I'm drifting apart,
Where were you when i needed you?

Hello. Haha. Yes, its so rare of me to blog earlier in the morning. But i felt like i kinda have to. So yeah. I have something to say;
" I miss you "
People say they miss me, but... Oh wells.
Haha. I don't want to start. I'm tired of all these. Its better if we're left drifting apart. So yeah. Enough about that.
I finally caught up with alysha insyirah. Haha. Its been donkey months since i had a proper chat with her. " You and your damn schedule " Haha. Yes, my damn schedule. Sorry la.
Today is her last day of school and then its her one week break. But come back to school only is her CA's right? Haha. So poor thing. Biology and chemistry some more. Ahh, so much for holidays. Haha. As for me, i can't wait to start work. Get it over and done with for that one week and have a proper break. I really need it. To catch up on my sleep and to catch up on my inner self.

"Sometimes, i really wish i could tell you how i feel. But i've told too much. Too much for you to handle. Too much for you to not know what to do or actually know how i feel. I want to let you go, but there's this thing in me that is forcing myself to not do so. Cause why? I'm scared. Scared of all the possiblities that might happen. Scared that of all things, you'll make the same mistake again. I trust you. Its not that i don't. For once, actually feel what i feel. I can't let you feel how i feel cause i'm blowing them away for my own class chalet. I'm giving you the benefit that i'm gonna be safe at home and nobody's gonna disturb me or what so ever. But, can you just for once feel how i feel. Like i said, its not that i don't trust you. Opportunities are out there. Possibilities is everywhere. You just might not know it. And what have i got to loose if i don't go? Everything that i build up for. I'm not gonna sacrifise all that. So please, just help me this once. Just feel what i feel."

Glad thats off my chest. Haha. So now, i think i'm gonna go do something. Whatever that something is, to keep me of thinking. I'll edit this post later if i have to or want to.

*Edited.
I'll be off to the fcukers pit later with bf and saiful. So i won't be blogging till tomorrow i think. Yeah. I just hope, the decision made will not make things turn out ugly. Updates soon. Take care lovelies.

Goodbye/}

IT DOESN'T MATTER ANYWAY,
Words can never make me stay.