time: 1349pm.

oh god. three days i never update. amazing or what? haha! okok. lets start.

tuesday, 7th october 2008.

woke up in the morning and waited for dad to leave for KL on business trip, as always. made for him breakfast. haha. first time tau. lol. then bf came and we slacked. had a few misunderstandings. but we sorted it out. around late afternoon, i changed to hari raya clothing while he waited. then we proceeded to hougang point to makan at kfc. uh huh. then i cabbed down to joo seng while he took the bus back home. went to my aunts place for raya visiting and to see the new born baby. uh huh. i was the first to reach. so i can like play around with the baby uh. cool or what? haha!

then the rest started to come. then ya, eat-eat. talk-talk. i had no mood cause we still weren't in the ok mood yet. left at around 10 plus. uncle sent me and my mom and brother back home. then done. onlined for awhile then called bf. both of us mood still off. then i did the laundry. hahaha. to release anger and sadness, and it work, abit. called him up back then talk then around 3 plus i think i slept. cause i cannot tahan already. heart pain macam thousands of needles poking it. tskk!

wednesday, 8th october 2008.

while waiting for confirmation from bf if he wants to go raya outing with friends, i cleaned the whole house. prepared food yadayada. then he said he wanted to go and our colour is green, as directed by nabil. hah. so i went back to tamp home for awhile. clear stuffs then went to cik yah's house at the opp block cause mum ask to pass kuih and food to her. i did. then bf got out from house and i met him. walked to tamp mrt station to meet the rest.

couples were all in one colour. haha. me and bf, green. hafiz and nina, blue. lokman and gf, black. cool right? haha! then the singles wore different colour la. yeah. first house was to cikgu's house at eunos. took pictures. makan. laugh here laugh there. then off we went cause some people don't want to see some people. haha. then covered east side. then proceed to woodlands to fyans place. another couple, purple. haha. covered up north then proceed to west, yew tee. it was already 11 plus when we reached yew tee. uh huh.

then we broke off from there. bf, hafiz, nina, fyan, syella, nabil and hakim came to my place. last house. by the time we reach was already 1230 ke 1245am. haha. they eat. they slacked. around 0130 they left my place. yeah. sent them off. sent bf off. then off back home. cleaned up the place. i was already so tired and so in pain. i slept. bf called me twice. i wanted to call him back but i was just too tired and too in pain. sorry bi. and i'll update pics as soon i get it from hafiz.

today, 9th october 2008.

something ungrateful happened in the morning. hais. then i rested cause i still wasn't well then here i am now updating. yeah.

till then.
goodbye/}


you,
i must be honest with you, i still can't get her off my mind.
i still am not satisfied with why she wants to do that.
i still feel angry.
i still feel sad.
i still feel why now?
i still feel hais.
i don't blame you. i know you'll never fall back for her.
you told me yourself. i just don't trust her.

&i'm still finding a way to release my anger. i cannot hold it back for long.
before i do something crazy.