"I thank you so much for being there for me yesterday and asking me to hold on and feel what i feel. And its my pleasure to be there for you always cause that is what bestfriends do (: Sometimes, i feel that you should deserve the happiness that you should get and i don't. So that is why i'm asking you to not give up whenever you're having an arguement or a small misunderstanding with him cause it may lead to a bigger arguement and therefore, an end to a friendship. I don't want to see you sad nor crying cause it hurts as much if you do. For me, being how i was yesterday was a natural thing for me. I experience it alot of times. Its like a normal routine for me. And like what i said " My heart can only take certain amount of pain. If it dies, so will the person who killed it. " I know you know what i mean. And i'm still not giving up, for the sake of me loving him so much and because you gave me hope to not do so.
I treasure all the times we sms or chat together. Thou i've met you once or twice, and never really got the chance to talk face to face, its like i've known you for a long time. And like i've said before, i've never clicked with anyone so fast especially a girl. Gyeah. You are special to me, (:
I hope, our friendship will continue to blossom as days goes by. And i hope you will stay as happy as you are right now. Because you being happy, will make me feel happy too ok? And remember, i have decisions. You don't. I love my bestfriend loads." ♥
I treasure all the times we sms or chat together. Thou i've met you once or twice, and never really got the chance to talk face to face, its like i've known you for a long time. And like i've said before, i've never clicked with anyone so fast especially a girl. Gyeah. You are special to me, (:
I hope, our friendship will continue to blossom as days goes by. And i hope you will stay as happy as you are right now. Because you being happy, will make me feel happy too ok? And remember, i have decisions. You don't. I love my bestfriend loads." ♥
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Alrightt. I just got back home from the airport. Send off my late teachers son to haji. Then familia went to eat at BK. Then walked around then off to angmokio hub to get my brothers corsage for his prom. Then did a little grocery shopping and here i am now.
Yesterday night, i didn't have anything to say. I was speechless, i was dissapointed, i was hurt. But i'm glad to know that you're ok. That is all i ever wanted. For you to be happy. And for me to suffer alone.
Thanks to durriah for being there for me. Thou yesterday was supposed to be about you. You did realise i was in a turn off mood and you did know the reason why without me having to tell it. Pandai seh dier (: Haha.
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There are a couple more things i wanna let out which i forgot to let it out just now, so i'm letting it out now. Haha. Whatever sia diyy. Pfft.
First and foremost; Alysha Insyirah Bte Abdul Malik, i miss you like tons.
Secondly; I need BT fast. I'm losing alot of blood since yesterday and menses is coming and dear lord i'll be losing even more blood and i don't know if i have enough blood to keep me alive.
Thirdly; I miss my fours. Umi, ry, ain and ira. Arghh.
Fifth; Liverpool won bolton. Haha.
Sixth; Man u won whatever team.
Seventh; I heard arsenal lost. My god. Whats wrong with them?!
Eighth; I think greys anatomy is better then house and ER.
Ninth; My brothers date for prom is super gorgeous. Haha. Good to know he's found someone new after the last one.
Tenth; I have no more random thoughts to put anymore.
Eleventh; DOG OWNERS! Please dispose your dogs poo in a good manner, and not in the lift. My god. Stinking up the environment only.
Twelveth; Last but not the least, Boyf, I still love you no matter what.
Thats all i supposed? Haha. And ohh, i find 3 year old kids very amusing. Nyeahahha. Whateverrrr.
ONE MORE CHANCE IS ALL YOU GET.
To make things right.
