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day: saturday.

i couldn't sleep yesterday night. thousand and one thoughts ran into my mind. arghh. why must i read that bloody comment? tskk. now its stuck in my head and it won't go away. i wanna break my old promise to him. i don't knoww. i feel so helpless in this kind of situation. arghhhh! funny, i can just imagine a million and one girls smiling widely and inside their heart they say " oh yes! finally they're having a arguement again. now its my chance to grab him while i still can. *smiles widely* " hahahahahahahah! diyy, you're such a sucker for love. really you are.

i'm sorry. i won't be ok. haha. even if we're back to normal, even how many times you apologise, my heart won't be the same anymore. cause the thing will still be stuck in my head. i never thought you'll go to the extend of sending that type of comment to a girl whom you say was your ex classmate. it still hurts. i bet she's way prettier then me. hahahaha. i can't even face myself to see her pictures ah. pffft!

&now, i could think back of all the things you said to me and have doubts on it. i'm sorry. you broke my trust. sigh. i'm at my grandfathers place now. with my mum, bro, cousins, uncle and aunties. i wanna be a happy kid again, please. is that too much for me to ask?


" and when you thought it'll last. "