i will never lie to you. You know i will never repeat the same mistake twice. And i hope you do too babylove. You know, i know, we both hate seeing each other like this. We must be strong. Prove to all the hatebreeds out there that we're still loving and still standing tall. You know i need you. You know i want you. They are jealous cause they aint got you :D
I LOVE YOU BABYLOVE!
Sape nak curik dier dari aku, MEH SINI ONE ON ONE NGAN AKU.
Kau tak akan dapat dier selagi kau tak langkah mayat aku. No way in hell, balls!
Fierce kan? Heh heh heh. MESTILAH ABEH!
Ok da. Besok you petang. Grrr. Baik-baik eh nanti malam-malam.
Heh heh heh. See you tomorrow night. Mwahmwah!

KU AKUI KU SANGAT-SANGAT,
Menginginkanmu.

Since you guys can't stop my music, click here.
My repeating song on the ipod and everywhere. Kinda addicted to it.
Give it a listen.
Current mood: depressed and tired.
Working in 5 hours ++. Pffft!
Laterrrrrr homs.

" Live like theres no tomorrow.
Laugh like you've never laughed before.
Love like its your last day on earth. "


Supppp homies :)) Haha. Well, today is sunday. Tomorrow is monday. And you know what that means? Its working day for me! Attachment begins. ARGHHERGHHURGHH! Haha. So anyways, yesterday, i just stayed home the whole day. Yes. Watched tv and eateateat! Omg. I think i gained 3kg. Hahahaha. Now i can even pass by 55 for sit ups! Shit! I must stop eating. Seriously. And also, for the past week. I've been having diarrhoea everytime after i eat something. Yet i'm gaining that extra pound(i have to anyway) hahaha. But still! I don't know whats wrong with me. Haiyaa.

Watched liverpool against i-swear-i-forgot-the-team. But i know they won 4-0 *insert many-many smiles* Haha. But! My happiness got down the drain when manchester united beat sunderland 2-1. That stupid Mac-something guy. Always the " bahan " for man u. Come in only score one goal. Shit you. Cut your legs off. Haha. If not, liverpool will be top by now. Grrr. Side from that, chelsea won 4-3. Arsenal won 4-1. So everybody win-win today. Haha. The 4 titans lah i mean :)

See how boring my life is? Haha. I need to do something. Already am doing something from monday onwards. Haiyaaa. I NEED TO ENJOY MYSELF TODAY! MY LAST DAY OF FREEDOM! Haha. I've yet to find my appointment card for the next chicken pox jab. Shit la. Haha. Die die die die die! AND I'VE YET TO KNOW MY SHIFT! WHAT IS THIS MAN! I HATE LAST MINUTE TO KNOW SHIFT! ARGHHH! Kalau tomorrow i morning, siap ah satu-satu. Kepala aku chop off. HAHAHAHA.

Texting with babylove now while watching stoke against newcastle. BORING! Haha. Thats all.
Till then.

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
Tomorrow will be the start of hell for both of us. Haha. I just hope, we won't argue so much now that work is starting. I promise to you, Muhammad Taslim Ali Khan that i will take care of myself even more properly. I'll make sure, nothing happens. With god as my protector. Ok babylove? Heh heh. And you too ok. Make sure those patients at IMH treat you well. Haha. Make friends with them, not be one of them. Ok-ok-ok? :)
I Love You Babyloveeeeeee!
" Nothing in this world can stop us tonight. "
Take care of yourself. See you tomorrow after work or something-something. I need to pass to you something from durriah also. Hahaha. Ok. Mwahmwah!

Goodbye/}

I'LL GET HIM HOT,
Show him what i've got.
(Poker face - Lady gaga)

" Cause its nice to be different. "

Yo! Sup homies? Haha. Merepeknye :)

OKKKKKKKKKK! Today, i went out with mama. To east point to collect my baby phone. Yes, my phone is also my baby. Haha. Not only babylove. You geddit right? So anyhows, IT WAS SO RAINING HEAVILY! MAK OIII! Haha. When we took the train down, we wanted to crossover, FLOODED OIII. Haha. And it was so cold, so cold. Tskk. I was shivering like crazyyy. So anyways, went to sony to get back my baby phone. Then mama wanted to jalan-jalan for awhile. Then we went to tampines by train.

