This heart of stone will sink till it dies, if you leave me tonight.

Hello there. Haha. Yes, i'm back again. This time, its gonna be a long/short post? I don't know. We'll just see aite. Haha. &Oh, before that,
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SITI NURDURRIAH BTE MOHD SIDEK!
We don't have a picture together. WHAT IS THIS?!
Haha. All th best in life babe.
May allah give you th happiness and strength you need in this world.
Study hard for tomorrow and exams.
I have faith in you that you can do well.
I love you siti nurdurriah bte mohd sidek!
:))

• School.

School has been cool. Haha. Quite alright. Studies are ok. I got back my geron paper. Didn't do exceptionally well. But i passed. Thats what matters. Hoping that th project marks will pull my grades up. If not i die. Haha. Other then that, waiting t get my PCA marks. Can't wait t know how much i get. Seriously. Its getting on my nerves. Practical lessons has been fun. Cleaning wounds and all. Haha. Then uh, PE has never been boring. Yeah. Other then that, ermm, AH! Bio. Haha. Having another class test tomorrow. Damn. Eye, ear, nervous system and microbiology. Arghh! Haha. Ok, done w school :)

• Friends.

Well, nothing much t say about friends. They can be good. They can be bad. Haha.
Thursdays are SBY + Durriah and Nisha day :)
Haha. This is th only time we can get together and talk about a whole lot of things. Uh huh.
Other then that, friends are ok.
Gyeah.

• Relationship.

I've been helping out bf w his bio recently. Haha. He just need someone t push him t strive for th best. I know he can do it. I know he's clever. Yeah. Thou th past few days, there has been ups and downs, we'll always make it through. Right bi? :)
And i'm sorry about yesterday. It was a rough night for th both of us. But yeah, we'll manage things together. Cause we know we both love each other.
Thank you for being my pillar of strength.
♥ you v much.

• Family.

I've dissapointed them. They have dissapointed me. It has been an ongoing cycle since six years ago. I've been immune t almost anything and everything. But sometimes i wish, i could just have my family back th way it was before all this things started.
I've dreamt about my arwah atok on my dad's side a couple of times, i really miss him so much. And i really hope he's in a safe place. Things are just so different without him. Although i can talk t him when i'm doing my prayers, sometimes i wish, he'll just reappear back in our lives and things will never go th way it is now.
I miss you arwah atok salleh bin abdul rahman, :(

• Others.

Well, nothing much t say i guess. Uh huh. Gonna do my bio again now.
All th best t JR0801A/B/C/D/E/F/G/H for tomorrows bio test.
All th best t S&B.
All th best t D&N.
All th best t Q&S.
All th best t T; my bbyboy :)

Goodbye/}

AND I NEVER PLAN,
Growing old without you.

I'm lucky i'm in ♥ w this guy, (:

Hee. Alright. My week went totally fine. Totally great. Totally wonderful. Yes, thou there were ups and downs between him, friends and studies, th week went totally as i wanted it t be (:
YAY! If only my life could be like this, so heavenly. Anyways, i got back my bio results.
*Drum rolls* Hahahaha. Alhamdulilah. I did well. I didn't expect at first. Haha. Cause i thought like diana or lokman or wafir t do way more better then me. Seriously. I didn't know i'll top in class. My god. I thank allah. For giving me this blessing.
&I'll continue t strive harder for bioscience two. Thank you allah. Amin.

Friday, i received gifts from beloveds (: Ahh, thank you all.
Thank you ry for th flower.
Thank you iqah for th brownie & note.
Thank you jocelyn for th note & hersheys.
Thank you tiq for th note & chocolates.
Thank you za for th rose & card.
Thank you zizi for th rose & pictures.
Thank you all for th wishes.
Love you all v much.

Yesterday, i went out w boyf, saki, durriah, nisha, suhana and hakim. Haha. Helped them out w their PM project. See them get all so stressed on th project like so cute like that. Haha. I v good know. Help them all :D Then headed off home after finishing what they have t do. Yeah. Spend th rest of valentines day moments w boyf at home. We had fun. Haha (:
Sent him off and yeah. Thats it.
I shan't say what happens on th rest of th time at home. Only god and boyf knows.
It pains t say it again. And knowing who's th one who is causing th pain.

