3 straight days of crying is enough for me. i'm reallyreally tired. i'm reallyreally down. i really need to be strong. i don't want to let my mum down. i don't want to let my friends down. i don't want to let myself down. i hope now, things will turn out well. i really hated this feeling i had for the past 3 days. it really killed me deep down :(

alright then. back to a so called happy note. today school ended off early cause we didn't have p.e lessons due to the rain. haha. morning, had clinical nursing theory. did on electrolytes and nutritions. then we had 3 hours of break which for me was 2 and a half hours of crying infront of ry. haha. she's the best la. she knows what i'm going through. hee. &all the best to you and mat ok. may you join us soon C: haha! anyways, met up with is. its been a long time since i met her. then talktalk to her just now. she can like know behind my laughter i was in pain, sadness. haha. good ah she. and that means i acting is getting suckier and suckier by the day. oh great! must go for acting class already. hah. whatever sia diyy. and so, after our break we had clinical nursing practical. did on the insertion of the nasogastric tube. haha. ok, i'm proud to say that i'm confident i'll do well in this phase test cause i did this twice before. and i got good remarks about it. so hehe. i just hope i don't screw up. cause like staff nurse and teachers are a huge difference i tell you. teachers stares are much more rahh then staff nurse so we tend to cock up more infront of teachers then staff nurses. haha. no idea why but its just seems to be that way ah. so yeah. practical ended at 3 then we headed to the stadium. luckily our p.e teacher still remains the same, mr saadon. hahaha. he's our bestfriend gitu kan :D

o33o, he came. then it was drizzling abit so he let us go home. cool kan? thats why he's our bestfriend you see. haha. met up with bf at cafe one then went home. soon, i'll be going back to tampines home. seriously, i'm freaking tired. granddad has not been himself nowadays. and everyone is like already preparing for the worst. sigh. i guess i should too. he has been asking for alot of things already. sighh. well, if they have to go then we have to redha right? * touch wood * its just the feelings we have to endure with once we really know that they have left us. heyy, he's the only grandfather that i have left. who wants to lose him sia? sighh. okok, done. uhm, so yeah. tomorrow, if its drizzling or raining again and if the hall isn't occupied with other classes for p.e, then we might go home early again. yay! haha. i love it when we get to go home early. dapat tidur. seriously speaking, attachment period aint that tiring as compared when going to school really. no idea why. haha. aku macam wierd gitu kan :D tomorrow morning, combined clinical nursing theory lecture. at least ok la. can curikcurik tidur. heh. then after that i have life skills lesson. then break. then clinical nursing practical then p.e. yeahyeah. i'm jealous that bf ends super early tomorrow. rahhh. takpe. we have our days. haha! ok da. cukop.

boyfriend! please call me faster. i think i'm falling asleep already. and you, iloveyou C: ok. done. bye dumbs.