Headed to tampines mall for awhile. To eat at macdonalds cause i was hungry :))) Then went to isetan to get some stuff and i saw this necklace that i likeeeeeee. Haha. I hinted to babylove already. Heh heh heh. Then headed to tampines 1. The everybody-say-shopping-center-besar-cam-nak-mampos. Haha. Which is true uh. But vivo is still the biggest. Heh. So walked here walked there. Theres alot of stores i fancy. Especially that japanese brand store. So cool the clothes there. I must get at least one soon! Haha.
So after that bought cheesecake from saycheeeezeee! I'm so loving the durrian cheescake. And also the raspberry cheesecake :)) *thumbs up!*

Back home nearly around 8. Texted with babylove :))))))))))))))))
Watched monsters inc. Haha. &Now, i'm watching harry potter and the order of the phoenix. Yeahh. I'm so boring. BORING! Haha. Oh! And mama bought this mee thing from somewhere and its real niceeeeee! *double thumbs up!* Haha. Ok done.

I think thats about it. Haha.
Tomorrow is saturday. &I don't have plans. YAY! Haha.

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
"The Smell of your hair
The taste of your kiss
These are the things
That I will always miss

The sound of your voice
The feel of your hand
They affect me in ways
You could never understand"
Remember this, i've always loved you and you alone ok dear. No one else. You know that don't you? I Love You Babylove(:
Always have and always will be. Till death do us part ayebaybay?
Mwahmwah!

Alright. Shall end here now. Currently texting with babylove and still watching harry potter. Haha.
Till then readers.

Goodbye/}

I LOVE THIS RECORD BABY,
But i can't see straight anymore.

YO! Haha. Today's post no photo-photo uh. Haha. Sorry ehhh :)
So anyways, wednesday and thursday i met babylove. Haha.

1.Wednesday

We went on trial for how long it takes to go to IMH from tampines. Haha. So, we met at 0335, then took 72 from tampines interchange to hougang point. Then walked to IMH. Altogether it took us about 35 mins? Haha. Then after that headed back to serangoon place to give him the pen torchlight then headed off to hougang mall to eat. Since i kepingin to eat at LJS, we ate at LJS. Haha. Then talk-talk. Basically, had fun :) Took 27 back home. Then slacked for awhile. Talked-talked till we didn't realise the time! Haha. We quickly rushed to econ to buy beras for his mum. Then he went to minimart near his block to get stuff for his brother then we went back to slacking and talking and having fun. Yeahh. Haha. Back home around 10 plus.

2.Thursday

Met him around school area around 4 plus. Didn't know what to do. So we headed back to serangoon home. Slacked. Ate. Then around 7 plus headed back to tampines. Then home :) Talked to durriah for awhile. Its nice to catch up with her, :) My elder sister. Haha. Ok wait, scrap that, my COOL YOUNG elder sister. Don't feel old kan kan kan?

3.Today

I don't know what to do! Ok. Done. Heh heh heh.
Update more soon.

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
Thanks for the past two days. I've always enjoyed spending time with you. Seeing you smile, laugh, cry(ok not), merajok, angry, haha. ALL SO CUTE :D &Please, don't join beel's evil force of reciting poems. You know what poems. Lol. So anyways, i love you babylove! Later on if you going pencak, take care of yourself ok. Don't kena hit lebam bruise all. Haha. Take care of yourself. Stomach still pain kan? Go eat! Don't forget to eat! MUST ALWAYS REMEMBER TO EAT! Haha. I have spies ok. If you never eat i know. Cause you'll be the one telling me. I don't like to hear from people. I don't like surprises :) I know you know people bodoh ok? Haha. I'll see you real sooooooooooooooooooon! And i hope, by the time i see you, argues will be lesser. Cause work starting and all. And.. Yeah. Haha. Ok. Mwahmwah!

Till then.
Goodbye/}

1 THING 2 DO 3 WORDS 4 YOUUUU,
I love you.

" Ya. I know. Drawing macam budak kecik "

Haha. So anyways, today, didn't do much today. Went to aunts place and thats it. Big chance of meeting bf tomorrow. Hehe. Macam finally gitu. Da berape tahun kan tak jumpa. Hahaha. Then meeting fool on thursday for awhile :)

Yupp. This fool. Haha. The one who spelled moron as morning. Haha. Blame it on nightime all you want. You still suck :D
IKR=I kecewa ready. HAHAHAHA!
*Inside joke* So whatever it is, better get your brain working fine on thursday ok?

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
Imysm. I really need you now. More than ever.
And i'm sorry about yesterday ok. Its a mistake i'll never repeat.
I love you sugaaaaa :)
I know you know that. Hehe.
Mwahmwah!