Today, i just finished revising PCA notes. Gonna do it again shortly. Oh wells. Btw,
KIMBERLY ANN CHANDER & NUR SAKINAH BTE JAFFAR, I LOVE TH BOTH OF YOU :D
( Happy lovelies? )
Going now. Heh!
Goodbye/}

Dear you,
" I swear, by th moon and th stars in th sky.
I'll be there.
I swear, like th shadow thats by your side,
I'll be there.
For better or worse,
Till death do us part,
I'll love you w every beat of my hear.
And i swear "
I ♥ you muhammad taslim ali khan.
We'll make it through.
Cause we bend but we don't break (:
Lovelove.

OH! Before i forget,
HAPPY 18th AZIZA!
I love you like nobody's business. Mwah!
Hope you had a fun day on your birthday.
Loves!

AND THOUGH I MAKE MISTAKES,
I'll never break your heart.

HELLO EVERYONE!
Haha. Yes, i'm finally back t update. Yeahyeah. Lets get it started shall we? (We shall. KEH MEPEK!)
Before that, i would like t say:
KIMBERLY ANN CHANDER, I LOVE YOU! :D(Yes, this is th girl. Haha)

• Monday.

Well, school started off fine. Everyone was like saying there's alot of failure for bio. Haha. Hoping t get at least an A. Omg. B pun boleh. Lol. I know i have a few careless mistakes here and there. But please. B at least! Tak nak balek on saturday! Haha. Actually, doesn't matter la cause like can celebrate valentines w th girls and bf since they like so confident gitu they have t come back. Haha. Anywahts, aside from that, nothing much happen. Everything seems t be alright. PE was fun! Haha. We played floorball. Haha. Screwed up my knee. But doesn't matter. But i had fun :)

• Tuesday.

Things weren't fine for th other half part of me. Met alysha and ashy. Passed ally her bdae present. Yeah. Ok. School was alright. Had t stay till seven for th iv drip practise. Damn. Haha. One whole day in school. Wahh. Haha. Was supposed t end at seven but it got dragged t seven thirty. Went home w th usual people plus wafir. Haha. Then yadayada. Things weren't seem t be getting better still. Hais.

• Wednesday.

Nothing much t say. Ended at seven also. Bf was kind enough t wait for me. Haha. He waited w hanif. So it wasn't really much of a problem la. You know, i didn't really concentrated on my practises. Haha. I was like doing like not fully concentrated gitu and sometimes even halfway or not even there. HAHA! So what kan? Lol. Everyone say its difficult its difficult. But that is what your mind wants you t think. CHEY AKU! Haha!

• Thursday.

PE was fun again. Haha. I motivated my friend, renuka for her two point four by jogging w her. Yes, th full six rounds. Haha. In th end she passed. Ahh, i was so proud of her :) Haha. Anywhats, bathed. Bio after that. Then i didn't eat with my girls. Had t do some final project touches. Ate w th usuals. Pca theory next then practical. That day, i didn't stay till seven. Cause i was confident thou i only did one practice. Anyways, i had things t settle w my th other half. Things were bad, then it got worst, but it turned out alright soon enough. Yeah.

• Friday.

School went fine. Haha. I was pissed off w certain things. Only atiqah and sahida knows. And umi too, :) Went home straight after school. Wanted t go back t serangoon home but then i forgot my keys. So i called up my brother and he told me he wasn't home and my mum got hospitalized. I went like point blank. Then i called up mum. It was due t her knee. Yeah. So me and bf went t town t see her. Mum shooed us off t go and eat. Haha. Went t lucky plaze mac's. Ate. Then bought for mum some stuffs then back t th hospital. Her colleagues came and see her. We sat there talking about bio and final fantasy and how things hurts. Haha. Homed at eight thirty. Yeah.

• Saturday.

