i'm having a terrible day today. my lord. arghhh. ok, let me start. tuesday, wednesday, thursday was like any other normal day. really it was. nothing special on that day. nothing worth mentioning except that my patient died. coroners case. did last office and all. so yeah. today, my god did i feel like i was choking to death!
- my throat was super damn in pain. it felt like it was burning.
- my fever got up to more then 41 degress. my mom was like putting ice on my body and head. especially the head. she didn't want me to get brain damaged.
- i was suffocating. gasping for air.
- i couldn't lift my head off from my pillow.
- i was really weak till my mom and brother had to pull me out from bed and help me up so that i can go and see the doctors.
my god it was so awful i tell you. tskk. the past few days, i've been thinking about dying. i've been having thoughts about dying. people have been telling me about dying. and my god, it suddenly strucked into my head, what if i am dying? are this the signs and symptoms? tskkk. what world are you leaving in diyana? of course you're not gonna die, yet. you still have a life to fulfill. and so god help me, i don't want to leave taslim alone.
then kan, haha. as i was texting ally and boyf while waiting for the doctor to see me. i was supposedly be 3rd in line. then right, there was this old lady who came because she got burnt. then the lady asked if i could let her go first, then i said alright. then after that kan, there was this chinese kid who keeps on vomiting, then the lady asked me again if i could let him go first, since he was a kid, sure fine. so i was number 5. then kan, i saw this malay kid who had high fever like me, coming in. he look super adorable i tell you. ohmygosh. i felt like letting him go first then me, but seriously, i cannot tahan already.
the doctors consultation was omg so long. tskk. the doctor wanted to refer me to a&e again, ahha. i said, enough of a&e's please. its making me sick. so my mom said to the doctor to just prescribe me with medications and if i'm not well for the next 4 days, she'll personally sent me to a&e and get me warded. wahlauweiiiii ):
i want to die? can?
I NEED ALLY, DURRIAH, KINAH.
but most important, the one person i need most now, is BOYFRIEND.
"Tk. I dnt tink so. Mataer i tk pukul2 i.tk akn melawan ckp i.die tk kn uat pe i tk suke.die mmg cntrl i bkn nk atas i.die syg i.u mataer org lain.bkn i."
wow, i didn't know. of all the hurtful words you can say, you said that. that " u mataer org lain.bkn i. " wow. congratulations you. you've won.
ITS CRAZY BUT I'M FALLING APART.
then kan, haha. as i was texting ally and boyf while waiting for the doctor to see me. i was supposedly be 3rd in line. then right, there was this old lady who came because she got burnt. then the lady asked if i could let her go first, then i said alright. then after that kan, there was this chinese kid who keeps on vomiting, then the lady asked me again if i could let him go first, since he was a kid, sure fine. so i was number 5. then kan, i saw this malay kid who had high fever like me, coming in. he look super adorable i tell you. ohmygosh. i felt like letting him go first then me, but seriously, i cannot tahan already.
the doctors consultation was omg so long. tskk. the doctor wanted to refer me to a&e again, ahha. i said, enough of a&e's please. its making me sick. so my mom said to the doctor to just prescribe me with medications and if i'm not well for the next 4 days, she'll personally sent me to a&e and get me warded. wahlauweiiiii ):
i want to die? can?
I NEED ALLY, DURRIAH, KINAH.
but most important, the one person i need most now, is BOYFRIEND.
"Tk. I dnt tink so. Mataer i tk pukul2 i.tk akn melawan ckp i.die tk kn uat pe i tk suke.die mmg cntrl i bkn nk atas i.die syg i.u mataer org lain.bkn i."
wow, i didn't know. of all the hurtful words you can say, you said that. that " u mataer org lain.bkn i. " wow. congratulations you. you've won.
ITS CRAZY BUT I'M FALLING APART.