Thats about it.

Goodbye/}

DAN AKU TAK BISA HIDUP,
Tanpamu.

Well people, nothing much has been happening for the past few days thats why i don't blog. Haha. If there's something i will sure blog one but then there's nothing. Nyahaha. Ok Lamemofo. Oh, i saw them award night photos. I think mariam shazana's outfit look super cute :D I really like the way she dresses. Chey! Heh heh. But seriously, damn nice.

Yesterday, i didn't go for the wedding. Haha. Tak nak pergi pun. So i was left with them two's. Went out to eat but it wasn't a happy one. Talked to bf otf. He was supposed to call me back but he took one hour plus to do so, i bet he has fallen asleep at first. Then ter-woke up and miss call me. Haha. So cute. So anyways, i was already fast asleep then. Couldn't stand my back pain. Arghh.

So today, i didn't go out. I wanted to meet bf but then never. Cannot meet. Tskk. SO, hoping tomorrow can. I miss him. Arghhh. Lol. Currently, watching house and then chatting with this moron. Haha.


Ok. I don't know what to talk about. See this woman, thinks my voice cute and all. Padehal she's lying. Haha. Stop lying ally! Ok done.

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
Take care of yourself ok.
And i hope i can meet you tomorrow. Arghhh!
Dying to meet you please and thank you. Dah lamer gitu kan tak jumpa. Haiyaaa.
Now you're out at tmart. Tskk. Make sure don't come back so late ah.
Scream at you then you know. Lol.
I LOVE YOU BABYLOVE! Forever and ever babe.
Today, tomorrow, the next day and the next day till the day we don't love each other anymore.
Heh heh heh. INGAT! Kalau boleh jumpa besok, jumpa tau.
Mwahmwah!

Goodbye/}

LOST AND INSECURE,
You found me, you found me.

Hello. Well, here are the updates. Haha. Ok. Lamemofo.

First and foremost, i'll like to say thanks to nubella, ry, sakinah & bf for the tags. Thanks for cheering me up. ♥
So anyways, i didn't get to meet bf today. But its ok. There's always next week. Right babylove? Haha. Everyday kan anniversary kita. Lol. I ♥ you lahh. Heh heh.
Headed to my kakak sedare's place cause i didn't want to stay home. I dread staying home. Sigh. Tomorrow, i will be going to a wedding ceremony at eunos. Yeah. I don't want to go but i have to go. I don't know why la. But must go -.-" Had a short chat with bf otf just now. While i was making my way back home. He was really worried for me. I was really touched. Thou he showed it in a cara kasar way, i know he cares. I know he loves me. Heh heh.

Like the book, why mars and venus collide says, i should not take things personally when it comes to relationship cause man and woman's brain are not created the same. Man tends to rush straight to the point cause he will rather solve the problem asap while woman tends to talk more on the problem but doesn't need a solution cause all woman wants is man to listen. And if man has little things to say, doesn't mean his not interested. He's just breaking down the important stuff and stuff that is not important to him to help solve a problem or situation faster. So yeah. Woman, don't get all up in your man. They do care and love you. Doesn't mean they have little things to say means they don't care for you or doesn't want to listen to you. Their brain works in a way that they just want to listen to the important things and get the problem done faster.

Aside from that, i'm currently watching arsenal vs manchester city. I really have nothing to do. I'm stuck in my room. I'm so hungry. I don't want to go out to find food or anything. I'll rather starve till everyone sleeps then go out rather then get beatings and stuff. My back aint getting any better. Shitheads. Tskk. If i ever were to get paralyzed, i swear, i'll never forgive anyone of you.

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
Happy 335 days-sary :) You're the best i ever had. Remember that ok.
" I've loved you from the minute I heard your voice,
it's just like breathing, I don't have a choice,
and I will love you, now and forever,
and this precious day, I will always remember. "
Thank you babylove for everything. You're my heart, my soul, my everything.
I'm quite sad that i can't meet you today. But hey, like you said, everyday is a anniversary day for us. Heh heh. I still remember you called me up in the afternoon today and tried to get me pissed off cause you think its cute. Grr. Lol.
I ♥ you babyy. 30 more days. Lets make it 365 days :)
Mwahmwah!

Till then.
Goodbye/}

BECAUSE I CAN'T SLEEP,
Till you're next to me.

" Let me go home. "

I'm letting out how i feel here. Its gonna be a sad post. So yeah. I'm sorry to babylove. Its gonna be full of vulgarities. I'm sorry ok.