The day everyone has been waiting for, IV Phase Test. Haha. Sounds so big gitu kan? Lol. My class was combined w C and G. Yeah. So, my turn soon came at about 10? Haha. Waited for two bloody long hours know. Heh. I got miss gan :D Yay! So happy know! Haha. She's like th nicest teacher of all la. I did well, w confidence. Haha. But i cock up during th recording part. I mis-recorded. Shit la. I thought i failed know! Haha. But then, i didn't :D Hehe. Then headed t meet th usuals. Then we went t cafe one since i was hungry. Ate bread. Chit chatted. They went t change. Waited for bf at cafe one. Sakinah, durriah and faridah soon came. Sat w them. Chit chatted. Then he came w helmi. Then they left. Th three of us went t level six t meet th rest of th guys. Soon all came and they went t th toilet t change. Me and bf waited for hafiz. Then both of them went t th toilet and i waited for them -___-" Haha. Boys takes a longer time t change then girls. Can you believe it? Lol. Anyways, after that, seperated. They went t eat. Yan, hafiz, bf and myself walked t simei. Then me and bf headed back home. Th two went t east point. Then yeah. Bf stayed at my place till eight plus. Haha. Ate kfc and pizza all. Then we talked about some stuffs and yeah. Mum was like v comfortable w him already. Alhamdulilah. And he seems t be v comfortable w mum too. Double alhamdulilah. Ok. Thats about it.

• Today.

Home all th way t do on geron. Test besok dok! Haha.

Goodbye/}

Dear you,
" I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die, then live without you
I'll give you all of me, honey that's no lie "
I love you, w all my heart and soul.
Happy belated nine month bi, :)

BUT WITHOUT YOU ALL I'M GONNA BE IS,
Incomplete.

Well, my week went fine. I guess.
Here's how it went.

• Wednesday.

Went t school. As per normal. Like some idiot. Haha :D It was an ok day. Everything went perfectly fine. Uh huh. Th class made me pissed off. Well, not all. Some only. Seriously. Plucking my nerves one by one. But i told myself. Perservere. Yeah.
If i let go what i feel, all going t hell. Lol. Ahjey aku :D
Home at six, (:

• Thursday.

We begged our teacher not t have p.e that day cause we wanted t study on our bio test. Yeah. So he granted our wishes. Haha. I dismissed th class. ME tau, not th teacher. But ME :D I also can become teacher seh. Haha. So anyways, he talked t a bunch of us for awhile. Then we headed t th benches outside level two SAC room t do our revision. I was pissed off w a certain someone for being goddamn irritating. Really. But i kept my cool. I told myself bio is much more important. So yeah. Haha. Did th final revision and we headed t MLT. Did our paper which was so bloody easy i tell you. Haha. Then had short lecture on microbiology and then contact time for awhile then they let us off for break. I don't know why, i was so damn bloody quiet. Haha. I was fine. But i was just quiet. And it got my girls worried. I'm sorry :)
Had lunch w them. Blahh. Ended at six.

• Friday.

Ahhh. Hell day for me. Haha. I was so bloody emo that day. I cried most of th time. Tskk. My knee was in horrible pain. Dammit sia. Tskk. I felt like pulling my leg off. Like seriously seh. Hais. Anywhats, things got better after project management. Haha. I was laughing laughing alreadt but still sad inside la. But i don't want t ruin it. So yeah.
After school, had group meeting for geron. Did th whole thing again and again. And still not finished. WTH KAN?! Haha. Anywhats, after that met bf at bedok. Then home, :)

• Saturday.

Met up at sahida's house t finish up our geron project. THANK GOD WE FINISHED IT. Only left w th sewing. Haha. Our hard work is paid off and finally we can concentrate on our other projects. Yeah. So anyways, left th place at around ten plus i think. Uh huh.
Its a wrap yaw for geron, :)
Now comes project management and biology.
Arghhh! Frust!

• Sunday, today.

Not planning on going out. Planning t complete everything. By today. Deadlines are like what? Tomorrow? Psssht! Haha.
Had a meningful and interesting sms chat w bf just now.
He made me go aww.
Haha. Love him la :)
Ahhh, i guess i have t go now. Biobiobio.
Test finish now project. Nasai. Lol.

Goodbye/}

Dear you,
" And i will take, you in my arms.
And hold you right where you belong.
Till th day my life is through.
This i promise you."
Forever and ever babe :)
Insyaallah.
Love you v much.
xx

WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE BABY,
I just wouldn't be living at all.