updating now, in behavioural science class. haha. attitude kan? who cares. uhm, the past few weeks has been on the down side for me. really it has been. more and more problems accumilating on this small head of mine. its gods test. i accepted his test and now i think i'm failing. * eyes widen * i hope i can pass. and insyaallah the reward is great, (:

everyday after school home with boyfriend. its the first time. haha. but i don't think today i'll be going home with him. oh wells. four days is enough? don't think so. haha. its alright. i confined in myself. i can act better now. huhu.

off to see fireworks with classmates today. hope so. not really that confirmed. don't know laaa. haha. * diyy, you're stressing yourself for no reason * shithead. sucker :D

boyfriend, i'm sorry for yesterday. i don't intend to make you feel angry. i really had the niat to tell you but i didn't want to burden you even more because you have problems to settle and i don't want to add in more problems. its not fair to you cause i'm only your gf and not part of your family. i really don't want to stress you thats why i didn't want to tell you. i felt that i could take care of this problem on my own. so yeah. even if i were to die or whatever, i know you'll have a better life. ok, i don't know why i just said that but yeah. i'm really sorry. i admit its my fault. ):



" give me the strength to carry on. "