Short summary on what is going on. EDITED THIS POST.

This past few days, weeks, months, i've been perservering. I've been trying really hard to not get into any trouble. I've been trying really hard to make you guys proud. But what do i get in return? Vulgarities? Spitting? Hitting? What did i ever do to the three of you to receive this kind of treatment? I mean like, if you have a problem with me, you could have just told me. Not by doing this. Where's your basic respect for - i won't say daughter/sister la ok, a HUMAN BEING? Cmon la. I have feelings too ok. Not only you guys. Like what the fuck? You guys are stressed and you're venting out the stress on me? Fuck you. Hitting me like i've done something wrong. Like i'm some kind of animal that just pee-ed anyhow around the household surrounding. Spitting on me like i'm some kind of person who is what, lower ranking then all of you? Like i'm some disabled kid? Fuck you man. So what if i'm in ite? So what if my brother does better then me? Its his problem and its his hardwork that he made it to poly. What, i'm in ite and you guys look down on me? Like we're some kind of hopeless bunch of kids? Fuck you. Wake up your idea man! I had the chance to do my O's. I don't want. So whats the problem now? Its my education or your education? Its my life or your life? Fuck it. Whats your problem against how i run my life? I chose to be in ite. I chose to be how i am now. I'm not running against the law. I'm not going against anything, so what the fuck?!

" A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.
SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.
SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'That's none of your business . Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.
SON: 'I just want to know... Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'
SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.
SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'The father was furious,
'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.
'The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down ,
and started to think:Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often .
The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.
Are you asleep, son?' He asked.No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man.
'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills...The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.
The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.'
Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.' The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.
It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love. If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. "

I really wish. I can have my F back. The way it used to be. The way it was before all this shit happens. Seriously. I miss calling this place my home. It never was. It never will be. It has always been hell. I don't like where i am now. I don't like how this is. I'm sick and tired. I'm still gonna control my anger. I'm still gonna control my patience. I'm not gonna blow. But if i really cannot take it, i'm sorry. I don't want to be known as your daughter. I've really had it. Please god, all i ask is for us to be back as normal again.

I'm done.

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
I need you more then ever now.

Goodbye/}

ANOTHER SUMMER DAY,
Has come and gone away.

" Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you. "

Hello there. Here are the updates. Haha.

1. Yesterday

I didn't get fooled! Yay! For the first time in my entire life gitu aku tak di-fooled oleh anyone. Haha. So cool. So nice. Stayed at home all day. Ended up bf went out to meet them. Then, so sad, so sad, its a sad-sad situation. Haha. Balik pukul 3 lebih. Dah naik lemak eh! Tskk. But he apologised, aww, terus hati melt. Da tak rase marah. Heh heh :D

2. Today

When he reached home which was apporoximately 0315 like that? He straight away called me. Haha. Aku da nangis. Ade la fikir ape entah jadi ngan dier kan. Tapi tak, nasib he was home safe and sound. Heh heh heh. So anyways, talked to him till about 0430am then went to sleep. Woke up at 6 plus to do prayers. Slept back again then woke up at 0800. Got ready to go to RH to collect my results. Then, had a little misunderstaing with babylove. Met him under my block at 0945 after episods of vomiting. Things never got better, but it was soon after. Dropped off at bugis and walked to RH. I asked him to wait at the lobby. WAIT aje tau in the end he made " friends " with this pakcik. Haha. So, i went up. Hear about my results and left. Sat down with babylove to listen to that pakcik's story on how he lost his bag. Haha. So cute. After that, we went to BK to eat. Oh-oh! FIRST TIME I DRAGGED HIM ALL THE WAY TO BUGIS! I'm so proud of myself. &Him too of course. Haha. Mwahmwah!

After that, he followed me to topshop cause i wanted to check out something. But it wasn't there. So disheartened(sp?) :(
Anyways, after that we slacked outside BHG. I TRIED TO GULUNG AGAIN. But another failed attempt to do so. I suck at it. Seriously. Haha. Without tobacco i can. With tobacco i cannot. It'll either be too fat or look like kacang putih cone. Haha. So, i think. Not my thing. Too bad ah those who want me to gulung for them. I cannot. Unless you want a big fat gulung or one that looks like kacang putih, i will do it for you with sincere :) Hahahaha! So anyways, after that we planned to hit mat's place. He asked us to buy for him food. Which we did. We dropped down at bedok. Went to the food court, bought for him food then after that took 28 to his place. We had a pit stop. Hahaha. So anyways, that bugger. Haven't bathe and all greeted us at the door. Haha. So we went in, babylove went to read on the motor thing. I endulge myself with okto. Then nobody layan me. What am i supposed to do?! Haha.

