well hello there (:
haha. yesyes. i know. so thats why i'm here. lets get it started shall we?
monday, 20th october 2008.
called up boyfriend in the morning to teman him till mrt station. then we got into a misunderstanding and all. so yeah. texted him. didn't sleep after that. afternoon shift for me. got ready at 10 then yadayada. headed off to work. the busy-ness is starting. really. i was so tired. uh huh. couldn't really recall what happen. but i know, when i reached home, omg. haha!
tuesday, 21st october 2008.
went to work with boyfriend. hais. wasn't a pleasant journey. uh huh. theres always something new popping up. hais. it didn't seem to stop. eventhough how hard i tried, it just wouldn't stop. i couldn't take it anymore. i really broke down. i was in so much sadness, i said something to him. something which i regretted as soon as i sent that sms. i know i couldn't turn back time. i hurt him alot. that simple sms hurt him alot. hais.
i wasn't in the mood to work, but i had to put my personal problems aside. i got screwed by my CA for not giving my fullest concentration during work. arghh. i hated myself that very day. i didn't hate myself that much before. hais. i apologised to my CA and tried to focus. but everytime i try, those words i say kept coming back. this is why, i hate regrets.
he met me after work. i couldn't bring myself to face him. really i couldn't. i brought him so much pain. but i wanted to make things better. i tried. but it just doesn't seem to work. he sent me back home. we tried to talk. but it just only makes things worst. hais. in the end, it dragged till the next day.
wednesday, 22nd october 2008.
things doesn't seem to get any better. train journey was as quiet as ever. arghh. new problems came in again. hais. i felt really helpless that time. really i was. and furthermore, i was in serious pain. my chest pain is really biting into me. and when i wanted to talk, its just hurt so bad. arghh.
i tried to put my full concentration on work. tried really hard to put my problems aside. and i did. for awhile till it came back. tskk. i got screwed again by my CA. this time, he wasn't that friendly at all. i told him i'm really trying my best and right now i don't need any screws, but for him to just leave me alone and i'll be fine. and he did, he did left me alone. thank god for that.
he picked me up. i tried once again to make things better. maybe it did a little. but a little wasn't good enough. and again, it dragged till tomorrow.
thursday, 23rd october 2008.
i was supposed to meet him at 6 at the mrt station but i woke up late and reached there at 0615 instead. he already left. i couldn't contact him cause he's handphone wasn't with him ( how bad can that be right? ) so i went to work alone. remembering his words. yeah.
morning shift was dreadful. it was as busy as ever. at 1, we had a meeting. talked about this and that. then, suddenly, nisa was in alot of pain. so i and my CA sent her to A&E. uh huh. we waited and waited. then i went up at 4 to sign out from my ward. then waited for bf to come and then back to A&E. told my CA i had to go off and told nisa to text me as soon as she receives any news or anything. went back home. tried to settled things again. but it just got worst. then i blew up. i punched the wall. he got pissed. i was very angry at that time. i didn't blame him. i only have myself to blame, really.
and we tried, we tried to work things out. and it did. it got better. thank god. i really hoped and prayed that this day would come and it did. we got better (:
friday, 24th october 2008.
met him at the mrt station. supposedly at 6. but i reached there 0610. and he reached a few minutes later. we were better. much better. we laughed and talked. like any happy couple. my heart was really happy.
work never gotten much better. i was more focused and my CA was glad. glad that i was happy again. and so are my friends. gyeah. visited nisa after work for awhile. then off to meet bf. then off back home. we lepaked for awhile. we had fun (:
mum got home. she ask him to go in but he doesn't want to. haha. soon, he went back home. and we weren't in a stable mood at first, but we got ok back again. haha.
i love my boyfriend, he's the best in the whole wide world (:
that night, he went to johor. hais. he knew i was gonna be sad, he told me something. it cheered me up a little. but not so much. haha.
saturday, 25th october 2008.
didn't do much. did stuffs to my hair with my mum. haha. thats about it. slept in early after watching man u and evertons match. they deserve to draw. hah!
today, 26th october 2008.
didn't do much either. woke up, did the chores. watch tv. did my case study. watch movies. uh huh. thats about it. oh, currently, i'm addicted to who's line is it anyway? ohmylord that show is damn funny. haha!
who's line is it anyway, friends, these shows totally made my day (:
" the sky is no longer the limit, your imaginations are. "
ponder on it.
till next time.
goodbye/}
dear you,
counting down the minutes till you're back.
arghhh. ):
i just hope its today and not tomorrow.
I MISS YOU, YOU KNOW!
