10th November 2008, Monday.

Well, start of a new day in a new ward. I tell you, the staff was giving us cold shoulder like shit. Haha. We, as a group, swore that we hate that ward. Lol. Anywhats, boyf picked me up and sent me back home and we spent time together. It was nice and cosy (:

11th November 2008, Tuesday.

Second day, afternoon shift. Well, it wasn't as bad as before. I worked with nicer seniors. SN rahmah and EN deepa. Nice people. I like working with them. Well, what the CI said, was true. That ward is a busy ward. Always have something to do. Then when we slack for awhile, confirm later got something to do. Which is good la. Better then slacking right? Haha. Then, in the night, i was bloody pissed off with this one patient. Arghh. This is what happen:
" I was aware that SHE couldn't take any dairy products. SHE asked for milo. So i did the milo that SHE wanted. When i gave her the milo, SHE said i used 3 in 1 nye milo. When i told HER that its not 3 in 1 milo, SHE keep on insisting that it is. Then when i told HER that its milo from the can, SHE doesn't believe me. Tskk! "
I felt like making the milo infront of her face sia!

Arghhh! Bingit or whattt! Haha. Ok da. Then after that, i had to change diapers and all before i left for home. Boyf picked me up. Safwan picked durriah up. We walked together. Then me and boyf headed for NEL, safwan and durriah headed for east west line. Yeah. Chillek with boyf then home.

12th November 2008, Wednesday.

Morning shift. First morning shift. WITH MEI POH! My god. Haha. I swear i cannot work with her really. But it was alright uh. Yeah. Had another incident in the morning. Arghh. I feel like quiting ):
I hate guys/apeks/mats. Well, except family members and boyf la. So miang, so gatal, so ARGHH! Haha. Why can't they all just behave like normal human beings? Kan best. Sigh.

Met boyf. We had a tiff. Solved it out when we're back at my place. Thank god. I hate arguing with him. I really wanted us to be happy. Yeah. Anyways, home shortly after that. I'm really tired.

13th November 2008, Thursday.

Morning shift again. I had to go back to school in the afternoon to report and incident to madam phua. So yeah. Morning shift was alrightt. Nothing much happened except for two hooligans trying to be funny. Arghhh. This kind of people still exist in the world. Haha. Fags.

Off back to school with yi xian. Then yadayada. Home. Rest. Changed. Pick up boyf. Then took the bus back home to tamp. Then chill for awhile then off back home.

14th November 2008, Friday.

Morning shift. I was so tired. I didn't know why i was so tired also. Lol. Anywhats, the day went pretty well. Nothing happened. Thank god. Haha. Met boyf at dhouby ghaut. Then trained back home with him and munirah. Haha. Munirah so cute. Keh, whatever. Lol. Chillek. Dear god i love him to death. Please don't take him away from me.

9 plus he headed back home. And now, i'm missing him again.

Today, Saturday.

Nothing much to do. I decided to stay home. I don't want to go out. Haha. Mums home too. Yay! Alrightt. Nothing much to say now. Watching desprate housewives. Lol. Whatever gitu eh.

Dear you,
You know i love you, you know i need you.
You know you mean everything to me.
The whole world, the whole universe, the whole galaxy, the whole everything.
I know you're trying very hard to change. I'm happy that you're trying.
I really am. And i wanna go through that change with you.
Even if it means sticking through whatever, i'm willing to do so.
Cause you're the only guy i have in my heart. You're the one who has the key to my heart and soul.
I love you, i really do.
" Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know. "

Goodbye/}

Ps; Siti nurdurriah, i'm sorry i haven't been texting you and asking you how you've been. I've been busy with alot of things. And i have no time for my friends and family. Hais. I hope you're ok. I hope you're doing fine. I really missed you. And i'm still finding a day for us to go back home together. Haha. Anywhats, i'm still here if you need anything ok. Thou i might not be there to lend you my shoulder to cry on, at least i'm still here to lend you a listening ear. Thats the best i can do, for now. Being there emotionally instead of physically.

" I searched among the card displays,
To see if I could find,
A little something that would say
Just what was on my mind.

However there was not a one,
That captured it just right,
For no one else can understand
Just what I'd like to write.

I even find it difficult
To try to write it down,
For how do I portray to you,
The love that I have known?

I close my eyes and what I see,
Is someone I adore;
A person who is beautiful,
Right down into their soul.

Mere words cannot describe
The many qualities you show,
The love and caring nature that
You share with those who know.

Your kind and gentle temperament,
Your sweet angelic smile,
Your softly spoken sentiments,
That reach across the miles.

Your smile and laugh that sparkle with
The softness of your sighs,
The way your face lights up a room ...
That twinkle in your eye.

The loving gestures through the years,
That quickly come to mind,
For always you've a gentle word
To calm and soothe I find.

I struggle and I search to try
To find some words anew ...
And yet I cannot capture
All the things that make you you.

I shall therefore, be satisfied
That you must simply know,
Just how I feel about you,
For with words I cannot show. "

This is all i can say to you. Love(:

YOUR VOICE WAS TH SOUNDTRACK.
Of my summer. You'll always be my thunder.