Around 2 plus nearly 3 we left cause mat has to go for bike lessons or prac or whichever. Babylove and myself walked back home. Lepak for awhile. Then around 3plus we headed off back home. Yupp. So, thats about it. Haha. Tomorrow, i may be going out with them boys. Got to know from beel that nury is going. So i might be going. At least ade kawan. Harap-harap maziana is going too. So yeah. Thats about it. Till then.

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
MY BACK IS ACHING! Haha. But i had a fun time with you today. Yes, i dragged you out from your lazy-ness to bugis with me today. Ohh, i'm so proud of you and myself. Haha. I think its part of making up for coming back home late yesterday too huh? Haha. But what i'm really touched about is that you sacrifised your sleep to accompany me just now. Aww. I love you babylove :) Next stop, boon lay ehhhh? Hehehehe. Mwahmwah! Ps; 2 more days babyyy!

Goodbye/}

YANG KU TAHU KAU SELALU SEJUKKAN HATIKU,
Yang ku tahu kau selalu ada di saatku.

I'm the red one. Haha. Tskk.

Hello :) Here are the updates for yesterday and today.

1. Yesterday

In the morning, bf called me up. Talk-talk for awhile. Then seven plus going to be eight, we put down the phone. I went to get ready and all. Eight thirty plus mum and me left for RH. I checked in and waited. Nine fourty five, i was called up. Then yeah. Everything all started. Mum said i went out around ten thirty five. Then was put to rest. When i woke up, i was feeling better. Not like bf, so steam. Hehe. I got to go home early so mum brought me back to serangoon place and i rest there. It still hurts. It hurts even worst. But i perservere. Then bf called me up again and we talked and planned to meet up that night. So yeah.
I rested till about five thirty. Then got ready to bathe and all. Bf called me up again. Yada-yada. Put down the phone and head off to tampines. I reached there on time! Haha. Surprisingly :D Met him at the stadium then we left for KFC. Bought food then headed to four zero eight to eat. Yupp. Eat. Laugh here laugh there. He bully me like nobodys business. Haha. Gerek tau dapat matair cam dier :) Nine thirty we went home. Yeah.

Then bathed, prayed, watched tv all. Waited for him to call tapi tak call-call -___-" I don't know who paitao who la now. Haha. Serious. Cause after one when i called him, he never answer. He called me back at two plus, i rejected, called him back, he never call me back. Then four plus, he called me, i rejected, called him back, he never call me back. -.-" Haha. Eight plus i called him, he never call me back. So, who paitao who, i don't know :D

2. Today

I'll be staying home today cause i have been going out on monday and yesterday. So today be good girl stay at home aje la. Haha. Oh, early morning eight plus i got message from jesslyn saying that exam results are out. I just checked and KENTAL OR WHAT MY GPA! Haha. Bf beat me by a few points, congratulations. See, i know you can do it :)
I die-die must get A for my cp to bring up my GPA. Kalau tak kene lecture lagi seh. Arghh. Sakit telinga. Nanti dapat cancer of the ear baru tau. Main cause, too much lecture. Hahaha. Ok merepek. So, diyy, buck up for CP. You really need it to boost up your GPA. I need to maintain my overall GPA please. Nak masok poly lahhh.

So anyways, thats about it. Yeah. Till then.

On a brighter note.
To wonderful bf.
Do well for CP ok? Then can get good GPA then can beat me then can go poly :) I know you can do it. The teachers also say you can do it. So yeah. Don't be so pemalas! Haha.
I love you sugaaa :)
Do well, you'll feel very proud of yourself cause of the hardwork that paid off. Hee. I'll see you soon. Tomorrow or tomorrow or something something. Haha. 3 more days! Mwahmwah!

On a brighter note.
To moronic bestf.
Nahh! Amek kau. Haha. Jealous kan tak dapat ni. Nak, amek! Haha. You ah. Better study hard ahh. Don't slackslack all. Suhlap your face then you know. Haha. And don't think about what boy nonsense all. Studies more important then boys. *Chey! Cam paham je aku.* Haha. Ok da.
Luff you fool.

Goodbye/}

THE DJ IS PLAYING THAT SONG,
Now whatchu gonna do?